A post HRT question.

[Guest charli38]

I got out of the shower earlier today and got dressed at my work, I then went to the sinks to shave my face and noticed my breasts looked bigger. I have not started HRT yet. I then made sure I was not seen and looked closer, sure enough I had bigger breasts! I then realized that I was in the mens room of the truck terminal at work and got paranoid that I would be outed. It would be different if I was heavier or had a belly. But I have a somewhat flat stomach. I had a little bit of pecs but not this much! I am wondering if because my brain is now pretty much thinking as a woman full time if it is causing my testosterone to be turned into more oestrogen? Has anyone had a similar experiance?

Hugs!

Charli

[Guest Angel Heart]

you know....something very similar to this happened to me, too. only -- a very long time ago. as a child, my breasts started budding for a few months, but then stopped.

but omg how could i have forgot? breasts -- i forgot all about mentioning those in your other thread. they started budding on HRT in the same way, ohh..a couple months after HRT. they are slow, very slow. to this day, 1.5 years later, i still struggle with those. they aren't growing very fast.

i stick to the belief that mental changes and influence can, in fact, effect the body. i'm certain your mindset might be causing partial physical feminization. maybe not enough for practical good, but enough to be noticeable. i think my hips started widening before HRT hehe

sorry if i talk too much

[VickySGV]

I doubt there was really anything for someone else to have seen, but you may have seen something real. There are a number of things that can make us see what we want but others will not notice. Even guys get edema up in the chest some times. I actually used a caliper for about the first six months on HRT and had growth down to millimeters at a number of places. Your trucker buddies will just think you are working on your pecs, or will not notice them at all, more likely the second. Just start wearing an undershirt or a towel around your neck. Tuck it in at the waist and you will do fine.

[Guest charli38]

Accalia, this has me wondering if we really were susposed to have been born women. And maybe something happened in the womb that gave us only partially geneticly female attributes hidden in our bodies. I sometimes wonder if my parents are hiding something about me from my very early childhood. Cause my nipples(can I say that on here?) have always looked like they were chewed up or cut up by something. My mother always just said it was my birthmark. But now I wonder. They are very conservative bible belt, religious people. Hmmmmm...

Thanks for the info girl! Lots of hugs!

Charli

[Guest Angel Heart]

i wonder about that too but i bet if i was intersexed in any way, i would know by now.

chewed or cut up by something..? that is, um, actually quite disturbing, charli...very disturbing. marks like those don't come naturally; usually the only way to make something look like it's been chewed and cut is usually to, well, chew and cut it...birth defects aren't that complex

are you safe now??

[Guest jnemo]

Weird, I was thinking the same thing recently. Though I was on a regimen of anti-androgenic and phyto-estrogen filled tea for most of last year (which I'm wondering if partly fried my ability to produce T, which if so, is not something I'd miss lol). I only stopped because depression in combinations with concerns about dosing and concentration (also, being as I'm a vegan, almost everything I eat is filled with phyto-estrogens).

[Guest charli38]

Yeah, I am as safe as I can be driving a truck across country. Been thinking more and more about my childhood and some of the memories I have. I know one of my earliest memories is of being in a hospital and getting a bath in a sink. When I asked my mother about this it caught her off gaurd. She said I was in there for bronchitis and that I was only 2 years old. I could tell from the way she said it she is not telling me the whole story. I also have a memory of going swimming with my cousin in my underwear when I was only 4. We were visiting them and I had no extra underwear and my mom and aunt wanted me to wear one of my cousin's panties since I had nothing. I remember a big argument among my dad and them. But what I remember most is that I asked my mom later if I could always wear panties and my dad beating my backside red for saying that. So I think that there may definitely be some hidden things in my past that would explain a lot.

Josie, I have no idea what phyto-estrogen is. Lol!

Hugs!

Charli

[Guest jnemo]

Charli - They're naturally occurring estrogens, found in plants.