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Guest Lizzie McTrucker

By reading this thread you have now agreed to never publically (outside of this site) mention your knowledge of this photo. If anyone asks, you know nothing! If anyone tries to give you a secret sign, they're a fake! (I don't have a secret sign so the jokes on them)

What you are about to see is real. The faces are real, the people are real. Well..it's me, actually. I know I said there are no known pictures of me from back in....those days...but I found some. Actually I found 5! I was going through some unlabeled discs and disks (many of you know the difference! lol) and I found Disney vacation photos where I used like 14 rolls of film. Some black and white because I was artsy back then, some color. Well to use up some pics before dropping them off at the drug store I worked at for processing, I had to use up the film so I took pics of me to use them up.

Little did I know they would come back to haunt me or be used as photographic evidence of what I used to look like.

Observe. (you may want to have little children leave the room for this, it's quite frightening)

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So the picture on the left is obviously me, pre-everything. This was my denial phase where I tried to be this awesome guy who was kinda cool (blonde highlights were totally in at the time). I was cocky, confident, arrogant but still had a likeable personality that people were drawn to. I would estimate the time of this photo around 2001-2002.

The picture on the right is still obviously me but it's pre-hrt. What this right photo is, though, is post-name change, post-laser and post-full-time. Basically at the time that photo was taken I had done everything except go to therapy and get on HRT. This photo was taken last year some time. It's one of my better ones and one of the few that was a *similar* angle, which for comparison purposes is what I was really looking to find.

Miracles do happen, and I don't mean the quality difference between 35mm and digital pictures.

I've put on a little weight between those two photos. Denial and self-loathing will do that to a person.

I think I just sat, stunned, for a few minutes thinking "wow..look at what I used to look like". I guess I didn't look *that* bad as a guy but I make a better looking woman, at least in my opinion.

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Guest ChefErik93

i don't think it matters how good looking of a man you were or how good looking of a woman you are. what matters is how comfortable you are in your skin. and although you were pre HRT in the second photo you are visibly more comfortable in your skin. and very pretty, mind you. congrats on being you and starting your transition.

how is living full time going for you? how hard was that to transition into?

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Turned around and looked behind me, and the three flies are still buzzing around (slapping sound) so it was not that bad, Your brother had his good points, you do bear a family resemblance to each other, but only the good points.

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Guest Lizzie McTrucker

how is living full time going for you? how hard was that to transition into?

Great! Loving it! One of the best things I finally kicked myself in the pants to finally do!

How hard was it? Well, I wanted to make sure I had everything in order before I did it. I mean I wanted my name changed before I went full time, so I got that done years ago. I wanted to have some laser done because having to do makeup every day was going to be a chore in itself. Other than that it was just a random weekend in March where I thought "alright, let's give this a try and see how it goes".

...that 2 year anniversary is coming up this March. :)

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Guest LizMarie

That's my plan, Lizzie. I want the name change and facial hair removal done. Everything else I want can come after but those are first.

You look absolutely amazing. Amazing. Congratulations!

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That's a pretty great transformation, Lizzie. You did yourself proud. You are the poster child for why HRT is not always the most necessary component to transitioning successfully. There are a whole host of other things that go into it. Thanks for showing us the comparison, and teaching us how its done, the right way. Congrats!

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Carla_Davis

Hi Lizzie,

Your Transformation is Wonderful.

You DO look a lot more "Comfortable" in your own skin in the second photo.

Congratulations on your Pre-HRT Transition.

I wish you Success and Happiness on your Further Journey.

Hugs,

Carla

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I always thought you were great but i didn't know you had such a great family. Your brother is a nice looking guy but he sure has nothing on his hot sister.

Hugs,

Charlie

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Wow! I have to say I've noticed your avatar pic before and thought you looked very pretty. I can't believe the real photos though! Not attracted to guys and you didn't look bad, but by far you make a much prettier woman! :)

Sienna

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Guest Lizzie McTrucker

Your brother is a nice looking guy but he sure has nothing on his hot sister.

He's alright. He was kinda shy and quiet, actually.

I was going to wait a little bit now that I am on HRT to take another picture. Maybe once my family starts to notice a difference. I look at myself every day and don't see a change, soo.... (plus it's only been 6 months)

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You really do have a Wow factor Lizzie. You were a cute guy but now you're a real babe Liz. Tear that rear view mirror off and don't look back girl. You've arrived and in a big way. You are so pretty Liz. You are going to have an amazing life as a very pretty girl. Kathryn

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Guest DianeATL

Fantastic - you look amazing, can't wait to see the update after HRT for a while. You have a great start and that should be icing on the cake.

Hugs

Diane

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Guest Lizzie McTrucker

yeh i think you have made a good facial transformation - would like to see without the shades................great photo!

But..but..the shades are part of my mysterious allure! (which works quite well, if I may say so myself) :)

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yeh i think you have made a good facial transformation - would like to see without the shades................great photo!

But..but..the shades are part of my mysterious allure! (which works quite well, if I may say so myself) :)

...................they say the eyes are the window to the soul................its the first thing i notice in a woman B)

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Guest KerryUK

I can only echo what everybody else before me here has said Lizzie, you look lovely and soooooo confident and happy in the second picture. Your brother is a nice looking guy but he doesn't look anywhere near as happy as you do. Keep looking forward Lizzie - the future's bright.

K x.

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Guest April Kristie

Lizzie, loved the post and comparison as well. I really like your curly locks in the second picture, perhaps you will share those pretty eyes one day! And your cupids bow, (your upper lip) is very curvaceous like your distant bro. Cheers to you for being so you!

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Guest Lizzie McTrucker

Since I took a pic today both with and without sunglasses on, I thought this would be a great opportunity to show off the non-sunglasses picture.

So here ya go. :)

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Lizzie, I've always thought you were a lovely woman, with a dynamite smile.

I still do. :thumbsup:

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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