I Have a Confession

[Guest]

Not a huge confession, but, I've made it a point to say that I (currently) have no real desire to pass and could never go out in public while dressed in anything that could be 'seen'. Yeah, I'll wear panties and hose and MAYBE a thin sports bra, but that's it).

Well, I'm on a business trip in S. Korea and while I'm in my hotel room, I'm always dressed. I didn't bring my breast forms (adds a LOT of extra airline weight and didn't want a to take chances), so instead I am wearing an EXTREMELY HEAVILY padded T-Shirt bra (that my wife bought me, and provides a lot of form) with a pretty underwire on top. Then my panties and a sun dress.

More than a few times, I've needed to run down to the store in the lobby to get snacks or beer or whatnot and didn't wan't to go through the hassle of taking off my 'clothes' so I layer sweats and a t-shirt and then a large zippered hoody over it all and leave my room, in a slight panic.

When I walked out of the room, not too big a deal, not many people on this floor. Get in the elevator and notice my profile in the mirrors in the elevator. Holy crap, my breasts are a bit more prominent than I'm comfortable seeing in public! Too late to turn back now. I get out of the elevator and I feel a massive amount of anxiety. I soldier on into the convenience store and get what I need. I don't 'feel' anyone looking at me in any funny ways, but still!

I finally get back to my floor, never seeing my coworker or customer, get into my room and I finally start breathing again. Kinda exhilarating, in a ready to die sort of way LOL...

Just thought I'd share.......

[VickySGV]

The danger element always does add the spicy sauce to CDing.

[Charlize]

You might have had some quick explaining to do. I remember being so close to being caught and having my heart race unbelievably. Almost as good a a roller coaster but getting caught, when it happened, once that i remember was almost the low point of my ride to date. I had always felt so ashamed as well as afraid of being outed. Pity but for me that always seemed to ruin the fun. Perhaps if i could have felt less ashamed of myself i could have enjoyed the thrill even more. Glad you have your wife as an ally. i'm sure that helps immensely.

Hugs,

Charlize

[tracy_j]

Little by little!

Expect to be caught out sometime as it will happen, but be ready with answers.

Having the confidence to brush things off and act as if all is natural (which it is) diminishes much of the fear but there is still the excitement

It is good to be thick skinned at times but the goal is to have the confidence to cope with any issues!

I think I must look in the mirror more than most women before going out to be sure all is OK. Training to be a woman lol

Keep the good times rolling

Tracy

[Guest *Charlotte P*]

I can sympathize with your feelings of anxiety, I'm in the same boat, not gonna pass ever under any circumstances, yet still i wear girls jeans and bras and even occasionally a girls shirt while I am out. I have worn the heavily padded tshirt bras you speak of and have even worn my breastforms driving to work a few times. When it is light out, there is always the danger of having my breasts "seen" by passing motorist, or by folks in traffic next to me, that is always my greatest fear. But in reality, they don't know me, probably never gonna see them again, and quite frankly, Who Cares!! it's fun and I like to do it..

Keep having fun Fiona, safe return here to the states..

Charlotte

[Guest Fiona]

Thanks, everyone.....

[Guest AshleighP]

I agree Charlotte! "It's fun and I like to do it".

Most people don't even pay any attention to what's going on around them. The first time I went out fully dressed (just recently by the way), I was sure everybody was staring at me, then I realized they are so caught up in their own little worlds they don't even notice. I got to a point in my 2 hour drive where I was in considerable stop and go traffic. I decided that instead of trying to hide, I would make eye contact with other drivers and even pedestrians. It was actually fun having my "little secret" in public in broad daylight. Life is too short not to enjoy little pleasures and experiences.

[Guest Wanda Michelle]

I've gone out many times and like most always feel very anxious. Like Ashleigh said though, most people are caught up in what they are doing and don't even notice. I even bought a wig one time, wore it out of the store, went and stood by my car and had a cigarette before leaving all without any make-up but lip gloss! People drove by but no one seemed to take any particular notice. Caught up in their world.

Hugs to All,

Wanda

[Guest Scarlett London]

Ha! I know the feeling. 2nd time out I was just going to drive around full on femme. Well, a guy backed out of a parking spot and hit my car. I had to face my worst fear head on. He looked at me and although kept a straight face, he was surprised (kinda stared for a sec). He was a bit of a good ol boy too (I'm in the south). His wife and kids even got out. His wife finished up the business as I'm sure he was uncomfortable. She was nice though and acted like nothing unusual was happening. I opted not to call the police.

[Guest sweetcharlene41]

I to can sympathize with you, I NEVER went out in public and I'm pretty sure no one in my family knew. My wife passed in Jan.2013, and I really started to dress up, wig's make-up, perfume, heels, the works, including breasts I brought. So one night about 3 AM, I DECIDED TO GO OUT DRESS UP TO THE MAX. My plan was to stay in front of the building I live in, and walk a little bit, I forgot the bar across the street, closes at the same time. As I was walking back, I hear hey honey, want a little lovin, (I live in a red neck state), then a hand on my shoulder, and I say in the deepest voice I can find, how would you like to get kicked between the legs. Well he stepped back and I walked quickly back to my apartment, NEVER TO GO OUT AGAIN.