Surprised I Was Never Caught When I Was A Younger

[Guest Roberta-Belinda]

I have fond memories of my early crossdressing days as I kid and through to my teens and beyond. When I look back I was surprised I was never caught by my parents. Most of the time in my teens I dressed up in my Mother's pantyhose and skirts when my parents were out for the evening, but there were times when I dressed when they were at home. I am sure that most of the time I locked the door but there must have been other times when I left the door open. I had a hair raising experience when I was about 18. I was dressed in skirts and pantyhose when there was a knock at the door two guys from the gas board came to take an old gas appliance away. I was semi expecting them. I frantically took the skirt off and put my pants on over my tights. When they came to collect the equipment they asked me to sign a form I was shaking like a leaf, they must have gathered that I was up to something. Although I never got caught there were some other very embarrassing moments. A couple of times my parents found my stash of pantyhose/tights. I had to explain they belonged to my girlfriend who used to stay at the weekend. One day my Mum confronted me, I explained they were not mine but I think she guessed. Although I could understand my Mother's concern that I might have been a crossdresser the experience had an effect on me. I hardly dressed for two years. I would go on sprees and have fun buying skirts and hosiery but guilt would set it in and I would purge the whole lot and throw the items away it was a criminal waste of money. I rarely indulged in dressing again until I had my own place which was much better as I could dress as I pleased in private.

[Guest Faith gibson]

Hi Roberta,

i can relate to your stories as I'm sure many here can. I don't see myself as a cross dresser but when I was young I often wore Mom's clothes. My parents knew and really didn'y cause me too much grief until I got older (teens) then they seemed to lose patience and without saying llots, made their displeasure known. In their defense though, being transgender was not something they knew anything about.

I really haven't had an opportunity to talk to many people that identify as CD. For awhile I thought I might be. Not anymore though because I've come to realize something about myself which I'm afraid can't be denied.

Getting back to your not being caught. I guess you can count yourself lucky. What will you do if you do get caught? Frankly, I think it's quite likely.

Faith

[Charlize]

I fought with the issue of being caught for years. Both as a child and when an adult. Purges, shame and fear but i always returned to dress again. I really didn't know it was even possible to transition despite dressing both in and out of public. I hid from those that knew me and considered myself a cross dresser. The terms i knew just didn't fit. I found little satisfaction dressing by myself even though i had created a secret world in the barn. Making it was fun but being alone as myself was terribly depressing so after i stopped drinking i quit dressing at all. I didn't throw anything out i just quit dressing. Then when i started again it was only in public but away from friends and family. I was desperate to be myself but the shame and fear were still part of me. I'm amazed i wasn't found out then. I dressed to do the shopping, went to work as a man and dressed to go out to get supplies from stores that didn't know me. My suitcase of clothing rode with me in the truck and i changed as i traveled. I don't know what miracle freed me to start living as myself. I'm sure i was helped by a power greater than myself. I was indeed blessed when i started saying this is me and i have to live as the person i am. It took time but finally i'm not worried about being caught.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Guest Faith gibson]

I know Charlize. I go out a fair bit as myself now and it really is a comfort for me. I'm not nearly as worried anymore aboy=ut getting found out. I am almost expecting it to happen any time now. I think I'm starting to reach that place where my needs are more than my fears. Hormones are a calling I think.

Sorry Roberta, I'm getting away from your original topic. It is very interesting.

Faith

[Guest Melissa~]

I cross dressed for decades and was never "caught" despite going out in public in later years. I really just guess it comes down to how careful you are combined with how snoopy the family is. For better or worse, my disclosure letter was the first inkling most of my family ever got of my impending transition. Without any hint of background several family members were in disbelief of my statement.

[tracy_j]

I admit I had similar fears in earlier years although I did not crossdress that often and it was of a more sexual than gender feeling in those days if you know what I mean! I did sometimes worry and feel a little guilty at this.

The one time I do remember that I was a bit worried was slightly different than many. I have always liked more unisex fashions. Often very colourful. This came to a height in my teens when I was recognised as mostly wearing scarlet jeans and flourescent socks. I do remember when my sister mentioned that she did not like her lemon yellow cords and seizing the opportunity I took them from her. I wore them for a several weeks on and off after that (until they got rather grubby), but always worried that someone would notice and take issue with the fact that they were women's with fastenings / zip access on the other side to men's. As it happened, if anyone did they never said but on looking back I'm sure many would not have been surprised anyway.

