I Think I'm Starting To Love Again

[Guest Sophie H]

Okay, I am not quite sure if I have posted this in the correct section, but I consider myself a MTF transsexual so I have placed it here.

Some of you may remember a while back how I told you my therapist had told me that I couldn't be transsexual or have gender dysphoria because I was not attracted to men.... Biggest load of crap I have ever heard, anyway for a long time I had not really had any feelings for either male or females. This had been going on for a few years and I put it down to a concoction of prescribed drugs.

At my worst point I was on 12 different tablets (9 of which were for mental health) and then did horrible things to me. My weight doubled, my health got worse, I ended up quite ill on this medication and despite this I still was not taken off of them. I put my non-existent sex drive down to this medication too as this was never a problem before. Anyway, A few weeks ago I decided to stop all my tablets apart from the bare minimum dose of the ones I take for Psychosis.

A few weeks on and my weight is starting to fall off, I feel better all round. But the best thing of it all is; I am starting to get my feelings back, by feelings I mean love, sex drive etc... One thing that did shock me though is this; I have never had much of an interest in Males and have always fancied females, but since getting my feelings back I have noticed that I see to have interests in males as well as females. I mean we had a leak in the ceiling today and we had the plumber round, and he was gorgeous. I can hardly believe I am saying this as I have never felt like this before. I guess I could say that I must be a bisexual transsexual (wow that's a mouthful.)

Anyway that's about it from me for now.

[Sally]

Hang on Sophie,

This may not be the final stop on your sexual orientation, I am or have shifted to only noticing males after a lifetime of ignoring them - your mind when clear of too much medication is able to adjust to the changes that you are accepting in yourself.

It hasn't even required hormonres for me, but I'm not ready to act on this feelings, but that might just be getting closer too - quite a revelation from the old prude.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Sophie H]

Sure Sally I know what you mean, I don't think I really know how I feel to be truthful, but I am not looking for a relationship at all so I am not to worried about it at the moment. Everytime I have ever been in love I have been hurt, so It will be a long time before I go down that road again.

[Guest amie]

Sure Sally I know what you mean, I don't think I really know how I feel to be truthful, but I am not looking for a relationship at all so I am not to worried about it at the moment. Everytime I have ever been in love I have been hurt, so It will be a long time before I go down that road again.

From every relationship where love is even a remote possibility stems a very valuble learning experience.

Degrees vary according to the degree of investment, quite naturally.

But it's always worth it in the end, Sweety. Believe it.

[Guest Sophie H]

From every relationship where love is even a remote possibility stems a very valuble learning experience.

Degrees vary according to the degree of investment, quite naturally.

But it's always worth it in the end, Sweety. Believe it.

I do hope so, I have always had this fear of growing old and lonely and I would hate that.

[Sally]

Don't act out of fear of being alone - act out of love and you will be enriched no matter the outcome.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest 1charlotte1]

My sexual orientation tends to flow and change depending on what I feel at the time, so I have stopped declaring anything about my sexuality! Lol

Hugz, Charlotte

[Guest Soph]

Wow, my sexual orientation seems to follow the exact same patterns as yours is... and your name is Sophie too... and your last name starts with an H... Might I have dissociative identity disorder?

I had always considered myself attracted to females too, until I came out. Then, for a while, I was sort of asexual. Now I'm starting to notice guys (slowly).

As far as what your old therapist said (at least, I hope you dropped her after she spouted that male bovine crap), load of garbage. Everybody knows gender identity and sexual orientation are separate, and either she didn't understand GID or she didn't believe in homosexuality (likely the former).

[Guest karma]

oh girl. I can relate in a way. I feel like im a bicourise transsexual. I have notice guys and I still like girls. I dont know witch I will chose. I hope to stay with my wife. But if I dont i think I will go with guys. I know its hard. hang in there we are all here. HUGGS.

Always Karma