Getting out more

[Guest Wendae]

The pink fog is nagging at me. I've added a 44A bra,forms and cami for daily wear. The top is loose enough to not show that much besides my man boobs are pretty noticeble. I'm hoping they will get larger without hormones. It's still a bandaide without makeup and my wigs.

Saturday Evening I went to dinner with my TG group in St. Pete at an English pub. It was a bit noisy with all the St Paddy partiers but the meal was good as was the company. It really felt great being out fully dressed.(see photo in gallery) Afterwards it was off to our meeting where various topics were discussed. A few new girls attended. Hated to leave and come home.

I'm looking for to the Orlando meeting in April. I want to spend the weekend as Wendae. This is causing me to be at odds with my wife. Not a good thing as I'm getting riled easy from the stress.

On a side note I'm starting to have doubts about being straight. I've developed a fascination Gay(sissy) porn. Am I going to go down this road?

[VickySGV]

I have no idea whether or what straight means these days in terms of TG folks so your dalliance with the adult entertainment is just a lark in the park to my way of thinking. I love flirting with the guys, but most of them are too young if they are interesting, darn it. Its like the neighborhood dog chasing a fire truck -- what the heck is the dog going to do with truck if he catches it?

The freedom to be yourself is going to hit harder as time goes by and I can well believe the gathering stress when you cannot do what you need to do as far as personal presentation in public. OTOH I think I present much better at my age than I did 20 years ago because an older woman is not expected to be as perfect as a young chic, that trades on the other stresses. I hope you outing goes well and is satisfying.

[Guest Clair Dufour]

Life is too short not to explore both genders and and a bit of sexual preference. Sorry that your wife does not see that. Mine did till she got sick and the mind was no longer willing. That's us at our age. The mind is willing but the body is somewhat lagging. I often wonder if hormones would help? Either hormones! To be honest, my fantasies are wearing a bit thin at 67. But, I for the moment live in a place with one kinda LGBT venue. St. Pete, Tampa area has many including restarants, TG-drag places, gay-lesbian clubs and political groups. In short a lot of places to explore. Many people think that LGBT people are a bunch of perverts. In fact, most of us are very lonely and shy people. In our age group, they have the same issues all of us in our age group have. Younger people are looking for mentors to help them navigate through this alternate culture. In other words, there are still some great relationships out there for you.

[Guest Kendra K]

I too am at the point where I'm questioning my sexual orientation, I'm not open like you in that I've never been outdoor as female.

It just seems to make sense that minds may not let people deal with the sexual orientation issue until the transgender issue has been opened up to.

Certainly in my case growing up in a Christian conservative church that preached almost every week that homosexuality is a sin probably made me not open to gender/sexuality issues.

[Guest Wendae]

This fixation on oral sex is driving me nuts. I'm wondering if it is caused by a hormone inbalance. Maybe I'm just psyching myself out and really need to decide if I should explore this and maybe discover myself. Am I going to be a sisy fellatrix?

For years I've been happy just dressing but now I want more and transition is maybe a way to make all of this ok.

[Guest Wendae]

I escaped today. I dressed in Rider jeans, light girdle,44a bra(shows less then my usuall 44c), and cami. and a black pull over. Took my wig and purse out in a tote and finished in the car. No makeup today as I've some stops that will require me to take off the wig. My first stop was the Wig Villa in St Pete where I purchased a shorter wig for summer. It's nice sitting in the chair and having you wig styled. I brought along an older wig to be styled so yhat I could wear it in a pony tail. Went a few other places a botique farther down the road and then to Dunedin to check out a Survivalist's store. Wig came off here. Any way it helped to get out even without the makeup.

I guess it's like my psychologist said that I need a buddy I can get out with and talk to. A GG or another CD would be nice.