These days, although I have not fully come out to many people, I have gradually introduced feminine wear so most who know me well are used to my womens wear even if they would still be rather more shocked at the full girly girl (that is less common when out and not local). I expect at some time to be caught as such as I travel far and wide with my job and meet many people. I would hopefully take it in my stride but I suppose you cannot tell how anyone would react.

I did at othertimes wear other things like tights under my normal clothes, the main worry being if I had an accident and people would find out.

These days I am most relaxed when I am out wearing my mix of clothes as no-one is likely to be too surprised at what they may find, whether clothing or anatomy.

Tracy

[Guest AshleighP]

"I did at other times wear other things like tights under my normal clothes, the main worry being if I had an accident and people would find out". Love this Tracy! I have always had this same fear. I think it comes from being told as I was growing up to never leave the house with mismatched socks or dirty underwear LOL.

The first time I went out fully dressed I had to drive 70 miles to a party that a group of like minded ladies was having. There was no place to change there, so I left my house fully dressed in broad daylight. The whole time I was scared to death that I would have an accident and "be found out". It made me laugh out loud at myself for my paranoia. As I was sitting in traffic, a car in the lane next to me didn't see the cars stopped in front of him and slammed in to the back of another vehicle, just to reinforce my fears, right? And, he was driving a car very similar to mine! The further I drove (in Washington D. C. Traffic) the more I realized most people are so self absorbed, that they barely notice what's going on around them.

Anyway, the older I get, the less I seem to care about getting caught. I think the real root of the fear is more about being judged as less than normal by people who don't understand. I have even gotten to the point where I don't hide my things from my wife. She still does not understand or approve, but she is aware. She knows that if she opens my underwear drawer, she will find panties, bras, and a rather large assortment of tights and stockings (one of my obsessions). At this stage i wouldn't want her to come home and find me fully dressed, but I wouldn't run and hide either. I used to listen carefully for car doors closing in the driveway whenever i would dress. Now I walk to the front windows to see what the noise was. LOL As I become more comfortable with who I really am, the fear seems to subside. Just my thoughts. Great topic by the way!

[Guest ashleynikole]

Yep. 25+ years of crossdressing in private and never once got caught. It was by the grace of God that I never did get caught. Then again, maybe it would've help me come out because the shame and guilt would've been too much to bare. Coming out was a little bumpy, but in the end the plane landed safely and it's good to be free on solid ground.

God bless

Ashley

[Guest Roberta-Belinda]

Some of my early experiences of my younger days of being a crossdresser were quite lovely and will stay with me forever. When I was in college at the age of sixteen I read out loud in a Christmas carol service, I was very nervous but it went well. When I got back home in the afternoon I relaxed by wearing my Mother's skirts and tights, I really felt so right to look and feel like a normal young girl of my age.

Another truly awesome experience I had of dressing as Belinda whilst locked in my room was in 1982 I bought a whole load of very Prettty Polly tights in a department store one of the pairs was in a now defunct shade called bitter chocolate. They really enhanced the shape of my legs and I felt as if I had the leg of a chorus girl even though my legs are not perfect by any means my knees are a bit pudgy and the back of my calves look a little muscular.

[Guest Wanda Michelle]

I've been dressing for 50+ years and am amazed I've had the good luck of not getting caught. I've had a few close calls though. I was sleeping in a bra and panties once when my uncle came to wake me. Luckily I kept the covers on. Another time my grandmother noticed a bra in my suitcase but nothing came of it.

I used to sneak down in the basement early in the morning and wear my Mom's bras, panties and whatever else I could find. In later years I'd lock my bedroom door to dress. Eventually I started going out in public and still enjoy that feeling. Like others though I worry about an accident or getting pulled over by the police.

I try to be very careful but you never know. I worry that someday I'll miss something.

Hugs,

Wanda

[Guest robin0417]

I am also surprised I was never found. I would sneak into my aunts room during parties at their house and try on dresses. It was fun. I would come out to the party then sneak back in and try something else on. There were a couple close calls, but never caught.

I also would house/dog sit for neighbors and another family member. When at the family members I would dress in my cousins close. I would dress up and go out in the back yard to get the dogs. It was again a lot of fun.