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Guest Amanda W

its been some time since i have posted on here, for those who don't know me, i am 25 and started hrt back on march 10th of 2010, changed my gender markers on my license , but not my name nor had srs yet.... both are quite expensive, and as i am going to school to be a lpn most my extra income is devoted to that.

now for the rough stuff,

i have been going to school since november of 2012 it is now august of 2013. back in may my class found out about me being transgender, they had no issues with me until june 8th of 2013... some one complained to the administration, thats when all my wonderful problems came up. i was told by the administration i could not use the womens or mens restrooms and that i could use a "storage room" restroom instead, and that if i used the male or female restrooms i would have charges placed against me which would coincidently remove me from the program and cost me my job as a C.N.A resulting in my inability to work in healthcare ever again...i complied, what choice did i have, the bathrooms didn't lock from the inside and was literally a storage room restroom in a 4 by 6 space, and was inadequately lit.

i did something i have never done before....stand up for myself and my rights as a human being... i called channel 8 on you side... and they ran a news story on me.... things got worse at school. now i have a lawyer with the alcu... and have sent a demand letter to my school stating they are discriminating against me on basis of sex which breaks the title XI federal law witch states any one who receives federal assistance can not discriminate based on sex or else funds will be taken from said institution.

all i want is the rights every one else has... nothing more nothing less, and i am prepared to fight for them and for all those who will come after me. all i want is equality...

as of today august 26th 11pm i will be on the news again... this time i will be on channel 8 news and channel 10, as well as a couple of other meetings with news papers and such.

now i wait... for a reply from my school

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Guest angels wings

Amanda I'm sorry to hear you have had to go through this .i truly hope everything works out for you .stay strong (((((hugs))))

Angel

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Guest Maria_B

You're being incredibly brave, and I support you, I hope you'll be okay.

*hugs*

Its scary people saying stuff about you let alone being on the news, you're very brave for doing this.

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Guest Amanda W

i almost lost my resolve a couple of times, but ... i have come this far why not see it threw...in the end it will help me and anyone else who may have these issues in the future, i think thats why i honestly am staying with it.... not just for me, but for everyone else

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Guest Maria_B

I, and I'm sure those who walk the path you've paved in the future, are very thankful for your resolve, but don't be afraid to lean on the shoulders here, we're here to help you even if you just need to vent :).

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Guest BeingMe

I'm a male, have not used hrt, etc. I've only just admitted to myself I have gender dysphoria and am seeing a therapist. Now with that being said I think it is ridiculous we live in a society that would shun you in that manner. I would care less if I saw a mtf or ftm come into the men's room. Everyone is minding their own business in there as it is. Stalls have doors, urinals have separators...so really? Does it matter all that much? Why would anyone bother to complain. I was raised a conservative Christian and I wouldn't have bothered. What other people do is their own business, who am I to judge. Now that I'm beginning to identify with many of you I find this situation you've endured just so incredibly ridiculous.

I wish you the best in your endeavor to see justice done.

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Wow Amanda. No progress is made without heroes like you who stand up and cause changes. It is not easy and you have all my admiration and respect. More than I can possibly say.

Thank you! What you do will ripple out and make a difference for all of us. You changed the world when you made that decision. How much may seem small at first but it ripples out and you never know whose resolve you may have strengthened , who may also now decide to stand up.

Again -Thank You!

Johnny

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Guest Amanda W

don't know about venting =P but the support is well welcomed, i don't get much of that now in days. nursing school is hard in and of its self, i mean to learn the entire human body as well as how medication and diseases affect it is rough, but to deal with the crap from my school on top of it... pushes me to the point of breaking under the stress.

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Guest Amanda W

honestly no one ever bated an eye at me when i used the womens restroom, the only reason they had an issues this time is because they found out i was transgender and thats only because well when your learning the human body systems and individual conditions you do do some studying on the subject on G.I.D

oh on a side not... i will be talking to a group of future physicians on subjects regarding transgender and what we go threw... should be interesting to see how i can offer information on how to better help others like me, or make the resources more readily available

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Amanda you are a very brave and strong woman. You may at times not feel that but wow. My wife is an RN and i have two friends who just finished school. I know how hard it is. You have another burden as well and you really didn't need them to heap more on transition to make it even harder. Please feel free to vent here. Sometimes it helps just to have some support. I'm glad you are standing up for yourself and that you have legal help. there is too much at stake as a nurse if they somehow make it hard for you. Now you have the legal help you need. Hopefully we can help with the moral backup.

Hugs,

Charlie

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Guest Amanda W

So my school is not coroperating still....only choice left i got is too file a conplaint with the department of edjucation....wich could take years

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Guest DianeATL

Sorry you are going through this but thank you for doing so. You are very brave and courageous and I thank you for being that way.

