Came out to my mom

[Guest CallMeKatie]

Well I did it, and I can honestly say it was the hardest thing I've ever done, it was just my mom and I at home and she was in her room. So I went into her room and sat with her for a little awhile and I got up and left a couple of times, my mind kept talking me out of it, thinking of the worst case scenario. I was shaking pretty badly, my chest was shaking too, it was the most nervous I had ever been. I thought she was noticing something was wrong but she didnt, I just sat there with her making small talk until I finally built up the courage and I told her.

I told her how i felt, I told her I have always felt I was a girl trapped in a boys body. I told her that I am her daughter, and I want to transition so others see me that way. That I am transgender, I wish to change my gender so I can be me and be happy. I told her that nothing she did made feel this way, and that it was no ones fault, it was just the way I was born. I was started crying half way through which made it harder to tell her my feelings. I said a lot more but I can't really remember everything I said.

My mom just kinda had her arm around me and seemed to be trying to comfort me, I'm not sure I couldn't tell. She was crying to and she didn't say anything. After a while of silence I just left.

I didn't know what to say, I still don't, it's hard to understand how she took it. I was expecting her to ask me questions about it, but she didn't, I'm taking that as not a good sign. I am trying to comprehend what just happened but I cant. I wish I had stayed and asked here what her thoughts were but I left.

Maybe I'll go back in a little while and ask her how she feels.

I just hope she didn't call my dad or brother and tell them. I want to tell them myself but I also don't want to come out to them just yet.

Katie

[Guest Jillian99]

That s very brave. I don't think I would have the courage you have just displayed. I have hidden for some many years. Don't follow that path. Be honest. Be open. Good luck to you (and yours). Hugs and kisses my dear.

[Charlize]

You are a brave person Katie. Its so hard to open and be honest. No matter your moms reaction you have opened up and that is a major step. Hopefully she will understand and help you to travel your path as a support.

Hugs, Charlie

[Guest vtphoenix]

Your mom probably didn't know what TO say. Just give her a little time. I came out to my mom in much the same way, only I was 23 and I had picked her up at her house and we went on a drive somewhere. She was talking and all I could think about was how to tell her. I barely remembered the conversation after either, I was just glad it was over. She also didn't ask a lot of questions at the time but it's been 10 yrs now and she still occasionally asks me something about it - the questions don't really fully stop.

Anyway, I'm so glad that you found the courage to do this - it's scary. I mean, I'm having SRS next Monday and I think that is pretty much the scariest thing I've ever faced, until I remember what it was like to come out in the very beginning. That is how hard I think that first step is!

[Guest Luuceee]

You did well Katie well done, give her time she has a lot to take in but im sure she will be fine.

Lucy