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8 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

Really? My pharmacy has rafts of the stuff. Are there no post-menopausal women in your area that need hormonal supplements? It just seems like a weird statement to me

 I will be doing injections.  He was “No way” on pills which was fine with me, I had a choice of patch or inject.  I chose to inject as I’ve been taught to inject by another physician in a much more sensitive place.

 

im sure they have plenty of E just not injectable  Willow

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1 hour ago, Willow said:

 I will be doing injections.  He was “No way” on pills which was fine with me, I had a choice of patch or inject.  I chose to inject as I’ve been taught to inject by another physician in a much more sensitive place.

 

im sure they have plenty of E just not injectable  Willow

 

Aha! Yes, that would make a difference. My pharmacy carries the patches too but injectables are very much harder to get. Maybe something like mail order would work better for you then. That's what they wanted to do with my biological injectable before my insurance company shut my allergist down.

 

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I saw my endocrinologist today too.

They're switching me to an injectable form of estrogen and adding progesterone. Apparently my levels are really low. I have to go to their office next week to learn how to do the injections but it's what I gotta do. I won't complain about more changes. A growth spurt would also be really nice but I won't hold my breathe for it. OK, maybe a little.

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13 hours ago, Willow said:

I’ve switched from pencil to liquid eyeliner.  That takes a steady hand and a good mirror but today I got it with no erasures.

That stuff is hard to work with. I keep getting it in my eyes.

 

 

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All I use is liquid eyeliner but then I never tried the pencil. I’m definitely not perfect but it is getting easier now.

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On 11/4/2020 at 7:43 AM, KymmieL said:

Girl, this is the fourth week for Discovery season 3. Orville while I have started it. is campy funny.

 

I believe each of us deserve to have a great therapist. I know I do.  I sent a secure message to mine about my letter. Haven't checked yet if she has responded. I just got out of bed and the shower.

 

I am not physically out at work, I am out to the company right now that is all that matters to me. My coworker asked me if I wanted him to use the female pronouns. I told him male is fine for now. I am waiting till I have my shirts saying Kymbrill for that time.

 

@TommieAnne I guess I take my journey with the VA for granted. Once I came out, I started seeing a Gender therapist. about 3 months later my evaluation for being trans. I was scared that they wouldn't see that I was trans. Now I am seeing a voice therapist, and a GYN along with my gender therapist.

 

Kymmie

To be honest, it's not the people in the VA - I've been treated well, patiently and caringly for the most part. It's the mechanism of the bureaucracy that turns very slowly. The VA Endocrinologist retired so my appointment had to be farmed out to a local provider. I waited 10 months for an appointment while they passed forms back and forth, then another 3 months (due to pandemic) to actually have an appointment, then 2 more months to get a prescription filled while more papers, letters and telephone calls were exchanged.

But I am well treated. I have no complaints about my dealings with people.

My breast growth after 2 weeks on HRT surprised me though. I already had sort of "man boobs" although they weren't prominent. And some flab under my arms. Those two areas have merged somewhat so I'm carrying my breasts a little differently. At this rate I will start budding out within a month. (Sheepish Grin)

Hugs to all,

TA

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@ElizabethStarthey want to make certain you know what to do as far as sanitation.  In my case theDoc needed to see me back in three hours to make sure the dose wasn’t too much.

 

the hardest part is getting past the fear of sticking a needle in yourself.  Do you look away or watch when getting a shot?  If you watch then you should be fine if you can’t watch, well once you get over injecting yourself  you will. lol. It’s not wanting to know when but when it’s you, you kind of need to know.

 

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Liquid is difficult to get just right, but looks much better (darker) then pencil.  If had issues with getting it on my eyelid but not in my eye,

I save That pleasure for the mascara brush.

 

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2 hours ago, Willow said:

Liquid is difficult to get just right, but looks much better (darker) then pencil.  If had issues with getting it on my eyelid but not in my eye,

I save That pleasure for the mascara brush.

 

willow

I haven't gone back to eyeliner at all since my first attempts were a disaster.  I'm sticking to mascara for now.  I can't see a thing without my glasses so detail work like eyeliner is beyond me.  I'm going to try one of those magnifying mirror at some point without the glasses to see if that helps.

 

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I decided today to pull myself out of my funk. Between no sleep for a few nights related to the election and other personal challenges I've been a wreck.  I even found myself putting on old mens t-shirt and jeans for my walk this morning which I haven't done in months.  It hit me then that I wasn't going to allow myself to dive down that hole of depression and anxiety again.  

