life story of a transexual - the short version

[Guest melanie maritz]

Firstly I wanna say "Hello!" to everyone here I hope to make a lot of new friends that are like me.

Let me begin at the beginning, I was about 3 years old when I knew something just wasn't quite right.

Since my parents sent me to a therapist after I told them last year, my dad said it's impossible that I could even remember that far back. And the therapist, which was not really a therapist but a priest, asked me how I felt and how I "knew".

It made me confused since I couldn't explain to him how I knew or how it felt. He also asked me how do you know you feel like a girl inside when you aren't one. I didn't know how to answer that and it made me start to get depressed, my parents only sent me to him to 'fix' me, I knew it and they told me so but I was determined to show them that it isn't going to go away with the help of a priest and I was right.

All it did was make me depressed for about a year even though I only went to him like maybe 5 times.

Okay, going back in time again, I was bullied a lot in school and I cried almost every night , it always made me feel better though. I didn't understand why I felt the way I felt and I promised myself that I would never ever tell anyone about this disgusting thing about me.

In high school I got a few friends that stood up for me which was something I never had up until then. It made me realize how crappy my old friens were and in grade 10 I told them about my transexuality. They took it very well and supported me.

The very first person I told was my younger sister, I don't know why because she's the least accepting and it was sooo difficult to do, I actually wrote a letter, didn't tell her face to face. She then basically did the rest for me because aparently the whole family on my dad's side knows now. But i wrote a letter to my dad myself, and he took it better than I thought he would.

Now I really want to start with hormone therapy and get rid of my beardo as soon as possible. And I'm actually still in high school because my mom sent me a year to late because i cried my eyes out when she left me at kindergarten and i also failed grade 2 lol, I was bullied about that too. So I'm gonna grow my hair out and stuff as soon as I'm done with school:)

[MaryEllen]

Hello Melanie,

Welcome to Laura 's Playground. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

MaryEllen

[Guest Guest_]

Welcome Melanie: There is a lot of knowledge and support here. Dont be afraid to be yourself. Amber L.

[Guest Sarah Faith]

Welcome to Laura's Melanie

You'll meet a lot of great people here!

[gennee]

Welcome to Laura's, Melanie. You can relax and be yourself.

[Guest miss kindheart]

Hi Melanie,
<<< hug >>>
Welcome to Laura's Playground.
Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.
The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.
Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.
One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules.
We all look forward to seeing you.
vanna

[Guest marissa anastasia1]

Melanie Dear,

Welcome to Laura's....we are all unique but share a common bond...love for each other..

Hope to get to know you better....

Love,

Marissa Anastasia, aka Rissa

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome to the Playground, Melanie. We actually met in your other thread. Thanks so much for giving us a great profile of your life. A lot of us were bullied in school, so your story resonates with me as well. I am glad to hear that you've found some good friends, and your family is at least reasonably supportive.

Please post on any thread, or start one of your own. I do ask all our new members to please read the site Terms and Conditions ("the rules") as they help us keep the site safe and friendly for everyone.

I hope you find this place helpful, Melanie. See you around.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest melanie maritz]

Thanx everyone I think this website is great and I wish I had found it sooner. Yes, Carolyn, my family is supportive to an extent. My dad said it's my life and I can choose to do what I want but he won't necessarily approve.

Oh I have a question, where do you find the emoticons that you use? All I know is the smiley

[Guest melanie maritz]

I'm still a bit confused, can the photos you set as your profile pic be found in your profile again, or does it just change when you change the profile pic again?

[Guest Jamie_cd]

Welcome and thanks for sharing your story!