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Wondering if I"m going crazy


Andrea Jean

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My whole life there has been small indications of who I really am now at 63 I'm finding out and accepting it thing is everything seems to come in steps and now kind of scary I use a cover to cover my unnamed part for looks which was fine now finding out that I"m using it all the time now ...6mths on hrt now and now feel that I have a part thats not part of me anymore anyone else seem to have this feeling the more I advance another thing comes up ...Love my new life but don't think I can change the lower part of me cause of how long the surgery is but the more I advance the stronger its getting ....am I going crazy? 

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No crazier than the rest of us have ever been.  Gender dysphoria is with us all our lives, sometimes hidden in a back room of our minds for years and seems to whisper only every now and then, but at some point it comes into our lives roaring like a starved bear or lion and we have to deal with it.  Your actions are not the least bit odd to other Trans people.

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1 hour ago, Andrea Jean said:

the more I advance the stronger its getting ....am I going crazy?

IMHO, No. The drive to become yourself is a very strong...especially in transgender individuals. Society, our family, even our closest friends directly and indirectly influence our self image. In some cases, this doesn’t match our internal self image. You’ve stopped suppressing your true self. You're realizing how important it is to become who your are.

Nineteen months ago, I had no idea where I was headed. My goals have changed several times along the way. I can see now where I want to be and I slowly move step by step in that direction. You may be experiencing something very similar. If you’re working with a therapist, they can help you find your way. It no longer seems crazy but a necessary step to move forward or backward in a few cases.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

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11 hours ago, VickySGV said:

Gender dysphoria is with us all our lives, sometimes hidden in a back room of our minds for years and seems to whisper only every now and then, but at some point it comes into our lives roaring like a starved bear or lion and we have to deal with it. 

OMG, this is so true @VickySGV  So, if that is the case, then all of this is really a natural progression.  Its just going to be different for everybody but as long as don't give up we can make progress ... just at our own pace.

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So thats what is going on with me? I'm kind of O.K. with the cover on but without it seems like I"m in someone elses body and not mine I guess I"ll have to talk to my therapist about this thought this issue was done with but guess it isn't yet I only thought it was cause of no breast and since I was getting them my mind was better but like I said it keeps advancing 

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