It's darkest before the dawn, hang in there, you have a lot of people behind you and most importantly, you are in the right here.

Hugs

Diane

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Guest Amanda W

i think i might write a book about everything thats going on with this, who knows maybe with all the publicity around this it will help others understand what we struggle with.

i am willing to do anything at this point as long as it helps others not to have to deal with what i have gone threw.

guess what my lawyer said is right, i am kinda a trail blazer

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Guest Gerilynn

Thank you for blazing that trail. I am shocked that a collage with a medical program would have such amazingly uninformed people.

Stay strong.

(((((((((Hugs)))))))))

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Guest LoveBeingMe

What they did to you is just plain cruelty, and should never happen in the

United States of America. But you, Amanda, are a hero for standing up to

them. Thank you for your courage to stand up and fight for all of us!

Take care, and be careful.

Heather

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Guest chibi_usa

its been some time since i have posted on here, for those who don't know me, i am 25 and started hrt back on march 10th of 2010, changed my gender markers on my license , but not my name nor had srs yet.... both are quite expensive, and as i am going to school to be a lpn most my extra income is devoted to that.

now for the rough stuff,

i have been going to school since november of 2012 it is now august of 2013. back in may my class found out about me being transgender, they had no issues with me until june 8th of 2013... some one complained to the administration, thats when all my wonderful problems came up. i was told by the administration i could not use the womens or mens restrooms and that i could use a "storage room" restroom instead, and that if i used the male or female restrooms i would have charges placed against me which would coincidently remove me from the program and cost me my job as a C.N.A resulting in my inability to work in healthcare ever again...i complied, what choice did i have, the bathrooms didn't lock from the inside and was literally a storage room restroom in a 4 by 6 space, and was inadequately lit.

i did something i have never done before....stand up for myself and my rights as a human being... i called channel 8 on you side... and they ran a news story on me.... things got worse at school. now i have a lawyer with the alcu... and have sent a demand letter to my school stating they are discriminating against me on basis of sex which breaks the title XI federal law witch states any one who receives federal assistance can not discriminate based on sex or else funds will be taken from said institution.

all i want is the rights every one else has... nothing more nothing less, and i am prepared to fight for them and for all those who will come after me. all i want is equality...

as of today august 26th 11pm i will be on the news again... this time i will be on channel 8 news and channel 10, as well as a couple of other meetings with news papers and such.

now i wait... for a reply from my school

Really? A college that doesn't allow you? That's so stupid. I thought all colleges didn't care! Btw send me a YouTube and article of your bravery if you can! XD I must see this! ;D

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Guest Amanda W

so things at my school are actually getting worse, teachers are rude and unwilling to help. their attitudes toward me have drastically changed and to make matters worse most the time they tell me to look in the textbook when i don't understand something.

i have 8 more months of dealing with this, and everyday it seems worse and worse, i have all but been isolated from the rest of my class. most of my classmates won't even talk to me anymore.

i talked to a second lawyer, i guess theres a possibility of me going to a different school at this point due to the fact the department of education has to do their internal processes which i got told could take 1 and a half years

ugh full time school, full time work, and now all this stuff... feel like my heads going to explode.

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Guest Gerilynn

Stay strong love. I hope you have a friend or two who can help you there. Maybe a mentor to help with the classes your teachers are obviously not teaching you properly.

You are in my thoughts and I hope things will turn around for you. big (((((((((HUGS)))))))))))

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Guest TracieV3

so things at my school are actually getting worse, teachers are rude and unwilling to help. their attitudes toward me have drastically changed and to make matters worse most the time they tell me to look in the textbook when i don't understand something.

i have 8 more months of dealing with this, and everyday it seems worse and worse, i have all but been isolated from the rest of my class. most of my classmates won't even talk to me anymore.

i talked to a second lawyer, i guess theres a possibility of me going to a different school at this point due to the fact the department of education has to do their internal processes which i got told could take 1 and a half years

ugh full time school, full time work, and now all this stuff... feel like my heads going to explode.

Keep in mind if someone physically threats you, it becomes a criminal matter, and the DoE can take their internal process and shove it. And you can use that to get transferred to another school.

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I watched the news coverage of your situation and that is terrible. You were amazing on camera. Really keep fighting.

Is there anywhere I can go online to see the footage?

Hang in there, Amanda! This is why I will continue to support and lobby for bills that allow us to pee in peace!

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Guest leela_anima

Not only are you facing a completely unfair situation, but you're choosing to stand up and fight for what's right, and for that you deserve maaaad respect! Although this situation was initially just involving you, fighting for your own issue, this is something that will echo across and change many things for the better, a huge push in the total movement for equality, so kudos!! :D

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