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Hello everyone! I am very pleased to have found this forum. As a neophyte here, I am still finding my way around this website. I am a senior CD/TG. I feel trapped in my male body and I have a strong desire to fully come out. The fact that I am old is a complicating factor. I have felt this desire to be a woman or girl all my life, but I grew up in an environment that made feel I could never accept this. Despite this shame, I still began experimenting with crossdressing when I was 28. It felt so right to do it that repeated it on and off through the years but always discretely. I carefully hid this behavior from family and friends for years. I bought women's clothing, corsets and makeup and tried to perfect my image. The more I did it, the more I wanted to do it but I always ended up being overcome with shame. I would dispose of my female wardrobe and makeup in the end and try to fit myself into my socially acceptable male role. Now I feel very strongly like I want to come out all the way and live like the woman I feel inside, but I am terrified. Thank you all XXX! Robin68  

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Welcome Robin.  You are still a young woman at heart.  Many here transitioned late in life.  I went full time at 63 and now at 71 i've had wonderful years of being myself.  Being here has helped me. Simply knowing i'm not alone helps as does sharing my journey with others.

Enjoy.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Welcome Robin. Thanks for sharing. If you look around the boards, you will discover people of all ages on their journey to self. I am less than a year off from 40 and have only been walking down this path for less than a year.  
 

I am out to very few and am only slightly less terrified then when I began. I recommend you look for a gender therapist in your area to help. Myself and many others here have found GT to be of great help. 

don't hesitate to ask questions and continue to share. This place is filled with lots of truly amazing people who are always willing to share their experiences. 
 

*hugs*

 

Sara

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Welcome Robin!

You're not old - you're a year younger than me!

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I'll admit trying to sort this out as an allegedly "mature" person is a handful. Just follow your heart, dear. It won't lead you astray.

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Hi Robin68,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

It is terrifying at first. But you're not alone, and courage can be found here.

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf ?

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Hello Robin and welcome.  You're never too old to enjoy life.  I'm glad you've joined us.  

 

Jani

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Thank you all very much! Your kindness and support are everything. I love Alice in Wonderland. (LOL) I will look into locating a gt. here. I wonder if my HMO Kaiser would provide one.

 

Robin

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Hello and welcome Robin!  It's nice to see some new faces here.  You're not alone.  Your story is like mine and many others in so many ways.  Purging was my middle name during my youth and I'm just glad that's done and over with now.  I'm glad you're seeing how important it is to be exactly who you are.  Living for the expectations of others is a difficult way to live.  It's your life...live it to the fullest.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

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