My First Dress (with a pic!)

[Guest LilyRose]

A young lady named Anath posted a topic about buying clothes for herself. I admitted that I was afraid of what people would say in my religious community. And with the guidance of the wonderful people who responded in that topic, I got the courage to buy my first dress! Eeeee!! I just acted natural (more than I thought I would) and when the cashier asked, I said it was for someone else. Good enough answer for her, and now I am enjoying every minute I can wear it! Here's my poem about it and I also attached a picture of me wearing it if you want to see.

My First Dress

Moments before I entered the store, my brain exploded in fear.
"This is it, relax... you can do this!" my heart encouraged me as I
walked inside and my knees buckled underneath the pressure of
buying female clothing for the very first time. My online browsing
has come to this very moment. Breathing deeply and calmly, despite

my nerves working in overdrive as I went to the women's department.

The more I looked around at the colorful clothing, the calmer I became.
"This is our world, time to embrace it." my heart reassured me when I
glanced at the wide variety of pretty tops and skirts which I fell in love with.
They begging me to try them on. A sense of excitement tingled up my
spine and my nerves splashed with relief. I sighed happily and looked
at the clearance rack where a glowing light was leading me the way.

That dress on the rack shined white with navy blue and green patterns.
"Go ahead, touch it." My heart purred as I put my fingertips across it.
Its silky texture made me swoon and the size was exactly what I came
into the store for. I wanted to cry because I knew that this was not any

dress, this was MY dress. I maintained my composure as I delicately
took it off the rack and I could not believe that it was only 5 bucks!

Saying it was for someone else when asked, and everything was fine.
"Put it on and shine pretty lady!" My heart sang when I got home
after taking a shower. I slid it on my medium frame and my skin danced
as it caressed nicely on my curves. Rubbed my hands across my body,
my first dress made me feel one baby step closer to the peace I deserve.
The only question I could ask myself was, "Why did I wait so long to do this?"

Lily Rose

[Guest]

LilyRose that poem is so sweet! It brings tears to my eyes just remembering that first moment for me.

Nice dress and a steal deal too! You go girl. Hug. JodyAnn

[Guest Carla_Davis]

Hi LilyRose,

Congratulations.

I agree Very Nice Poem.

The more you do it the easier it will become and your Confidence will increase.

It is very common to ask your self "Why did it take so long"?

Keep us informed about any future purchases.

I wish you Success and Happiness on your Journey.

Hugs,

Carla

[Guest saoirse]

Thats lovely . it reminds me of the feelings I got from my first footwear. I had never any problem getting clothes but shoes were a biggie for me as the size was a bit hard to find . I finaly found a lovely pair of boots and it was bliss to put them on :-) . I still love those boots .

[Guest Guest_]

Lily your poem is so beautiful. My feeling were the same my first time. So much, So very true after reading this I felt like you. I also enjoyed the your photo. Hugs Amber L.

[Guest LilyRose]

Thanks for your support girls! I am glad you all liked the poem, but I made a typo in the middle of it. I meant to say "They WERE begging me to try them on" Instead of "They begging" I guess that's what happens when you write in a bunch of emotions, happy ones of course. I'm also nervous for my first trip to the gender therapist tomorrow. Golly, I feel so alive for the first time in all of my life!

I'll be sure to keep updating as much as I can. saoirse, I can understand that. I cannot wait until I buy some lady shoes of my own. I used to be ashamed of my feet but I love them now! Our first item will always dear to our heart. Even when that dress may become too small for me depending on how I fill out, I feel that this dress has a permanent place in my heart. And thus, singing its beautiful praise in this poem!

Hugs aplenty!
Lily Rose

[Guest miss kindheart]

Lilly Rose

Thanks for sharing your poetry

vanna

[Guest Rebecca A]

You caught the moment very well, I think we all have a moment like that, funny though how quickly the moments disappear. Part of me wishes I still felt that rush and excitement every time I went shopping, but well I supose it's here, just diminished, never the same as those first few times. You should try going into Victoria Secret for a chest measurement to buy your first bra in guy mode, OMG that was heart pounding, nerve racking, craziness.

[Guest]

Wonderfully captured, LilyRose.

It does get easier with experience.

Eventually it simply becomes shopping.giggle

Huggs,

Joann