Hi

[Guest Alexthecat]

So I thought I was FTM at the end of 2011. Got into a counselor (who is a D.O.) due to other reasons but finally ended up telling her what I thought months later. (I have issues talking to people about anything personal). Started wearing a binder in Feb 2012. After months of talking and raking up a huge bill (my insurance is crap) she wants me to take this "test" with a psychologist. So after another $610 I find out I have SPD (schizoid personality disorder). Why don't they say how expensive this stuff is? They also failed to inform me this test was "the test" to start on transition so I was not prepared on all the specifics. Then the psychologist wanted me to keep seeing the counselor and to retake the test in a year. I opted to stop seeing the counselor as I didn't need a bigger bill when the counselor wouldn't do anything for me until the test was retaken anyways. I really need to find a cheaper psychologist too, she was nice but the bill wasn't. $260 on top of the office visits just to compile the papers so a total of $610 before insurance.

Now I am in the waiting period before the next test and saving up money for top surgeory. ($2000+ so far) Funny thing is I went into the counselor expecting and saying I wanted T then top surgeory but now I think just the top surgeory would make me happy. I also am thinking it would be easier to get approval for since many females get their breasts removed due to cancer and things like that? I just know that binding makes me feel better. Hell I am self conscience walking down the hallway to the bathroom at home without a binder on (even when no one is home). Guess I am sort of glad on the waiting period but I would feel better with a surgeory approval letter and a waiting period.

Guess that is my intro and the short version of my journey.

[Charlize]

Thanks for the introduction dear. I know that feeling of self consciousness when even alone. It has gotten so much better as i live as myself. You might want to shop around for a GT. I don't know where you are but many area have support centers where you can get help at reasonable rates. It helped me to have someone experienced in trans matters to talk too. I managed to open right up and express myself to another person as i never had before. It really helped me on my path.

Again, welcome to Laura's i'm glad you posted a bit about yourself. Your first post showed a caring nature for another.

Hugs,

Charlie

[Guest Alexthecat]

I'll have to look around. I know there are support groups in the next city over but I haven't went to any. Added my state and I gotta say the only good thing about living here is that there is Dr. Medalie about an hour away. So once I get that letter the price will be cheaper since I won't have to travel that far or stay in a hotel.

[Guest miss kindheart]

Hi Alex,
<<< hug >>>
Welcome to Laura's Playground.
Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.
The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.
Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.
One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules.
We all look forward to seeing you.
vanna

[Guest Alexthecat]

Hi Alex,

<<< hug >>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules.

We all look forward to seeing you.

vanna

I actually made an account their about a year ago. I didn't realize you guys had forums. Not quite sure what my password was but I think my username was the same.

[Guest miss kindheart]

i thought i recognized you Alex

<<< hug >>>

you can recover your password on the log in page

Or Just make a new username

If your email has changed you can pm me here, and I can change it for you

vanna