A new date

[Charlize]

Many of you may know that i was scheduled for an orchiectomy last year. # days before the procedure was due in March i had a heart attack. I was forced to stop everything including HRT for a period of time. Fortunately i was able to get back on HRT after a fairly short time, just enough to get a good feeling that it was right for me.

After i got out of the hospital all the walls between me and the procedure went back up. The appointments with doctors , therapist and the tests were just set aside and a new mountain placed in front. Slowly i've been climbing. My wife and i had a great trip and that put the push off for a bit but recently everything has been coming together. Yesterday i got a call to review my blood test results and general health from the nurse practitioner at Dr McGinn's office. I brought up the fact that i thought i had everything done for a clearance for the procedure. I think it fell right into place. My T levels are high and they were thinking of changing meds but after a bit of time on hold i was cleared for surgery. A few calls later with other staff and i'm set up for the 14th of January 2015. That date is such a lovely Christmas present. Of course all the doubts and fears come back in but also mixed with joy. It has been an extra long ordeal for what is an imperfect but for me the only step i can take down there for several reasons.

I've even scheduled a ride with a dear friend. I'm lucky as Dr. McGinn works at a hospital only 20 miles from the farm.

I wish it hadn't taken so long but just another lesson in patience if i needed one and it's all the sweeter for the wait.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Guest Mickey]

I'm so happy for you CHarlize! I will keep you in my prayers, that you won't have anything happen between now and then to put it off again. And that you will have an easy surgery and a speedy recovery.

And it's a funny thing, about those mountains they put in front of us. When the mountain is between us, and what we want, it is a huge mountain. But when we have gotten what we want, the mountain looks like a tiny mole hill. When I was trying to get started on HRT last year, having to go see a head doc before being able to start HRT, seemed like it was taking forever. After being on HRT for almost a year, it seems as if there wasn't even a mountain. Hopefully I will have my own Orchi soon and this mountain will become a mole hill.

[Guest]

And my immediate thought was:

"What will your SO think about that?"

Having a date with someone.

Congratulations on a wonderful early Christmas present. The New Years present will be much better though.

What time do I need to pick you up again, Charlize?<giggle>

Huggs,

Joann

[KathrynJulia]

I'm so happy for you Chalize. You will feel better on lower doses of hormones. It really does make true TS feel lousy when you have Testosterone floating around. Keeping fingers and toes crossed and keeping prayers for you girl. Kathy

[Charlize]

Oh a date..... That has been a long way from my thoughts. Fortunately my wife and i remain close and while perhaps not the lovers we once were we still love and find comfort in togetherness. A romantic date might bring up different needs and longings. That thought does cross my mind when i think of romance after surgery. I have doubts and fears as i mentioned. I think that is normal but i'm trying to walk through fear and uncertainty. When i look around at where i was a few years ago and what i see in the mirror today it gives me power to put a foot forward despite doubt and fear.

Dating is another topic for another day. Perhaps that is one of the advantages of getting older. Who knows if that day will come again. There is some peace in simply being with the one i love. I and so fortunate in so many ways but perhaps mostly in finding sobriety and some places where others who i can share with have some understanding of difficulties i face.

Sorry for the rant,

Hugs,

Charlize

[Guest]

^^^ :thumbsup: ^^^

You are fortunate my Dear Sister, but you already know that.

Huggs,

Joann

[tracy_j]

Have a relaxing Christmas and New Year Charlize such that you are ready in mind and body for the operation, so to pass as a formality!

The reduction in stress will be good for your heart

Tracy x

[Cyndee]

Quite good news Charlize and will be pulling for you next year. It's gonna work out I know it....

Hugs

Cyndi -

[Guest]

w00t!!! We can be surgery buddies. Although something tells me my face is gonna take a LOT longer to heal than your surgery. I hope everything goes well for you and you can drop one Rx and start living again.

God bless and prayers

Ashley

[Guest LizMarie]

Congratulations, Charlize!

[Bulldog1948]

Congratulations . I know that you will feel like a new woman once this procrdure is done. Merry Christmas

[VickySGV]

That's the day before my two year birthday Charlize!! Good time of year. Smooth sailing this time.