Hi - Mel - New

[melissa_pre_tg_uk]

Hi all. I am new here. I am Mel, early 30's from East England. I am male to female trans, pre hormones, but doing some stuff to feminise myself (hair growth, electrolysis etc). I am out to some people, but not living as Mel yet. I am currently really questioning whether I am trully trans or not, or whether I am just confused, and/or its a weird sexualised internal brain association - I am one confused individual. Got a few different trans friends, but worried about fully opening up and talking about deeply personal stuff. 

 

Anyway, here to talk, seek advice (especially about MtF trans teenage years, puberty and sexualised behaviour). 

 

 

[Jani]

Greetings Melissa!  It is certainly common to question what is happening and what's it all about.  You're in the right place to open up and talk.  As you've no doubt read, if you question your gender you are somewhere on the transgender spectrum.  Cis-gender folks never ask these questions.  

 

I understand the GIC process can be quite long to get into.  But sign up now if you haven't so to get on the list.  As to your questions about puberty, starting HRT will throw your mind and body into the puberty stage.  It can be a fun time yet scary too. (mostly fun!)  I think the general consensus is the sexualized behaviours and fantasies will melt away as this new "life" becomes normalized.  Living as you wish will no longer be taboo.  

 

Anyway, please join in the conversation!  

Cheers, Jani  

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Melissa.  Yes,confusion and doubt are common at the beginning of this journey, but you seem to be doing all the right things.  I know its a long wait, but please be patient and you'll get to where you need to be.  In the meantime, look around the forums, ask questions and participate to the extent you are comfortable.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Melissa,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf ?

[JustineM]

Hi Melissa! Welcome. 

[tracy_j]

Hi Mel, welcome ?

 

As people have said, please don't hesitate to ask if you have questions or are unsure of process here in the Uk. There is information online from the NHS and others and people with experience here.

 

Tracy

[Charlize]

Welcome Mel.

I was much older when i reached out for help in self understanding.  We can help each other.  Have you looked for the help of a therapist.  It certainly helped me.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[Ellora]

On 8/11/2019 at 12:13 PM, melissa_pre_tg_uk said:

here to talk, seek advice

Welcome! You found a great place to talk, seek advice and much much more! Talking and seeking advice from here, a gender therapist, and my doctor has really helped me more that I can really express. A gender therapist and anyone qualified to talk to can really help. LGBTQ groups/ organizations can help too.

In your Journey, you might have some ups and downs, just like the rest of us, so try not to be discouraged during the difficult times. Enjoy the baby steps, each and every one of them. Follow your heart, you have these feelings and thoughts for a reason, let them flow. Just cause you might not understand them, doesn’t mean it’s not real, it’s all a learning process. I wish I could have been able to work through my journey at a younger age, but very happy that I am doing it now. Better late than never. Others might tell you how you you should think, or what to do, only you truly know, and can make your own decisions. 

[melissa_pre_tg_uk]

Apologies for the delay everyone, but thank you for your warm words of welcome.