Good morning All. Coffees on.

[JustineM]

Debuting my new wig today for my therapy appointment . Looks pretty good once I figured out the right orientation lol. And it’s now open enrollment for my work so I will be getting new insurance that should cover trans healthcare. Crossing my fingers that I will be able to start on the path to HRT soon. 
 

I spoke with my boss and one of my supervisors in the last few days about being trans. Both have been very supportive. My boss’s first comment was “I bet you feel a lot better now that you’ve said it”  It’s been an amazing couple of weeks for me. Still feeling awesome from my family visit plus the boss acceptance. Hope everyone has a fabulous day

[AmberM]

@Abi That is awesome that you got the courage to sign up for classes. I agree that it would be great to help out other people in the LGBTQ+ Community, and going into counseling is a great way of doing that.

 

@JustineM The new wig looks great, you looks so happy. That is great that you have such a supportive leadership team above you. Hopefully moving forward you will be able to come out with your coworkers and bring that joy that you have out.

[JustineM]

@QuestioningAmber Thanks, I am happier than I've been in a long time.  I had one co-worker that I was worried about having a very negative reaction from(uber-religious), but well He decided to ignore company policy and backed his vehicle into someone's car.  So... well he won't be an issue.  I feel kinda bad for him because he had worked there for over 15 years.  

[SaraAW]

@Abi That is wonderful. I've gone back twice, thinking about possibly a 3rd time. What a great line of education to pursue too. Hope your plan comes to fruition.

 

@JustineM Lovely new hair. Also, really happy that things are going well with coming out at work. I know for me, my acceptance at work alleviated a huge amount of anxiety I was holding in.

[Mmindy]

3 hours ago, JustineM said:

My boss’s first comment was “I bet you feel a lot better now that you’ve said it”  It’s been an amazing couple of weeks for me. Still feeling awesome from my family visit plus the boss acceptance. Hope everyone has a fabulous day

What a great response. I'm so happy that you're being accepted by management. Your hair looks great too.

 

Hugs,

 

Mindy???

[Heather Shay]

@SaraAWthank you

[Berni]

12 hours ago, QuestioningAmber said:

Up early because I couldn't sleep either. I know I am kind of excited and nervous for my HRT Appointment here in like an hour.

Congratulations on starting HRT. It has been absolutely life changing for me. 

[Berni]

12 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

It just makes my heart melt whenever I hear this.

I know right?! I was floating through the grocery store barely paying attention at all.

[Berni]

12 hours ago, KayC said:

I just REALLY love your STYLE @Berni!  I'm taking notes❣️?

Thankyou so much Kay! Not very lady like, but I love wearing Doc Martins with shorts (and, hopefully, one day soon skirts). Growing up, my favorite cousin was a Tom Boy and I was always in awe of her.

[Berni]

12 hours ago, Shay said:

@Berni love your hair and from your photo I don't see how anyone couldn't be calling you a lady. Your look is so cute.... Ah some day I might have someone call me a lady.

Thankyou @Shay. You are absolutely, without a doubt, a lady to me. Did I read, on a post recently, you are only 3 months HRT? I meant to comment at the time, but was busy.

[Berni]

11 hours ago, Jacqui said:

I'm so happy for you, @Berni!

 

But not surprised.  You look lovely.  Even the way you hold yourself is sweet and proudly feminine.

 

Hugs,

Jacqui

 

Thankyou Jacqui.

 

I remember, growing up, being so self conscious of the way I stood, and gestured and spoke. I felt very feminine, but, as a little boy, was trying so hard to be like the other boys. I remember trying to copy them and, when I caught myself sitting with one knee neatly crossed over the other, I would deliberately move it.

 

Funny, how we really can't escape our true selves.

[Berni]

Thankyou for the kind words @SaraAW

[Berni]

Love the new hair style @JustineM. Can I just say you have beautiful skin. You are glowing in this picture.

[Heather Shay]

@Berni yes just had my 3 month HRT check up today. All systems go.

[JustineM]

3 hours ago, Berni said:

Love the new hair style @JustineM. Can I just say you have beautiful skin. You are glowing in this picture.

I can’t take credit, it was all the makeup lol. But thank you ☺️ 

[Berni]

2 hours ago, Shay said:

@Berni yes just had my 3 month HRT check up today. All systems go.

Awesome news! I hope your levels are everything you wanted. Im amazed you are so new to hrt ... I got the impression that you've been doing this forever - you seem so feminine to me.

[Jani]

Berni I love that "thrown together" look.  You rock it girl!!

 

I just got my laptop back.  I dropped it off for servicing on Monday.  
Jani

[Heather Shay]

@berni you are too kind. I self HRT 5 years ago and have struggled all my life and denied myself. Thank you for saying I appear feminine. Tears are running down my cheeks.

[Ivy]

4 hours ago, Berni said:

I remember, growing up, being so self conscious of the way I stood, and gestured and spoke. I felt very feminine, but, as a little boy, was trying so hard to be like the other boys. I remember trying to copy them and, when I caught myself sitting with one knee neatly crossed over the other, I would deliberately move it.

Me too.  When I went to jr. high it was the first time I had had to change classes - carry books.   I realized I was naturally doing it like the girls.  Of course I made myself change.  I was always afraid my mannerisms were too girlie.  The locker room was terrifying. 

[KendraML]

Getting my hair done tommorrow,wife saw it and agreed on the look on Monday.It was this picture she saw and told her I agreed with her 100%

[Elizabeth Star]

4 hours ago, Berni said:

 

I remember, growing up, being so self conscious of the way I stood, and gestured and spoke. I felt very feminine, but, as a little boy, was trying so hard to be like the other boys. I remember trying to copy them and, when I caught myself sitting with one knee neatly crossed over the other, I would deliberately move it.

 

Funny, how we really can't escape our true selves.

All of this.

 

1 hour ago, Jandi said:

Me too.  When I went to jr. high it was the first time I had had to change classes - carry books.   I realized I was naturally doing it like the girls.  Of course I made myself change.  I was always afraid my mannerisms were too girlie.  The locker room was terrifying. 

And this.

 

And I was so afraid of expressing myself or letting things get to me too much cause "boys don't cry" so I bottled up my feelings. Now I'm just afraid of messing up my makeup.

[Berni]

2 hours ago, Jani said:

Berni I love that "thrown together" look.  You rock it girl!!

 

I just got my laptop back.  I dropped it off for servicing on Monday.  
Jani

Thankyou so much @Jani.

 

Its pretty much the same outfit I've worn every summer for as long as I can remember. Shorts and t-shirt with a dress shirt thrown over the top.

 

Of course, being girls clothes, the shorts are shorter and the shirt is longer ... but same boots! Maybe, all these years I was secretly in drag all these years?

[Berni]

3 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

 Now I'm just afraid of messing up my makeup.

OMG! Yes!

[Jackie C.]

9 hours ago, Jandi said:

Me too.  When I went to jr. high it was the first time I had had to change classes - carry books.   I realized I was naturally doing it like the girls.  Of course I made myself change.  I was always afraid my mannerisms were too girlie.  The locker room was terrifying. 

 

Oh yeah, I remember doing that too. I actually managed to get exempted from gym in junior high and high school because of "asthma". I mean I have asthma, but I let them believe it was a lot worse than it was. I would NOT wear shorts at the time either. I always covered up as much of my body as I possibly could.

It's been so very liberating to let all the mannerisms I forced myself to adopt fall away and just be myself.

 

Hugs!

[Bri2020]

8 hours ago, Berni said:

OMG! Yes!

I've discovered "setting spray". but yes, I'm still always worried whether my mascara has smudged  lol. Oh the changes!