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First time out as her (sort-of)


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This will be my first trip alone, without my SO and/or daughter with, and without going to another family members house. Other than underdressing and wearing painted toes under socks, I've never ventured out of the house dressed in what I want to dress.

It's a long drive to my destination, so I decided to tent along the way. Perfect time to be able to do some dressing. It's possible I won't even get out of the tent being dressed, but if I only stay in the tent that's good enough. I'll likely have a waterfront site, so I'm really excited about the posibility of a very late under the cover of darkness swim in my one piece swimming suit, I've been dreaming about that for years. My swimsuit is a monokini. I've never liked monokinis, but they look better on me than bikinis. My monokini is (link deleted)

I need more supplies! So I did what I usually do for buying nail polish, etc and go to a store that has self checkouts. Walmart it was. Thankfully the dressing room attendent wasn't in front of the rooms, so I went in without worrying.

As per usual, I put the clothes under other things I was buying and headed for the self-checkout. Should be in the clear, done this many times. Not today. I had the machine give an error that says extra item on the scale thing. The employee had to come over and clear it. It happened three times! :hairpull:

Thankfully either she say anything (no doubt my order was on her screen) or she didn't notice and was friendly to me. I politely said have a good day and she said it back. I left the store with this cute dress (much younger than my age, but I love it) and this cami. Both of them are a first, my first dress and first cami. B)

I'm fighting the urge to go on a clothes spending spree for my trip. Maybe a couple of things from here, shoes for driving in the car would be nice.

So excited for this trip. By the way, anyone here from Denver? I can't immagine going out in public dressed, but I'm curious.

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Enjoy yourself dear. I hope you are headed for warmer climates looking at your new outfits. It is a little early here to go swimming and i'm guessing that the ice isn't out in parts of Minnesota. I remember loving long drives dressed once i was brave enough to try that. I'd change after leaving the house and back to a male cover up at my destination. I glad you will be free to be yourself for a bit. It is a lovely feeling.

Hugs,

Charlize

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Guest Kaylee

Yep... I do that often too. The 2 hour drive to my Mothers house, and certainly the drive from LA to San Diego. Sometimes earli on a Sunday morning, just driving in the local mountains or up the coast. I love the feel of the cool air :)

Enjoy that time, it's really very peacful!

Huggs,

Kaylee

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Guest Kendra K

Whoops, forgot about the no swimsuit images rule. If you so wish, you can find the swimsuit on the Wallmart website, it's the OP Juniors Tribal Monokini.

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Enjoy yourself dear. I hope you are headed for warmer climates looking at your new outfits. It is a little early here to go swimming and i'm guessing that the ice isn't out in parts of Minnesota. I remember loving long drives dressed once i was brave enough to try that. I'd change after leaving the house and back to a male cover up at my destination. I glad you will be free to be yourself for a bit. It is a lovely feeling.

Hugs,

Charlize

Maybe too early. In southern MN there's no ice on lakes, but yeah they're probably cold. Can't say for the northern part of the state. Going swimming may not happen, but I can dream right?

Question: How did you go about changing to and from your clothes? Toilets in rest areas are gender segregated, so that wouldn't work to enter as a male and come out as a female and vise-versa. Did you just find a single handicap or famly restroom or something like that?

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Well a very tiny small step. my last night and I'm sitting at my campsite wearing the dress, with a bra that adds a few cup sizes, and blue with sparkles nails. My toes are painted too, but I only have tennis shoes.

I'm the only one on this circle, but despite that still a little worried about "what if".

Still feels wonderful. Love wearing a dress, really really wish I could do it more often.

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I hear the sadness but also the fun you've had. Other times will appear for you to find yourself. I went back and forth for years and like you was often sad as well as happy.

Hugs,

Charlize

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Thanks Charlize. I'm daily going back and forth about reaching out to the LGBT group at work to see if they have any Trans members and/or finally going out to that bar where a local cross-gender group meets.

I took my shoes off and am curling my legs underneath me. girlish pose I think, but maybe girls wouldn't do that in a dress, although the dress is tucked behind me.

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