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I'm not sure where to start, but I've recently begun my male-to-female transition and my chosen name is Audrey. I was diagnosed with Klinefelter's Syndrome (XXY) before I started 9th grade and was prescribed testosterone. While I had wished I was born a girl for the longest time, I didn't understand that most guys don't want to be a girl, or that transitioning would've actually been possible for me. As I started to see the effects of puberty appear, I often was confused by what I saw in the mirror. There wasn't anything in particular that I could point out, but I knew something was wrong. My body looked wrong, my breasts looked wrong, my stomach, my hips, my clothes didn't fit the way they should've. At the time I probably decided it was because I was too skinny or not athletic enough, but I wasn't right.

Fast forward about six years to last year, where I am daydreaming about being a woman, and I realize something: "This is never going to happen, why do I keep thinking about this?!" That realization felt terrible! I never really stopped to think about what those feelings meant to me, but when I did.. the 'truth' hurt. Immediately after that chain of thoughts, I researched transsexuality and transitioning, and found that there was hope. I found that years of society's (or my bigoted rural town's extremely) skewed interpretation of what a transsexual is or looks like was so wrong. Transitioning is possible, and great results that I could be happy with are achievable. I learned about electrolysis and hormones, and realized I could someday look in the mirror and see the body that I knew was right.

I also came to the terrible realization that being XXY, masculinization through testosterone didn't have to had happened. I didn't know why at the time, but when I was about 14, I was growing breasts because of my condition. When I started testosterone that growth stopped, and now I regret so much that I started T in the first place. XXY is an intersex condition, and I strongly support giving gender therapy to those who are diagnosed, because I know I'm not the first to go through this. I wish I would've known then what I do now.

All I know is that I'm going from xXY to XXy.

^ copy and pasted from a tumblr entry I wrote.

I recently got a full-time job (in male mode) so my transition can actually move forward as soon as I start in a few weeks. Though I won't be able to come out at work due to its nature, I am starting a media company with some friends which if it works out, would be an awesome, ideal situation. I have my first gender therapy appointment this Monday, and I'm looking to start my electro in August.

So, hello! I'm Audrey.

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Guest Mia J

Hello Audrey and welcome to Laura's. We are happy to have you here on the forums.

We do have members who are also inter-sexed like you and you should be able to find a lot of support here as you take the steps towards transition.

If you have not done so already, we do ask that all members read the terms and conditions to see how we operate on the forums. You can find a link at the bottom right of any page.

Mia

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Hello Audrey and welcome to Laura's. You definitely have a place in our community and we are glad that you have found us. It sounds as if you have come a long ways and have a pretty good understanding of who you are and where you want to go. You are going to find that you are not alone here at the Playground. There are many members of our community who are dealing with circumstances very similar to your own. Many of them will probably stop by and introduce themselves to you. You are going to find that Laura;s is a very caring and supportive community. We are here to offer support and information. We will answer any questions you may have. And we look forward to listening to your thoughts on any number of issues. You will find that you will fit in with this community and we work hard to help each other during the good times as well as the times when life knocks us down.

So take your time, check out the different topics, read what other members have posted and jump in when you have something you feel will add to the discussion. There is no pressure in this community to be anything other than yourself. Their are also chat rooms on Laura's Playground that you are welcome to join. It does require a separate log in. There is also a wealth of information on this website concerning your condition. We also have links to Gender Therapists. So Audrey, I'm Kathryn and I'm happy to meet you. Welcome to the community that is Laura's Playground. If I can help you in anyway, you have only to ask.

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Welcome Audrey, Sounds like you are on the move.

Hugs, Charlie

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Guest miss kindheart

Hi Audrey,

<<< hug >>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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