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Guest DianeATL

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What will they be like today?

Will my eyes well up but contain the flow?

Will they be rivers running down my cheeks to the sea?

Will I dab away moisture or curl up and bawl?

I don't know when they will come,

I don't know what will trigger them today,

I don't know how severe they will be.

The only thing I do know,

They will come.

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I'm glad you got your poem up dear. Tears... for me they often well up and fill my eyes. It is less often that they flow but they do and as your poem suggests that release isn't controlled by me, way beyond my control. The triggers are waiting but around what corner?

Hugs,

Charlie

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Oh, me and my big fat assumptions... All I can say is when the Hormones do come, you will have way more tears of joy than sorrow. That and tears will keep your eyes bright and sparkling. I'm just glad they have tissues in the little travel packs for our purses. Giggle. Hug. Jody

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Very True Diane,

I have told you previously about keeping a box of tissues handy.

When I recently returned to see the people that saved my life from Suicide at The LGBT Center of NYC I lost it completely.

Before going I wrote what I wanted to say if I was unable to talk.

Thankfully, I did, because I totally lost it and started crying uncontrollably and could barely stand.

Even though I was crying uncontrollably like a baby, they were tears of Joy and Happiness.

I haven't seen them since 2008.

Strangers caring and loving me than my own family.

It was a double edge sword. I wanted to see them sooner, but I knew how painful it would be for me.

The longer I waited, the more my pain increased until I finally had to revisit The Center

Since that teary meeting, I have started going regularly.

Since Oct 2, I have visited The Center more times than in the last 6 years.

I am also going to restart Volunteering at the Center. I found it very rewarding in the past.

I am no stranger to tissues Diane.

Hugs,

Carla

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Tears have been coming for me a lot lately. I'm not on HRT either, but I know that my tear ducts haven't even gotten started yet. They held in so many tears over the years, now they are begging me to give them a workout...

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I'm just so happy too that I'm not alone in this. I always hated not being able to cry, especially when I needed it so badly. I'm glad that I can do so now, and yet.. it certainly only the beginning. Thanks Diane.

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Lily Rose

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