So- on went the makeup, a pretty dress and did my hair for work this morning and I feel better already.  Here's to feeling better about oneself.

What do you do to feel better when life starts getting hard?

Cheers

Bri

 

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1 hour ago, Bri2020 said:

So- on went the makeup, a pretty dress and did my hair for work this morning and I feel better already.  Here's to feeling better about oneself.

What do you do to feel better when life starts getting hard?

Cheers

Looking great @Bri2020Cheers.

 

Have a great weekend,

 

Mindy???

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On 11/3/2020 at 11:25 PM, KymmieL said:

 

Things are going to well. I almost expect something to happen.

 

Kymmie

It certainly seems like positive forward momentum is happening.  I always find the good builds upon itself  and bad does the same so once you start the positive stuff rolling it keeps going. I'm so happy for you.  

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@Bri2020 That looks great! Way to take a step toward feeling better.

 

BTW, I bought this folding light up mirror at Bed, Bath, & Beyond for $20.  It's the one that's "As Seen on TV".  It's actually great.  Never do the eyes without it now.

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@Bri2020i can’t see close up with out my glasses either I use a lighted magnifying mirror. The problem is with just one eye I can’t judge the distance to my eye and mess up.

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I’ve been having pretty good luck with the vanity mirror in my car.  I want to clarify I do not put makeup on while driving. 
 

I have mono vision so when my left eye gets blocked by my hand I can’t see close up.  
 

5 hours ago, Bri2020 said:

What do you do to feel better when life starts getting hard?

Cheers

Lately I find myself here. 

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Bri, Looking good. Ready to kill em at work.

 

I started back up my voice therapy yesterday. It went great. Had my gender therapist appt earlier today. A few tears were shed. A few things to think about too.

 

Things are OK for me. Of course my brain is a warp 8. but however trying to relax.

 

Everyone have a great day.

 

Kymmie

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I learned that a dear friend does NOT have COVID today. If you like, I could fly.

 

Hugs!

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Had a 2-hour "fun" time at the dentist today. Since I am getting new crowns, I decided to ask the question that was brought up here or some other thread before - "is there a difference between feminine and masculine teeth?" After short pause, he explained that the the main difference is really in the curvatures. Masculine teeth tend to be more square, while feminine would be more rounded. And it is truly only matters (visible?) in the front teeth and gets "all the same" when it comes to wisdom teeth.

Of course, I asked for more rounded versions ? Will see how that plays out.

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Just took one tiny little step for mankind and one giant leap into womanhood. Having one extraordinary good hair day.

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Feeling very feminine right now.  My E is ready to pick up.  I am dress with makeup for a zoom group meeting.  Things are pretty good right now.  
 

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2 hours ago, RunValRun said:

Of course, I asked for more rounded versions ? Will see how that plays out.

I'd really like to know how this turns out. I asked my dentist something similar a couple of years ago (I didn't say why, I wasn't out yet). I was told he could only match what was there. Which I don't agree with.  I used to stress grind my teeth in my sleep so they're all extremely, disturbingly even across.

 

 

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2 hours ago, Willow said:

I am dress with makeup for a zoom group meeting.  Things are pretty good right now.  

I do that too. Right now I'm all dressed up with no place to go, because either I got the date wrong, or they cancelled. No big deal, though -- my doggy seems to like my look.

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I am really feeling discouraged. I am struggling with employment. I am not good with going out in public long enough to buy groceries most days. I am really not seeing how I am going to go to a job that will expect me to be engaged or interactive. It's just been getting worse since covid but I was already getting very distant with close up social surroundings for some time. Therapy isn't helping at all. Every time I speak to a therapist, I feel like I am wasting their time. I'm kinda lost. I keep looking at work from home opportunities but they will not accommodate the schedule I need for my kids. It's hard to even care if I make money when I feel this way. I try meditation and such. I tried just forcing myself out around people and that made me panic even more. Is anyone else having issues like this? I wouldn't even care to go around people in person except my kids if it was up to me. 

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Hey Abi! During this pandemic, there have been days I didn't get dressed, just stayed in my pajamas.

I've been trying to do better about myself and my appearance: washing my face, combing my hair, and so on. And if I haven't dressed by 2 pm, I go ahead and get my clothes on, even if I'm getting back into my pj's by 4:30.

Sometimes if you do the little things consistently it adds up enough to where you can start tackling the big things.

Big Hug,

TA

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@TommieAnne I do all the normal routine stuff. I am constantly doing something around the house. I just can't convince myself to go out in public. The very thought makes me uncomfortable. It stinks. I used to at least fake my way through the day. I don't care to even try that any longer.

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