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Well a couple of days ago I was in my room and didnt want to spend anymore time in male mode so I made a bad decision to come out to my father by letter and I went down stairs in the middle of the night and put the letter where I knew he'd find it. The reason I call this a bad decision is because I did it before I was ready. Anyway the next mourning was not a good one, after some tears and some arguing, no one spoke in my house for about a day and I just sat in my room. Then I had another talk with my Dad further explaining what it was how i felt. I pretty much explained why would a guy like me who has a lot of friends, and has a good life for a male want to start living as a female with all the scrutiny I would be getting from doing this.a choice but rather something you're born with, after hours of no talking again, we had another conversation this time with me my mom and my dad. What came out of that conversation was my dad does not accept me right now as a female and does not see me as a female but he's going to try. He said he will not call me Katie and use the right pro nouns but overtime maybe he will see me as a female. That's actually better then I expected, I thought I'd be kicked out. Luckily that's not the case.

That same night I came out to my father I wanted to come out through, facebook, it was a bad night for me I felt I couldnt live as male anymore and wanted to take drastic measures and just tell everyone I was female. I wrote down the entire message coming out and then came to my senses and didn't send it. I am not ready for that.

I will be calling the GT by my house soon and hopefully get an appointment. My mom thinks that after a few sessions with a GT and if she diagnoses me with GID, that my father may see it the was I was telling him and may start coming around. Also my parents agreed that I can start dressing around the house, although not everyday, sometimes and I can be dressed. My mom says they agreed I can wear jeans and t-shirts in girl mode on ocassion but nothing too girly like dresses or skirts. But mostly when my Dads at work but if he comes home and I'm in it she promised he wont do anything or say anything bad. Thank God for my mom who is probably making all this happen.

Finally either tomorrow or sunday, I will be going to the mall with my two friends and my mom, my mom wasnt gonna come but she said she thinks that if more of us are there together it will help take attention off of me and it will look like just a group of girls shopping, My face is passable I believe at the moment. And a few girls here at lauras said my body passed. I will post a photo of what I am wearing tomorrow, when I can, sometime tonight. I'm really nervous and somewhat excited to go out for the first time in public, well I've walked outside with a friend as a female but never around a place with a lot of people. I'll let you know when the photo is up.

<3 Katie

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Guest angels wings

Having ur mothers support is awsome your dad will slowly come around. He is in shock and will go through some emotions as he comes to terms with this . Just be patient don't push too much . It takes time but it sounds like his heart is in the right place and he dearly loves you .

Happy shopping :)

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Katie, i'm so happy for you and share your excitement. And the support of your mom!! What a blessing. Your dad needs time. How long did it take you to come out? He may need that long to accept. My son in his late 30's doesn't see me as anything other than dad in a dress and may never get beyond that. So..... My wife of 41 years says tonight after i've been full time for 3 weeks......You're still (male name) to me......So....... Enjoy and others will see your joy. And keep us posted we care,

Hugs, Charlie

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Katie, that's really not a bad result at all. Grudging acceptance and tolerance is a whole lot better than the opposite. Congrats, hon. Now get some good books on the subject to give them, or materials from the Human Rights Campaign and other places, and let them read it if they are willing. Then, go find that G.T. You're on a good path, Katie, I wish you luck.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Janice Lynn

Katie, i'm so happy for you and share your excitement. And the support of your mom!! What a blessing. Your dad needs time. How long did it take you to come out? He may need that long to accept. My son in his late 30's doesn't see me as anything other than dad in a dress and may never get beyond that. So..... My wife of 41 years says tonight after i've been full time for 3 weeks......You're still (male name) to me......So....... Enjoy and others will see your joy. And keep us posted we care,

Hugs, Charlie

<sigh> Charlie, like you my wife has been incredibly understanding and supportive

of my transition, but she has expressed the same feelings as your wife in saying

"You'll always be ***** to me."

Like you we have been married for over 40 years and actually go back 46 years

together. Quite honestly, I am not even sure it is possible for our wives to ever

think of us as Charlie or Jan, even if we fully transition. How on earth can or could

they somehow reinterpret all those memories and all the years of living and

loving together? I doubt that it is really possible and probably more than we have

a right to expect of them.

You are out to your son but I am not. Awhile back we were at the point of having

that conversation given that he rarely gets to return home, but I strongly suspect

that my son's reaction would be very much like yours. I do think sons have an

especially hard time when their fathers become MTFs. Perhaps the best we can

hope for is a time when they concede that the change is inevitable and in our own

personal best interests.

Hugzzz and stuff, Jan

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Guest Luuceee

Im glad you are out to both your parents, i think family is the biggest challenge. Its still early days for your dad so it will be a shock for him. Once things have settled down and things are moving forward im sure he will be just fine with it. I hope you have fun shopping. :)

Lucy

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Guest AllisonJane

Hi katie :) That's not too bad of an overall 1st reaction sweetie. I think it's good that you waited on the Facebook coming out as well,you don't wanna rush this stuff really. Good luck shopping! I have my 1st trip out (other than going to my GT) tom as well. It's exciting for sure

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