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Hospitalization for alcoholism, I'm ^%&# scared


Simon/Sarah

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I have a really serious alcohol problem and I have been ready now for a while to properly deal with it. I'v tried all the usual things like control how much I drink, only drink on certain days etc etc. Since I started discussing with my doctor and started seriously trying to deal with my addiction all attempts to sober up have gone horribly bad. My doctor now wants to put me into hospital for a little while to treat my addiction and I am really scared. I think what I'm really scared of though is dealing with my addiction and not the hospital. I'm going to do it. December the 1st my doctor is going to admit me into hospital.

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I'm happy for you Sarah.

As I have posted deep in these Alcohol forums sometime in the past two years, the worst pain of my life preceded entry into the new world i live in today. The simple fact is that we who have been ensnared by addiction respond almost exclusively to pain as a motivator to change our ways... Family members, employers, priests, can't overcome the craving and feelings of stress that only another drink or drug can make go away in a snap of the fingers, right?

Detox and a program of recovery can lead to a life beyond imagination if you set aside the need to judge or control the program. The people who make it in recovery are the ones who park their judgements and opinions by the door when they enter the program. "Willingness" is more important than "knowledge". I am sure they will teach you a lot but the biggest favor you can do yourself is accept that it is ok to do it their way, without reservation. Thats why pain is important... It shatters the ego in order to allow us to have an open mind...

Just keep reminding yourself that fear is normal, others felt the same way. And change is ok, no matter how scary. If you are not Out, dump the secrets on the table and be prepared for a new way of life....

Btw, the chat room here is adding a second weekly meeting. Hope to see you there sometime.

All the best

Michelle

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Sarah, I'm glad you have made this decision. To many of us try to do this on our own and fail. I could only control my drinking by getting help as i was powerless over the desire and need to drink. Detoxing is or was for me a very hard process but not as hard as loosing what had become my best friend(the bottle). I am free now. Try to be honest, open and willing. HOW

Its a formula that can help you find the peace you need to not only live without booze but beyond your wildest dreams. Sobriety and its gifts are my new best friend.

We are here for you

Hugs,

Charlie

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I'm glad for you too, detox is the best way to start. I admire your courage. I was forced into treatment by loosing the best job I ever loved. That was back in 1991. My New years gift 1992 was AA, best present I ever received. Run with it girl! JodyAnn

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My stay in detox seemed like a gateway into hell, but instead turned into a door into hope.

If they are using a purely medical program, you will have to put up with several folks watching you and taking blood samples two or three times a day, but they will help you and are being sure you do not develop serious signs of blood pressure spikes and or seizures. No booze or any intoxicant, but probably some light medication to take the real jitters and nervousness out without making you high. My nursing staff was eagle eyed for any of us having withdrawal effects, and even if those started, you will get some medication to keep you from serious hurt. They do not make you go Cold Turkey if they can avoid it. They will make you as comfortable as possible, but will make your comfort come with drugs that they will not allow to addict you themselves and they wil be careful to give you ones for you which may be different from your roommates.

You will get regular meals that are targeted to withdrawal and what you eat will be noted. I had a diabetic diet for withdrawal, and while a bit light on the portions, the dining room had 24/7 coffee or tea, bouillion, crackers, and maybe if the dietician allowed, some sweet snacks, or some fresh fruit.

You may be invited to group discussions, but at first it will be if you want, because the first few days it will be hard for you to concentrate and you need concentration for meetings.

My detox lasted 5 days and the nurse announced my discharge by telling me that they finally had gotten some blood back in my alcohol stream!! My sense of humor was returning at that point, but all I could do was roll my eyes and say Thank You.

Its not a stay in a five star hotel, but it will be a vacation from daily life. My suggestion to you is simply leave your life at the door when you enter the ward, you will pick up a new one on the way out. Your job cannot be done from the hospital, and you may find it easier to do, catch up with and improve when you meet it on the other side. Your friends and even domestic partners are best kept completely out of the ward so they do not distract you with their needs or wants. Your debts and even a positive bank account have no place in your mind for those days because they will drag you out into a world you are trying to leave behind, you will be so much richer in many ways with a discharge letter and treatment plan in hand when you leave.

This is actually a step for you, by you and of you. Its a decision that you can own as your very own. I am glad you have decided to do this FOR YOU. My detox opened all of my paths to counseling and self honesty and some personal joy to come in the next two months. Happy BIRTH day on December 1.

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I'm happy for you. It is always great to see someone choose to fight for a new life. It is also wonderful that you have a doctor to help the process. I'm sure you will come out fine!

Best wishes,

Debra

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I have a really serious alcohol problem and I have been ready now for a while to properly deal with it. I'v tried all the usual things like control how much I drink, only drink on certain days etc etc. Since I started discussing with my doctor and started seriously trying to deal with my addiction all attempts to sober up have gone horribly bad. My doctor now wants to put me into hospital for a little while to treat my addiction and I am really scared. I think what I'm really scared of though is dealing with my addiction and not the hospital. I'm going to do it. December the 1st my doctor is going to admit me into hospital.

Hi Simon/Sarah,

Hope the hospital stay has been good for you. Just checking in :)

That highlighted sentence jumped out at me today. The Addiction never wants to let go and will try to trick our minds. If you are able to follow the program you are in your life is likely to change for the better in ways that you don't even yet know.

Take care!

Michelle

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Honey, I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict and I worked a number of years in a hospital based program till the insurance companies shut us down. They did it for a good reason. Hospitals can temporarily separate you from access to your substance of choice. They can detox you. They can introduce you to the principles of recovery. However, sooner or later you're going to have to step out into the "real" world. In that world you'll need to learn to live a normal life without alcohol. That's why only the first half of the first step of the 12 Steps mentions alcohol, the other 90%+ teaches how to live without it.

Hugs... Jan

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