So Apparently Just Because I Have Ocd, I Can't Be Trans

[Guest sphere]

My sister thinks I'm a hypochondriac, because I keep on self-diagnosing me with stuff and then "conforming" to it so I make problems for myself etc etc. My dad's also accused me of this.

Yet every time I self-diagnose myself, it turns out to be true.

Anyway, my sister doesn't believe I'm transsexual. I don't care too much, but when she keeps on nagging to me about it (she doesn't know how to mind her own business and thus urinating everyone off) it starts getting annoying.

I admit though, occasionally I do make little lies or exaggerate things a bit, but I never am able to convince myself of these things. Yet I've convinced myself pretty well I was trans.

Besides, in middle school when puberty was giving me a good kick in the shins, I felt miserable--not as the average girl would, but it just... didn't feel right to me. I didn't understand what "transsexual" or "transgendered" meant, either. I'd often daydream about, what if I was a guy, and how much more confident I'd feel, how much more right it would feel, and it all made sense to me. Still didn't know about any of this trans stuff! Figured that part out by the end of eighth grade, when I started getting into more of my "tomboy"-ish phases again, which have appeared frequently through the years, where my more boyish years I spend being much more confident, and in my girlier ones where I conform to what people expect and want me to be (my parents always wished I was girlier anyway) I felt miserable, even suicidal. But after this transsexual epiphany, I stopped caring so much about what others thought of me and my confidence went up by a long shot.

Of course, none of this would convince my sister. She'll be a junior next year. Long next two years. Can't wait until she leaves. Can't wait until I leave, really.

Why I'm saying this is cause I've been in an argument with here lately, and the whole not knowing when to quit thing runs in my family. Especially in her, which is very very aggravating. I told her that trans or no, she should leave me and my silly stupid phases alone and worry about herself. Of course, she didn't want to do that, since she loves butting her head into other people's c**p. ugghhhhhhhhh.

What spurred this small feud was me getting annoyed by my dad, who was watching a documentary about transsexuals, a transman specifically, and he just spouted such ignorant c**p it was appalling. Stuff like "Gay men dress as women, but some just want to go all the way.." already a lie, most cross dressers are straight. Ignorant moron. "As for women who pretend to be men, they're just confused." and while watching the documentary, he yelled at the TV, "THIS GUY'S SICK!!" and "HE--NO, SHE--IS NOT A MAN, SHE'S JUST CONFUSED!!" blahblahblah.

Ironic though. My dad is very ignorant, but not all too homophobic, but very transphobic (as you can see) yet my mom is very homophobic but she is accepting of transpeople (unless it's her own kid who's trans).

Having to chant to myself: homocide is BAD... homocide is BAD... [this is a joke people - moderator]

tl;dr: Today was not a good day and I hate my family.

[Guest Little Sara]

What they accuse you of is of being an hypochondriac. This is "a condition" where someone makes up a disease that affects them as if they had it, when they don't really have it.

About why your dad spouts all that off. I threatens his vision of his world. Something he apparently is invested a lot more than the average person in preserving. That's not too good a sign in coming out to him.

I don't think you're an hypochondriac. The "it's just a phase" is an excuse given to trans people to say what they feel isn't real, too. Turns out most of the time it IS true heh.

[Guest leo]

my parents are not that out right about it all but they do come up with the whole its a phrase thing

just keep your head down and ignore them

you know the truth and thats whats most important

stay true to yourself

[Guest kirsty]

I know only too well how you feel. It's like people think because you have OCD or any other Mental health disorder that this must be why you have gender issues. It's a very ignorant an uneducated response, but sadly one we all have to face a lot. I got this from my family too. I strongly believe that most people who have OCD and other mental health issues alongside gender dysphoria have these problems as a result of their gender issues.

[Guest DanM]

I have found this to be the same problem with most families of trans people, they tend to want to believe that it is something else other than what it really is. either your gay or lesbian, insane and need to be in a hospital, anything but trans. Other diagnoses are easier for them to except specially parents and siblings. Siblings are afraid it will affect them or thier kids down the road, most are quite naive about transgender issues. Just keep your head up and be yourself.

[Guest julia_d]

Crossdressing and being trans can feel like OCD .. It's certainly a drive and a compulsion to do something which is seen as "odd" or not "normal" by all the "ordinary" (look up set in their ways or boring or blinkered in the dictionary XD) people. It was used as the excuse for many years to use nasty ECT and other treatments on transpeople in an attempt to "cure" them.

People who use these terms now are just living in the past and deluding themselves.. If you encounter this from a medical professional without them exploring your trans issues run a mile.. see if you can beat 6 minutes *hahahahaha*