I'm drunk right now.

[Guest SouthernBelle]

Should be too drunk to stay awake soon. Right on schedule! Luckily, I have a solution to my insomnia. Too bad my liver hates it...

[Remus]

Drinking isn't a solution, hun. I'm sorry you're feeling like this at the moment, but there are ways to fight through this that keeps you safe and healthy. You're welcome to come back to chat if you'd like to talk to us there.

Please take care of yourself and stay safe.

~Rem

[Michelle 2010]

If you want to drink that's your business. If you want to stop call the AA help line in your local community. Either way you are welcome in chat Sundays at nine pm est if not disruptive :-)

Michelle

[Charlize]

I used to drink myself to sleep nightly. I passed out, never went to sleep. Now i sleep like a child. I hit the pillow and i'm gone as i give thanks for another day. There is a better and softer way if you want it.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Cyndee]

And then you wake up, uggg

Take care

Cyndi -

[Guest Jennifer T]

Got drunk Friday night, Saturday night and on my this evening. AND I got up each morning and hit the road for some cycling!!! He'll yeah!

[Charlize]

I used to do that but am glad that it's over for me. Biking is fun but the next morning i feel great and that's a big change.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Guest SouthernBelle]

Hangovers don't even bother me anymore. Except for those very rare ones. I haven't gone to sleep in over 2 years. Just keep passing out. Sigh...

It's strange to even be telling y'all this stuff... I've told friends and some family before in moments of desire to reach out, but it never lasts more than one conversation before I brush it back under the rug

Hugs,

Belle

[Bulldog1948]

Yeah, me too. In my younger, wilder and dumber days I would drink and party all night and then go to work. How dumb I really was and too darn stupid to realize what I was doing to my mind and body. How I ever kept from hitting someone I will never know. God had His hand on me, And now, all of these many years later whenever I get the urge to have a cold one I stop and think back on all of the heck and misery those suds cost me and I douse my urge very quickly.

[Guest SouthernBelle]

Maybe one day I'll get there, but the very concept scares the poop out of me! I have always suffered from insomnia and I finally found a means to "cure" it. I used to wind up late to work, because I couldn't fall asleep the night before. Sometimes I was so late it was practically unforgivable. The sad truth is that I am regulating my life right now.

SIde thing, any ex-alchys here ever prided themselves on their ability to type well when smashed? Or to hold intelligent conversations? It's kind of my thing. (Sigh... it's true, I'm kind of proud of my abilities. Idk what to say, I know that I'm going to get negative comments, but it's the truth)

Belle

[Charlize]

I really don't have any negative comments as i read in your post what i felt for so many years. i like you felt i needed my drinks to calm, focus me and then to help me to sleep. Alcohol was my closest friend without i felt i would be nothing. For a good while it served me but then it turned on me and i served it. Alcoholism is a progressive disease. Think of it as an elevator. You can get off at any floor. It can go to the basement and does for some but anywhere you get off is a good floor compared to the absolute bottom. Ask yourself whether you can have just one, can you just pass up a drink or does it call to you. I swear my bottles all developed a voice i could hear over miles and through walls. Now when i go to paint in my studio i paint without hands shaking and the needed shots that only lead to passing out before much work was done.

Perhaps for you as it was for me the booze is telling you you work better with it. Please don't take these words as criticism. I lived where you are and know that i can be there again at any time.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Guest erinanita]

This is not intended as a negative comment but I just don't know how anyone can control their drinking so well as to pass out in bed, wake up in the morning and go to work. I know I never could. I was really small and used to go for a few drinks after work and then drive home a go to bed in a blackout. Sometimes I would drive to work in the morning and then go to sleep in the parking lot. I'm sure glad I found somebody that pointed out the error of my ways.

Erin