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Hai, my name is jessica i knew i was born differient but didnt truly understand it until i got older. I knew i wanted to be a girl for as long as i can remember but never really did anything about it until bout a yr and a half ago. I came out to my family when i was in the hospital for trying to kill my self because i couldnt take the pain inside anymore, the comeing out went better than i expected but im still not sure. I told my girl friend at the time that i wanted to be a girl and she pretty much freaked out but after she became calm we talked about it and she said she could support me as a friend but not as a lover, so we broke up. I then proceeded to find a group out in Washington state and others that could help wich i finally did. I began dressing part time at least cause i never had enough money to buy more clothes than i had already bought. I then began going to a therapist in hopes to finally start my transition but unfortunatly after my 2nd visit with my therapist i got fired from my job and had to move back into my parents home in Texas. So i now live in Houston Texas still not able to find a job and no car or driveing ability to actually get out of the house. My family dosent really understand it and belive me i have explained it to them till i was blue in the face and even then they still didnt get. I know that its hard for family and friends too but i feel like that they are just ignoring it all really. So as a result i dont feel comfortable with well being my self around them and as a result I have started to bottle it all up again and live in "guy mode" most of the time. I have a hard time doing anything honestly because i cant seem to get past the crippling pain and depression wich is now my life. Besides all that i am a really nice and loveing person lol. Sorry for the sap story but thats all i could think of for an introduction.

p.s please forgive the spelling lol

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Guest miss kindheart

Hi Jessica,
<<< hug >>>
Welcome to Laura's Playground.
Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.
The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.
Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.
One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)
We all look forward to seeing you.
:wub: vanna

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Guest rexxmarksley

Hi Jessica and welcome to the group!

Sorry that things seem a bit tough in your life right now. They will improve and you will get there eventually, we all get caught in that rut sometimes and it definitely isn't pleasant.

I hope that it all picks up for you soon! Remember that you can always come here and talk about anything if you need to :)

Aaron

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Guest angels wings

Hello Jessica :) welcome to Lauras :)

Relax and enjoy :) please don't be sorry for expressing yourself . We are all travelling journeys that are similar we understand .

When you feel comfortable you can add a comment to any topic or create a topic of your own . We ask all our members to please take a moment and read the terms and conditions which are on the bottom right of any page . If you have any questions please don't hesitate to ask . After five posts you will have acces to your PM system where you can message any moderator or member .

Looking forward to getting to know you Jessica

Angel :)

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Welcome Jessica and thanks for your intro.

Dysphoria is indeed crippling, don't let it ruin your life, finding some outlets for Jessica at a support meeting or amongst friends might help. Having been to Houston, I can only imagine the cultural shift compared to WA (western) state you encountered in coming back. We are hear to listen Jessica, you can bounce things off us here at Laura's. Hang in there, it will get better.

Hugs

Cynthia -

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Welcome to LP Jessica.

Thank you for your introduction.

There is a lot of information and a lot of friendly people here.

Remember that you have been dealing with your situation all your life. Your family "just" found out about it.

It may take them some time to come to "grips" with the news.

I wish you peace and prosperity on your journey.

Huggs, :wub:

Joann

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Welcome to the Playground, Jessica. I hope you find everything that you need here. I look forward to reading your posts.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Jessie Emma

Thank you all for the warm welcomes ^.^ its always nice to be welcomed to a new place. Ive heard alot about this forum and site and hope to find the right kind of help and looking forward to makeing friends on here as well ^.^

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