Not sure where else to put this (questions re: CAH, stress-related issues)

[Guest My_Genesis]

Was wondering if anyone here knows anything about congenital adrenal hyperplasia (see here), and how it might interact with chronic lifestyle stress or maybe even present as adrenal insufficiency (info for anyone who's lost lol: http://en.wikipedia...._insufficiency; also of interest to note here, wish I was taught this stuff in school : http://en.wikipedia....wiki/Adrenarche)

I can't seem to find this info anywhere, not even the doctors I go to with my symptoms, but I'd say most if not all of my problems are adrenal "symptoms", and it seems to have always had the same, ongoing negative impact on my life, and been attributed to a variety of psychiatric problems..and I want to get to the bottom of it for once in my life. Also, my parents are patronizing so they aren't going to help, they ultimately also say everything is behavioral/"in my head", they treat me like a child so they only make it all worse.

I'm also in a bit of a catch-22 because I've lived in NYC my whole life, always hated it, because it's like in direct conflict with my personality (I need a lot of space and time away from people and noise or I go insane..probably how I went insane.. ); I've taken time off school to try to find a job, but I'm only noticing how thrown off my body is because I'm so out of it most days--during the day. I seem to wake up at night. I also take ADD meds (whether it's really ADD I don't know, even though everyone else assumes they know everything about me lol) and this still is the case, I focus better at night (without the meds..or caffeine..) than I do during the day most of the time (with both those things.)

But to find a good doctor who specializes in this kind of thing, it seems I need a job, because most days I can't wake up to see a doctor (I sleep through alarms, or don't walk fast enough because I didn't allow myself 5 hours to travel locally, or I can't get to a lab to do a blood test a doctor requested because they close before I can function...)

(PS I already brought up things like being fatigued/tired all the time with the doc who prescribes my T...that's how I got the B12 shots...and when I asked, an explanation of why I don't need my adrenal hormones tested... lol..)

I was on antidepressants since I was 8 years old (minus the few times I attempted to go off them and went off the deep end mentally, lol), I'm pretty sure those screwed me over even more than I was to begin with. I finally went off them this summer and it seems that stimulants are the only thing that relieve my anxiety, if I take things that are supposed to be relaxing or increase serotonin (like these natural sleep supplements I took with 5-HTP, melatonin, and a bunch of other horribly tranquilizing things that nearly gave me a panic attack the night before last )... yeah, that is what happens. The morning of christmas "eve" I woke up very hungry and lightheaded, no one was home and my mom had left a donut at the table for me, apparently those give me panic attacks too now. Where most people find "pleasure" I get panic attacks, LOL. (I've done CBT for this and it helps, but it seems I also need to be on meds for that to work too...)

So yeah, I feel so screwed up and start distrusting any/all "advice" to do things to help me "relax", everything is the exact opposite for me! Pretty sure my body outright rejects serotonin by now! Why don't people understand, some people don't need to look so hard and far outside themselves for contentment, that's just so much unnecessary excitement... what drugs are THEY taking?!

lol.

Anyway, I just don't know what to do with this, I feel stuck.... but I need to do something or I'm going to go through the same decade and a half (or so) of mental "disorders" defining my life, and I think that would make anyone crazy?

I guess I should mention, "charlesasher" (ftm on youtube) has a video where he talks about a doctor visit where he got diagnosed with CAH (a mild form.) So it seems entirely possible they might overlap. He also mentioned his doctor saying it's sometimes considered an intersex condition, especially if it overlaps with being trans....