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My real name is ----, but I prefer Amy, so if you want to refer to me, I would prefer Amy.

I am a 18 year old high school student, working online from home to get my diploma. I have found this to be benfeicial now that I am going through this process, as I can act upon my thoughts much better than if I had been in a brick and mortar.

I have done many activities throughout high school, including wrestling and football. I didn't much like wrestling, so I only did one year, but I was actually good at football. I was the star lineman my junior and senior year, mostly due to dwarfing the rest of the players. (I live in a small community; after me at 310 lbs, the next biggest player was 220 lbs.) Football had its moments, but I would much rather have been true to myself than play the sport. I have mentioned already, in another thread, that football was my last ditch effort to fit in. A warning to all FTM out there; if you are going to play football, learning the humor can be the toughest part of the sport. I found most of it to be crude and entirely void of intellect. Just try to laugh anyway, even if you don't find it funny.

My biggest worry right now is society. Transsexualism is a much more accepted idea today than it has ever been, probably due more to the gay rights movement than anything else. (Not that I'm saying anyone here is a homosexual, but most of society can't tell the difference.) I really want to get out there and begin dressing like a female, to get the process started, but even with all the support I have at home, and with my two closest female friends, I am still scared to death. My mind is constantly full of the, "What ifs." (Of course, it's going to be tough to convince anyone that I'm actually a 280lb female. Lol.)

One of the most important things about me posting is that I like to make jokes. Alot. I find that sometimes you have to laugh just to keep yourself from crying, and I've been that way as part of social training. THere used to be a time when I was willing to cry, but due to having to "Act more male," I have really thrown up some walls that practically stop me from crying, and one of them is humor. So please bear with me if I joke in the midst of a serious topic. It won't be crude humor, just enough to try and lighten the mood.

I look forward to meeting you all,

Amy

Oh, and if someone has a link explaining how to do pictures and profile information, I would love the help. I am sometimes so inexperienced with computers that it amazes me I am an online student. Lol.

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Welcome Amy,

I am so glad that you have posted an itroduction.

Come on in to the members lounge and get comfortable, I'll bring you some hot coco and fresh baked cinnamon Rolls.

Don't worry, the food is virtual so it has virtually no calories. :D

We all like to use humor when it helps.

We have a great deal in common but don't worry about your size - there are a lot of really big women!

I'm working on my weight but I'll still be 6'4".

Wait here and a lot of friendly people will come by when the smell of the Cinnamon Rols hits the playground - its a sign that we have a new member and they will want to meet you and the Cinnamon Rolls as well.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest ~Brenda~

Welcome Amy!

My fellow MTF! Nice to actually say "I am a woman!" out loud doesn't it. I am so glad you have found your way here! Really feels good to be home and with friends. We all completely understand where you are at and what your ar feeling. Very nice introduction, and please continue to post on the forums!!

For Avatar, Pictures, signature, Personal statement, etc. Simply click on "My Controls" at the upper right hand of any page and then click on the options on the left hand side of the "My Controls" page.

Hope this helps and WELCOME!!

LOL

bernii

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Guest Donna Jean

Hello, Amy!

How nice to meet you!

I have read your post and I understand where you are coming from....Our resident sweetheart, Sally , can be of great help to with her wisdom and loving ways...She is not "Standard" size either (whatever that is).

But, really most of us here are in the same or similar place as you, so we can certainly feel the things that you do!

Please make yourself at home and relax...I think that you'll like it here very much!

****BIGG HUGG****

Donna Jean

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Guest joe0117

Hi Amy!

Welcome to the playground! I enjoyed learning a little bit about you and look forward to learning even more. You have met three remarkable women. I'm sure they can help answer any questions you might have. Everyone here is super friendly. I'm so glad you are here!

Joe

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Guest amyj

Thank you all for the warm welcome!

It is nice to know I have finally found an active forum. All of the groups on FB are dead as a doornail. Lol.

And yes, it is great to be able to say it. I have been long denying it, and now have only society to climb over before I can finish the process.

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Guest DanM

Hi Amy,

Welcome to the playground, don't worry you will get a hang of how to get things done on the internet pretty quickly. Please have nice little journey around the site and post your thoughts and whatever.

Peace and Love

Dan

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Guest Frank67

Welcome Amy

to Laura's Playground.

Humor is a good way to keep us away from wallowing in self-pity and I know what I am talking about (just 2 words - my parents ;) )

Enjoy your stay, look around, offer help and ask if you have questions.

Frank

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Guest SaraNetherlands

Hello Amy, welcome! Over here you'll find a lot of support. Everyone is very kind and always very welcoming. And an online study, that's amazing. That takes alot of self-discipline. You go, girl! ;)

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