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I’ve always known I had a thing for boys. Or at least, I’ve always known they did a little more for me than the girls did. As years went by, I felt myself more and more enchanted by some of their behaviors and began to feel I’d like to be on the receiving end of their dear affection.

Years ago I met a very sweet boy in a factory I worked at in Illinois. He was openly gay and made it clear to me he was interested but I couldn’t follow through with any physical dealio cause I didn’t wanna act on irrational thought, yu know?

As a result, and despite how good Brian treated me, I’m so grateful I waited till this past week to be with another male. I have met a very warm and wonderful person that makes me smile every time I think of him.

This is the first time I’ve had sex with someone in almost three years for 2 primary reasons. First, I’m in the wrong bod for the sex I desire. Second, sex with the girls is too tantalizing in that it just made me jealous of them. I guess there the same reason more or less, rilly?

Anywho, I’m a pretty simple person with it comes to this type of intimacy or that related, I think? I get off on holding hands and little kisses. In fact, my favorite part of the whole thing was when afterward I could lay my head on his chest and listen to his heartbeat while talkin’ to ‘eem.

It just felt more natural, all of it. There are some things I just can’t bring myself to do but among other things, I rilly enjoyed knowing I was providing for someone that way, and that someone was enjoying me so. This experience rilly served as yet another little confirmation of sorts and despite the fact I much rather would’ve been female for it all, it felt close enough in my heart to make me very happy.

I could go on for a good bit on my personal feelings on the matter, I guess? It rilly hurt when he left this morning. I’ve never felt so relaxed and comfortable around someone so very soon. Kinda scary, rilly. But nonetheless and come whatever may, I’m truly thankful to have met him and as well, thankful I chose to wait and allow further discovery for myself.

Has anyone else here ever felt this way, that maybe you wanted to be with someone of the same gender which is the opposite of your desired gender and chose to abstain early on cause you felt you didn’t wanna act on irrational thought?

Well, I waited for about twelve years to make certain about myself, and though it’s been rilly lonely, I feel better about the whole thing now. This is a very serious matter for me. The only time I’ve ever rushed to bed with anyone is when the whole thing felt like a forced fabrication of sorts, If that makes any sense to yu?

Tell me whatcha think if yu wanna. And thanks for reading such a long thread. I try to keep ‘em short, anyway.

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Amie,

After all of this long wait, I hope that this is someone that you are going to be seeing rather than just last night. It sounds like he is very special to you and if you are as special to him this could be a wonderful Thing for you.

You didn't mention if he knows that you are trans, so if you don't want to tell me - that's OK, but I am curious as to how long of a relationship you are hoping for.

I'm the incurable romantic romantic that wants to see everyone happy.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Irielle

Amie - I'm so happy you have found someone that's good for you and you feel happy being with.

You might be in the wrong body, but you can still have the sex you desire. This is PG-13 so let me just say that when I have sex with my boyfriend I am female, even though my body is male. I tell him that and he knows it. Most of making love is in your head, only a small part is actually the plumbing. It is an important part but by far not the only thing.

Maybe one day your body will fit your gender, I hope so. There are wonderful people here who are going on that journey and others who are already there and they have great insight for you.

Make sure you are honest with him and tell him you are a woman.

Pay attention to your heart. Be careful of listening too much to what is in your head.

I guess I'm like Sally, I want everyone to be happy. You and your new friend, too!

Irielle

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Amie,

After all of this long wait, I hope that this is someone that you are going to be seeing rather than just last night. It sounds like he is very special to you and if you are as special to him this could be a wonderful Thing for you.

You didn't mention if he knows that you are trans, so if you don't want to tell me - that's OK, but I am curious as to how long of a relationship you are hoping for.

I'm the incurable romantic romantic that wants to see everyone happy.

Love ya,

Sally

Thanks, Sally. Yeah, I'm like the turbo-romantic myself, I guess? And yep, He knowz about me. It's a pretty comfy dealio. It looks promising. But overall, I'm just grateful for the experience and how I felt in my heart about it all. That's what life is, isn't it? Just a series of experiences? How well do you handle them? What do you derive from them in order to build yourself? How or why did you choose to put yourself in a position to experience the experience, etc. You get what I'm sayin.'

