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Hello all,

My name is Rai (full name Siorai, just shorten it to Rai) and, to be honest, I was mucking about on the internet and just stumbled across this site. I work full-time, getting paid, as an airplane mechanic (I specialize in hydraulics). I work part-time, for free, as a nationally certified victim advocate.

I somehow got the notion that if I could heal someone else's heart, my own heart would mend and that's why I'm dedicated to helping others in my free time. I've realized I need to heal my own heart, but I still think a part of me heals through the work I do. Part of why I volunteer is to understand, through education, myself as well as others.

I don't talk to any of my biological family but I have a surrogate family (a sister and a brother) who have stood by me since I was 13. I still struggle sometimes with the way my biological family is and how my new one came to be but.. As my brother so eloquently put, "sometimes the biological family isn't the family you need".

I educated myself in my young years as best I could and learned enough to have some terminology for what I "am". I have gender dysphoria, I was born a biological female who should be a biological man. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually I am a man. I haven't gone through any physical transitioning; I have modified myself to some extent, i.e., stopping the "monthly cycle" through a progestin implant.

Even though I've known for a long time who I am, I haven't had the best of understanding beyond my surrogate family and the subject makes my nerve endings exposed. Besides my family, no one else knows for a fact I have gender dysphoria but I don't necessarily hide it either. In my career field I'm told "you should'a been a man" and I'll respond with "I am a man".

In the last year I've reached the point of being proud of how far I've come; albeit a bit confused on some parts and knowing I have a long way to go. Joining Laura's Playground is just another step on the healing, and self-discovering, road I've been traveling since I'm a firm believer you can't help others unless you first help yourself.

Thanks for your attentive time ladies (& gents!),

- Rai

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Guest angels wings

Hello Rai. ,Welcome to Laura's :)

Thank you for your introduction . Relax and enjoy . You will meet many who are travelling similar journeys . Looking forward to getting to know you :)

Angel :)

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Howdy RaiRai, we're glad you could drop in! We have a bunch of people here that can help you out. Whether you need advice or a few open ears, we've got it here at Laura's :D

I should make a commercial >.> But seriously, hi!

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Welcome Rai Rai, Cool name. You are certainly not alone and Laura's is a great place to relate with others . I grew here reading and sharing with others. Hope we can help you in the same way. Jump in the playground is a fun place. Please take a moment to read the terms and conditions at the bottom of any page.

Hope to see more from you.

Hugs,

Charlie

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@ Angel; Thank you very much; I look forward to getting to know you as well! The playground seems like it's a definite place to relax and that's part of why I joined.

@Xeda112358; lol, thanks. A commercial'd be pretty cool especially if it was on national, or even international, tv. Lookin' forward to the day people aren't afraid to talk about gender issues without going "anyone who tries to change their gender is immoral" when I try to explain that some people honestly have the wrong brain for their body. Had a conversation like that on Wednesday with a coworker. <_< Needless to say, he didn't get it.

@Christina; Hello Christina! I believe I've seen you in the chat a few times. It's good to actually meet you "face-to-face".

@Charlie: Thanks! Siorai was my legal name change ( I did that as soon as I hit 18 ); I tried choosing an androgynous name that could go either way and still be shortened to something masculine with some of my ancestry thrown in. It worked because my coworkers thought I was a guy before I showed up my first day by name alone. I'm sure I'll find plenty of help here; the warm welcome is a good start for me!

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Welcome to the Playground, Rai. As you've already seen, we are a pretty friendly bunch, so I hope you feel at home here. I encourage you to post your questions and ideas in any of the forums, and you are certainly welcome to use your skills and training to help others in need of support. I look forward to reading your posts.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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@Gennee; Hi and thank you! I'm hoping I keep learning more about myself through this board.

@Carolyn Marie; Thank you! The friendly atmosphere really does help loosen me up. I hope that I can be of some use while I also learn more about myself.

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Guest miss kindheart

Hi Rai,

<<< hug >>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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Guest android

Hi Rai,

I'm new here but would like to welcome you. I hope we can both enjoy our time here. I seems like a very supportive place. Best Wishes

Paranoid Android

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