Just a question

[Guest I'mnotbroken]

Hey, I am a 16 year old transgender FTM, I have been looking all over the world to get my shots (I live in Florida) I have decided that it actually might be cheaper and easier to just buy the needles and dosage and etc. online, although I have no idea the correct dosage I need, where to get it, anything really, if anyone has any information I would be very thankful for you to share it.

[Ravin]

This would be a very very bad idea. You need to see an actual doctor and be properly monitored.

[Carolyn Marie]

Hello, hon, and welcome to Laura's Playground. I'm sorry to tell you that the information you seek will not be found here; we have very strict rules about giving out dosage information or allowing any kind of discussion about self-medicating. It is a terrible idea, and very unsafe, and could cause you all kinds of medical problems, including strokes or liver damage. Please reconsider doing what you are thinking of doing, and find a way to get a doctor's care for your needs.

Please do look around the forums and post other questions here or in another thread, or start your own thread. There is a lot for you to learn, and we'd love to help you learn it. We are all about support and love and friendship here, especially for our younger members.

BTW, you might want to check out the rules (Terms and Conditions), so you'll know where the boundaries are. There is a link at the lower right of every page.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Charlize]

Cheap and easy is not a very good reason for anything that you want to last ....like your life. Welcome to Laura's. You are not alone. Spend some time here and meet others who have worked through this need we all feel so deeply in a safe and sustainable fashion.

Hugs,

Charlize

[JJ]

Welcome to the forums

Actually I have a lot of information on this for you. One of the big things to consider is that for female bodied-trans or not -it is now known that T will stop growth immediately because of a process that shuts down all growth and future growth in pregnancy. For some reason T triggers that. It is one reason Drs refuse to prescribe T in most cases before age 18. Not because they think you are too young to know your mind or want to see you develop female attributes that will have to be reversed but because it poses risks to you and will stunt you which as a man you do not want to happen. There are blockers which can stop puberty and development of breasts etc that are far safer.

Second dosage is anything but uniform. What is a safe level for me may not work at all for you or may be way too much. That is why we need monitoring with blood tests till the Dr knows what works for us. Too much poses two risks-both can be catastrophic. That infamous "roid rage" where your personality becomes aggressive and you are at the mercy of a hair trigger temper is caused by excess T -and it can affect us too -for awhile. But what eventually-or immediately if you are unlucky-happens is that it is then converted into E and further feminizes you. Read about the side effects of too much T on cis males-and they don't already have a built in E factory going on. There are other health risks from too high T-like heart failure and high blood pressure -and high blood pressure can occur in someone your age and some feel poses even greater health risks than to someone older.

Lastly T is the most faked drug in the world. And because the people who are selling it are committing a serious felony -right in the same class as selling meth-they really don't care what is does to you nor do you have any recourse. Sometimes it is just plain water-sometimes something fairly safe unless you have an allergy like peanut oil which smells a lot like T-but sometimes it is industrial waste oil or whatever they have available. Nor are these third world factories regulated for sterility so that contamination is a huge risk. Shoot a contaminated substance into your leg as deep as T needs to go and you can have a life or at the very least limb threatening situation. Two of the major manufacturing places for T worldwide are also currently shut down by political situations-one in Turkey and one in the Ukraine near the border. So what little genuine stuff is out there has climbed drastically in price with more fakes than ever -at those high prices too-hitting the market. The odds are heavily stacked against you.

Altogether not worth the risk-and I do know how driven you can be and how hard it is to wait. But transition takes time and strength of character-the wait will help you develop traits you will need to transition. You have a long life to live as the man you are-unless you make an error in judgment now that robs you of that future or the ability to transition. Taking T illegally is very likely to do that. There are things you can do to relieve the stress and pressure some. We are lucky that way because it can be seen as cool to dress and act more male.

Sorry for all the doom and gloom bad news on the T. I wish I had better but that is just the reality of how it is. Work on starting the process to get approved for T when you are old enough and getting the puberty blockers if possible.

Johnny

[Flint]

Welcome to the forums

Actually I have a lot of information on this for you. One of the big things to consider is that for female bodied-trans or not -it is now known that T will stop growth immediately because of a process that shuts down all growth and future growth in pregnancy. For some reason T triggers that. It is one reason Drs refuse to prescribe T in most cases before age 18. Not because they think you are too young to know your mind or want to see you develop female attributes that will have to be reversed but because it poses risks to you and will stunt you which as a man you do not want to happen. There are blockers which can stop puberty and development of breasts etc that are far safer.

Johnny

I've heard some guys reckon to have got a bit taller on T, there was a guy on youtube who reckoned he had, he was in his early 20's i think. So I'm a bit confused by this. But i do know i've also been told it can't happen so...I dunno. * confused*

To the OP. I can only echo waht has already been said. You really need to see a doctor to prescribe this stuff, it's the safest way. Transitioning isn't something you can just do with a click of the fingers, it's not something you can just decide to do over night.

[JJ]

After 3 years on T I am 1/4 inch taller than ever in my life- and an inch taller than when I started T by the Drs office measurement at a time I would normally be shrinking. The extreme weight loss may account for some of it and muscle development the rest. I have heard of other guys becomming taller when starting T after puberty but it is marginal-less than half an inch and I have always seen attributed to muscle development differences.

That T supplementation shuts down growth in female bodied I have read is an established medical fact. One of the things that we cannot correct for FTMs yet so that even if treated young transmen won't be as tall on average as cis men. In fact could end up smaller than average fenmales even. If you want to see an example of the process look at the girl who was among those kidnapped & held captive for years. She is tiny with her growth stunted frm a very young pregnancy. There are a lot of examples but that is perhaps the most recent. T triggers that for some reason and so far apparently there is no safe way to then restart growth

Johnny

[Guest Nicodeme]

Even if it were a good idea (and it's not), it's nigh impossible for people to DIY with testosterone in the US, as it's a controlled substance and the sites that would have previously sold it no longer do. All you can legally buy is the actual gear for administering it to yourself.

Just keep looking for a trans-friendly endo. That's all the advice we can give you.