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This is my latest work in oils. I would like your input about how you feel when you look at it. How would you describe it? I have a rather thick skin so even art critics can sound off. There was not much I could do about the glare from the light at the top and the easle shadow and this is the sharpest picture I could take. Sorry! White box in lower left is where I signed it. I blocked it out for some privacy reasons.

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Wow Nicole you do really nice work. I just want to put my chin in my hand and amire the picture. Beautiful colors, calming, longing looks, like I wish I could be standing there instead of trapped in this world. There are some really neat places inside you, glad you have the talent to let them out. Hug. Jody

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Thank you Jody. All of that is from my minds eye. That one is going to the surgeon who changed my life recently. I plan on giving it to him this Monday.

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Guest blackcoffee_redwine

the band of light (or energy, energy is a more exciting word) thats heading towards earth is the most successful part of the painting. perhaps if you abstracted it more. or focused more on just one element in the composition. because the mountains are fantastic too. find more focus.

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Your paintings are strong and certainly show the development of a style and a theme you are working with. I would recommend that you get a piece of flat black fabric to use as a backdrop for your work when you make your pictures. I learned that trick from a pro who was doing my work. If you do that and set up in a darkened room you can then use spots or flash to remove virtually all of the sheen that the light causes . It has helped me a lot and my work is mostly on glass that has a very reflective character.

Hugs,

Charlie

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Here is a painting I did last summer. I think I have strange things going on in my mind! LOL Thank you Megan. This painting is called WORLDS. I am trying to pin down my style. So your input is valuable.

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Nicole,

I like both of your paintings. You are a gifted artist.

I like the first one with the firey golden ladder up to heaven and all of the souls [ in the flame trails].

But, the second one is breath-taking. It's like being drawn into ones soul through their eye. I give this one the blue ribbon.

You say that you have other paintings, have you considered doing a showing? just a thougt. Maybe even posting them in your gallery so that we could admire ech and every one of them.

Mike

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Hi Bulldog. I might put them in the gallery here. It is neat to see how people feel when they look at my paintings. It is all about feelings really. The worlds painting you really like is on my wall right now and earmarked for my cousin. But before I send it I want it reproduced to canvas. That painting you see is a representation of me letting go. The two dark areas in the (the one to left and the one almost center) have special significance to me.

The whole idea behind every painting I do is to create something no one has ever seen before in a scene. To calm the person viewing it and to put a slice of my soul on canvas. I plan to produce several paintings a year for the rest of my life.

Now here is the kicker, I used to oil paint and draw when I was a child. Upto about 12 years old. Then I snapped and broke inside. I had a tramatic event that changed every thing, then I put down the paint brush for nearly 30 years. Once I resolved things, my identity, and made peace with the life, what you are seeing is a result of years of pent up pain and resolve. Why do I paint alien landscapes? Because that is where I went in my mind to escape this world when I a child and prevented from being me. It was my safe spot.

I hope that make sense. Perhaps it is time to write my bio? Maybe I will write something today.

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Guest Sarah Faith

Wow Nicole, I love it! I haven't seen many paintings done with more of an astronomy point of view. The use of the black background of space really brings out the colors used in planets, as well as the subtle coloring in the blooming effect (in the second painting). I am really impressed you're very talented!

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Wow Nicole, I love it! I haven't seen many paintings done with more of an astronomy point of view. The use of the black background of space really brings out the colors used in planets, as well as the subtle coloring in the blooming effect (in the second painting). I am really impressed you're very talented!

Thank you. That means a lot to me! :)

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Hi Bulldog. I might put them in the gallery here. It is neat to see how people feel when they look at my paintings. It is all about feelings really. The worlds painting you really like is on my wall right now and earmarked for my cousin. But before I send it I want it reproduced to canvas. That painting you see is a representation of me letting go. The two dark areas in the (the one to left and the one almost center) have special significance to me.

The whole idea behind every painting I do is to create something no one has ever seen before in a scene. To calm the person viewing it and to put a slice of my soul on canvas. I plan to produce several paintings a year for the rest of my life.

Now here is the kicker, I used to oil paint and draw when I was a child. Upto about 12 years old. Then I snapped and broke inside. I had a tramatic event that changed every thing, then I put down the paint brush for nearly 30 years. Once I resolved things, my identity, and made peace with the life, what you are seeing is a result of years of pent up pain and resolve. Why do I paint alien landscapes? Because that is where I went in my mind to escape this world when I a child and prevented from being me. It was my safe spot.

I hope that make sense. Perhaps it is time to write my bio? Maybe I will write something today.

Nicole,

I find your paintings very soothing yet it allows ones mind to try and fathom the true meaning of the art. One is drawn into the inner most depths of the particular piece and that is the facet that makes one an artist. To create something so different that no one else can clone it- it is all yours and yours alone;much like an authors work.

I have no idea of what your tramatic incident was, but I can tell you one thing, it has molded you into a truly gifted artist.

You said that you might begin writing your bio today. That's great. You never have to publish it unless you want to that's the good thing about it. But, on the other had, it might very well make an excellent book. And, finding an excellent book on Ts/Tg is very difficult. Besides, the more works that are published from our community and made available to the public is a step forward in the publics understanding of GID and the many difficult issues that each one of us must endure in this life's journey. There is a new publisher, Transgress Press that is actively seeking TS/TG manuscripts. I have been in contact with them and they seem to be very professional.

Take care and keep on painting

Mike

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Guest Gregg Jameson

Hi Nicole,

I have been trying to find the time to sign in and respond to your artwork.

Wow! Very nice! :D

I am in awe of the amount of energy which emanates from your work! Truly awesome!

I enjoy the mystical/cosmic theme.. is that what you'd call it? I don't want to mis-label your themes, ever!

(I also love to see the NASA pictures posted each day of "space.")

I want to spend more time with these images as soon as I can. They grab my interest, for sure!

I am so glad you are free to paint again! Cause for celebration! :groupwavereversed:

Thanks so very much, Nicole, for sharing your work with all of us! :friends:

With Sincere Appreciation,

Brad

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Thank you Brad. Perhaps they are mystical? Some one said that they think that my mind is very abstract and that is why I find solutions to problems others might miss. If that makes sense. I am not sure but I am sure if some one could wander through my mind they would either be freaked out or at peace with the landscapes I see.

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Guest Gregg Jameson

Yes, "Mystical." Nice! :D

Your mind works in ways which allow you to see some landscapes others may or may not see.

Your mind works in ways which allow you to fathom some concepts others may or may not be able to fathom.

You think outside of the box. You also likely "experience" outside of the box, so to speak. Just a guess on my part.

This is also at least some of why you can fathom, and enjoy, Michio Kaku's work, too.

This is quite a gift. You may feel isolated with how your mind works, at times, only because it is truly exceptional.

Just my own humble opinion, Nicole.

I truly admire the way you think and the perspectives you offer to all of us.

With Gratitude,

Brad

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Guest (Lightsider)

Wow. You hit one thing right on the head and did not miss. I do feel isolated. Not sure if I would say it is because my mind is exceptional. Your post just floored me. Sometimes I wonder if what I post or share is making a difference because I see things so differently at times. I think a lot of people get frustrated with me. LOL.

Thank you Brad for your kind words.

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Guest Dorothy Lynne

Love the painting, I was wondering what medium you used. Has an American Indian feel to me, I[ve seen something similar in Oklahoma years ago at a museum or craft fair. Beautiful.

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