A Question For Everyone

[Guest letmebe_me]

hey

a bit of a random question but i was wondering what different people think about it or have done.

i was wondering if you keep anything from before you transitioned? for example a ftm may decide to keep a necklace. a mtf may decide to keep a tie. not to use, just to put away in a box, just to keep. or do you feel to be fully yourself you need to get rid of it all?

i hope this makes sense! u dont have to answer.

daniel

[Guest matthew41]

Dan,

Its a valid question. I had to think about it for awhile to remember I kept my highschool class ring. It has my female name on it but it marks the end of an era so I still have it in a box, in a closet.

Matt

[Guest Sergei]

Hey, I didn’t really own any female things anyway, but anything with my old name on or that made a reference to my old gender I packed up and have stored away.

The only one item I have kept out on display is a certificate I got earlier in the year for a piano exam. I only just scraped the pass mark, because around the time I took the exam I was very distressed about my condition, and drinking heavily, and feeling really bad about everything.

I’m taking the exam again in about 6 weeks time under my new name. When I pass, and hopefully with a much higher mark, I will put the new certificate in it’s place.

I see this as a symbolic act. Saying bye to the past and all of the bad things in it. And looking forward to a far brighter and more successful future.

[Guest Katie-Louise]

My teddybear I've had since I was born I kiss it every night does that count as something? lots of love, katie-louise

[Guest letmebe_me]

thanks for the great replies, its interesting to see different peoples answers.

there are certain things i cant get rid of, things which can never be replaced like a st.christopher bracelet i was given as a baby at my christening and the teddy my grandad gave me the day i was born. they are in a box under my bed along with photos and letters and things that belonged to my grandad who is no longer alive.

another thing i was wondering is, do you ever miss the 'old you'?

[Guest letmebe_me]

or anything the old you used to be able to do but now cant?

[Guest Sergei]

I missed my hair at first. It was really long, and I had it clipped really, really short! At the time I always thought of myself as a man with long hair, but when I look back at old pictures I realise how female it made me look. I look much better now, everyone says it, but from time to time I still miss the hair. lol

[Guest GoldenKirbichu]

I guess the biggest thing I miss is the openness.

Guys are weighted so much differently in social situations. Now people act as if I'm dangerous and relationships are much less open with me. I actually liked some of the openness (not as much as the average biogirl but more than the average bioguy) and I sometimes miss it.

But I've almost eliminated every aspect of the old "me". I can't change my deviantArt sex though. *grimaces* It won't let me.

[Zufrieden]

The biggest thing I've gained has been openness.

Whether it's because I view myself as less threatening or other people actually do, I don't know.

All I can say is the ability to say "Hello" to everybody and look them in the face has opened the world to me.

I think I've gone off the deep end in this aspect as compared to the biogirls around me.

From what I have read, I think the biggest disadvantage of being an FTM (not that you have a choice)

would be to find people scared or intimidated by you.

The biggest thing I've lost has been my insensitivity to cold. Now, I'm always pulling on a sweater.

Z.

[Guest HighFlyingRaven]

hey

a bit of a random question but i was wondering what different people think about it or have done.

i was wondering if you keep anything from before you transitioned? for example a ftm may decide to keep a necklace. a mtf may decide to keep a tie. not to use, just to put away in a box, just to keep. or do you feel to be fully yourself you need to get rid of it all?

i hope this makes sense! u dont have to answer.

daniel

Hi Daniel, I hope I am doing this correctly this is my first post, reply. I am new to Laura's Playground. As for my answer if I may, I do have an old photo of myself but I have lived as a female since I was sixteen or younger so, its not like I am mindful of it. Do you know what I mean? I just have it. I am not one to look back on my life because I was unhappy as a male. I never ever fit in. I hope I answered. Thanx