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HI ADE  im jo jo i to are changing from mtf and here if you want to chat

 

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Hi Ade and Jo Jo. My name is Daisy. I have been through the entire long journey of transitioning from a MTF. I was 18 years old when I can say I started that journey because that is when I 100% decided I was going ahead with this and had no obstacles in front of me. At the age of 35(Yes 35). I ended that journey with the final surgery Sex Reassignment Surgery. It took this long because I certainly am no Caitlyn Jenner who is loaded with money. Once that surgery was done I finished it off by officially changing my name to Daisy Mae fro my birth name David Marl and getting a tattoo with the name Daisy on it. My journey is now complete and I am who I was meant to be all along. I am happy and fulfilled. I go out to bars, clubs cafes and men buy me drinks and want to be with me. It is a wonderful feeling. I am upfront and honest with the men I have been with right from the start stating to them I was born a man. All of them are shocked by are positive about it when they know I have gone through the entire transition. 

 

Good luck with your transitions and stay positive throughout the entire process. There will be times you feel it is really tough but in the end it is all so rewarding.

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Welcome Ade.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Hello Ade and welcome.  I think you'll find this a nice place to chat and discover.

 

Jani

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Hi all and yes I would love to chat more on our subjects 

I have brought some hormones off the net and after reading up and really understanding what’s going to happen to me is so exciting 

I’m a married guy of 14 years and I have two kids

as a kid I accidentally took my mums birth control tabs not knowing what they were 

they looked like chocolate buttons years ago 

only around 10 or 15 

i was on 10 years old and I have developed large nipples and Breast tissue 

so as a teenager I was embarrassed about them 

and got used to them at 40 

so ive started my transformation one month ago 

 

 

 

 

 

Just now, Jani said:

Hello Ade and welcome.  I think you'll find this a nice place to chat and discver.

 

Jani

 

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Guest Ade6589

Hi Jani

yes I would like to chat to any one who’s going threw this change to

im having a down day today but definitely not a regret in sight 

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Sorry to hear that, but try to look at the good around you.  Please start a post and folks will join in.

 

There are people here at all stages of their life and transition.  As you may have read I'm on of the older ones and I've fully transitioned having made the decision three years ago.  A rough ride at times but if you persevere and believe in yourself you'll get to your personal destination.

 

Jani

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Aw Hi Jani and thanks 

yeah I’m trying to do this in secret from every one 

but I need advise if u can understand 

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Just now, Ade6589 said:

Aw Hi Jani and thanks 

yeah I’m trying to do this in secret from every one 

but I need advise if u can understand 

Ade, I can totally understand your feeling about wanting this in secrecy, but I challenge you a little at a time(like once a week or even once every two weeks) in the beginning. Step out of your comfort zone and maybe go out wearing a bra to a store. Even if no one notices because it is under your other clothing it will help you. Then gradually move forward to other things as you become comfortable in your transitioning. 

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Aw thanks yeah as it’s a nice day today I’ve been sunbathing topless and yeah their growing and looking good my nipples are very tenter tho

ive been wearing women’s underwear for two months now too 

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I agree with what Daisy suggests.  When I first went out fully dressed (cranberry slacks and flowered top) I found the world did not stop turning and no-one paid any attention to me.  Slowly getting out, pushing your comfort level is good therapy as you see it can be done.  Be careful and you'll be fine.  

 

Jani

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Just now, Ade6589 said:

Aw thanks yeah as it’s a nice day today I’ve been sunbathing topless and yeah their growing and looking good my nipples are very tenter tho

ive been wearing women’s underwear for two months now too 

You are taking huge strides then and should be extremely proud of that.

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Guest Ade6589

Thanks very much for your support guys 

what a great forum with great people too

apparently my hormones are working faster than normal as of birth control tablets I took as a child 

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Guest Ade6589

Aw thanks daisy may

as u can imagine I was so confused as a teenager whilst growing small breasts 

as I had a penis and hair growing everywhere 

took me 25 years to get used to it 

who knows how far this journey will go 

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Just now, Ade6589 said:

Aw thanks daisy may

as u can imagine I was so confused as a teenager whilst growing small breasts 

as I had a penis and hair growing everywhere 

took me 25 years to get used to it 

who knows how far this journey will go 

All I can say is take it one day at a time. As for me I knew at a young age I was a young girl trapped in a boys body. I had two older sisters who I so much wanted to play with their dolls, dress up with them, have tea parties. It wasn't until I was 18 when I got the obstacles out of my life and started my journey very slowly. It took me until I was 35 years old to completely transition into a full female. It is expensive for one thing and there are a lot of things you have to emotionally think about. Now being 5 years into being a female I am more happier than I have ever been in my entire life. Like I said take it slow and one day at a time. Good Luck.

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I wonder how long it will be until my wife realises my boobs have grown and my hair is much lighter on my body 

I’ve noticed quick but I’m me 

she already commented that I needed to cheer up about a week ago 

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Just now, Daisy Mae said:

All I can say is take it one day at a time. As for me I knew at a young age I was a young girl trapped in a boys body. I had two older sisters who I so much wanted to play with their dolls, dress up with them, have tea parties. It wasn't until I was 18 when I got the obstacles out of my life and started my journey very slowly. It took me until I was 35 years old to completely transition into a full female. It is expensive for one thing and there are a lot of things you have to emotionally think about. Now being 5 years into being a female I am more happier than I have ever been in my entire life. Like I said take it slow and one day at a time. Good Luck.

Aw thanks very much 

for your great words 

I’m taking it slow as I realy want this change to be perfect for me 

inside I’m a gay as I fancy guys have done for as long as I can remember 

so I know me and my wife will never work out as it’s to why I’m doing this i have heard  that eventually your semen gets blocked and your balls shirnk 

so if this happens i may go on to have them and my penis removed as I had a vasectomy 8 years ago so my kids are done !

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Just now, Ade6589 said:

I wonder how long it will be until my wife realises my boobs have grown and my hair is much lighter on my body 

I’ve noticed quick but I’m me 

she already commented that I needed to cheer up about a week ago 

She will definitely notice the breast change at some point. I think if she asks about it you should be honest with her and tell her about the hormones. 

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Just now, Ade6589 said:

Aw thanks very much 

for your great words 

I’m taking it slow as I realy want this change to be perfect for me 

inside I’m a gay as I fancy guys have done for as long as I can remember 

so I know me and my wife will never work out as it’s to why I’m doing this i have heard  that eventually your semen gets blocked and your balls shirnk 

so if this happens i may go on to have them and my penis removed as I had a vasectomy 8 years ago so my kids are done !

The last procedure I had done was the the transgender reassignment surgery. 

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Yes I know but she has not seen me with out a shirt on in years 

and I know where your coming from on this subject as deserves the truth 

and I guess I would tell her if she asks but she won’t 

 

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Just now, Daisy Mae said:

The last procedure I had done was the the transgender reassignment surgery. 

And what did that intale ?

I shaved  my chest recently too but after I read it’s better to wax or have lazer 

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Just now, Ade6589 said:

Yes I know but she has not seen me with out a shirt on in years 

and I know where your coming from on this subject as deserves the truth 

and I guess I would tell her if she asks but she won’t 

 

Why do you think she wouldn't say anything? Do you think she already knows you are taking hormones to change your body? Do you think she is just waiting for you to tell her?

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No she knows nothing I keep them locked up safe so she won’t see them 

she knows from when we met that I had small boobs but excepted them but I always hide from her as I wasunt proud of them covered in hair 

I haven’t had sex with her in 5 years eithier 

I know she’s having sex 

 

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