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Guest Elizabeth K

Good for you :P

Remember to guard your heart. Even if he truly accepts you, remember it is a romance all the same just like between any other couple, and they are tricky if you are just starting out with this love thing. Don't let him break your heart, and treat him with respect also. These first loves can be WONDEFUL. :D

Lizzy

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Guest Kelly Ann

aaaahhhh...and it isn't even spring yet. Glad you have found a little patch of happiness along the way Amie...it's a Kodak moment that can't be captured on film. Happy for you girl...keep us posted in a PG way PLEEeeeEAAaaaASSSSEEee LOL :blush: hope he's a 'keeper' for you...Kelly Ann

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Thanks, Sally. Yeah, I'm like the turbo-romantic myself, I guess? And yep, He knowz about me. It's a pretty comfy dealio. It looks promising. But overall, I'm just grateful for the experience and how I felt in my heart about it all. That's what life is, isn't it? Just a series of experiences? How well do you handle them? What do you derive from them in order to build yourself? How or why did you choose to put yourself in a position to experience the experience, etc. You get what I'm sayin.'

I am so unbelievably happy for you.

As to knowing what you're saying, I think that it fits pretty well with the advice I like to give about enjoying the journey. That is what life is about - so enjoy it.

You do have to guard your heart, but don't shield it from all emotions. Sometimes a little pain is necessary and often unavoidable.

There is a country song that Garth Brooks recorded years ago that says,

"Our lives are better left to chance, I could have missed the pain, but I'd have missed the Dance."

Enjoy the dance, Amie.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Felicia Anne

amie, to hear you talk of romance makes flowers spring from the earth, the sun to rise and the birds to sing a wonderful melody... le sigh...

(thanks for warming the hearts of all the true romantics here!)

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Guest Little Sara
This is the first time I’ve had sex with someone in almost three years for 2 primary reasons. First, I’m in the wrong bod for the sex I desire. Second, sex with the girls is too tantalizing in that it just made me jealous of them. I guess there the same reason more or less, rilly?

Yeah I can understand your second point. This is probably why I see myself more with men. I haven't ever had sex though. Maybe someday... its not like I don't want to pre-op, it's that I find people who are kinda far from me (like Ireland).

Best of luck with your relationship.

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Guest DeniseNM

Amie I am so happy for you that is great to hear. Love is a many splendid thing but just remember to take it slow and be honest with him and yourself and expect honesty back from him. He sounds like a very nice guy from what you said. You are a sweet lady and you deserve love in your life. Perfect time for it too since V-Day is just around the corner ;) .

Denise (happy for Amie's romance :D & and handing her some chocolates)

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This is probably why I see myself more with men. I haven't ever had sex though. Maybe someday...

I want my first time to be something really special, so I am waiting until after my SRS. I've waited this long, I can manage another couple of decades! :D

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Little Sara
I want my first time to be something really special, so I am waiting until after my SRS. I've waited this long, I can manage another couple of decades! :D

Love ya,

Sally

My first time vaginally will definitely be something special, regardless of not being virgin in other ways at that time. My libido is rather low, but I adapt to my lover's mood. If he's sexually arroused, he can make me sexually arroused. This scares me a bit even, because I tend to react pretty strongly.

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Guest Felicia Anne
I want my first time to be something really special, so I am waiting until after my SRS. I've waited this long, I can manage another couple of decades! :D

Love ya,

Sally

i am in the same boat, sally. i cannot wait until after i have surgery (pending) so i can be with a man the way a woman can be with a man (trying to be G-13 here). but considering how much i think about being with a cute & hunky sweet & yummy boyfriend, it makes me crazy some days.

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Romance is always good when you're ready for it - and its even better when your S.O knows about how you feel. I think this was a good move for you after reading your story.

Congrats and stay safe. ;)

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amie, to hear you talk of romance makes flowers spring from the earth, the sun to rise and the birds to sing a wonderful melody... le sigh...

(thanks for warming the hearts of all the true romantics here!)

Nice. Great stuff to feel it huh, Sweety...If only on rare occasion?

I'd never agree to give up the way I think and feel about some things for anything, no matter how great they claim it to be or how great it looks.

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Nice. Great stuff to feel it huh, Sweety...If only on rare occasion?

Sweet, Sweet Amie,

You are just so up these days, I look at your avatar and just know that it is really a picture of you.

Happy, caring, loving and generous - wow, someone out there has found a terrific person and guess what - that terrific person is you!

Love ya,

Sally

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Sweet, Sweet Amie,

You are just so up these days, I look at your avatar and just know that it is really a picture of you.

Happy, caring, loving and generous - wow, someone out there has found a terrific person and guess what - that terrific person is you!

Love ya,

Sally

Heehee! I only wish I were still that cute! Maybe with a few months of HRT we can get that back, huh? Ha!

Your great, Sally.

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