Thinking makes you sick

[Guest]

Lately I'm feeling sad. XD just sad. I think, I think again and again. Now that I know I just want to forget. The unease of the mirror even thou it was finally gone,  I can feel euporic for 3 days but dysphoric for weeks, sometimes month. And it just accumulate more more, I explode 1 time, feel better, gender euphoria yay, feeling neutral and dysphoric again and it grows it grows, is it always a cycle cause I am tired, only working makes me think about something else. But I want to rest. The head start to hurt.You need to throw up constantly, is it what I am supposed to feel? , I'de rather forget

I just want to sleep, and put this mask off for a bit, this fake smile, is taking me again, I am back to who I was when I'm arrived, but now worst..

How do you do, to feel better? how? Now every little thing make me wanna cry, a song, a conversation, my mom saying 'm trying to have a style.. I'm tired

I still want to leave I'm not depressive or anything I'm just sad, constantly. I know what it feels like to want to die and it just makes it worst so I know how to push this thoughts away dt worry..

I just want a hug. I guess that's all. Just a hug Just 1. A tiny one. just one

[Abi]

I hope you find yourself focusing on those euphoric moments and finding greater happiness. Hugs. ~Abi~

[Tori M]

Familiar.  Am just getting over a year and a half of sadness.  Still have bursts.  Mine was from losses.  SO MANY losses throughout my life.  Many sad times, interspersed with short good times.  The only things that help me are nature walks, commiserating, or a shoulder to cry on.  A nice hug can help temporarily.  HUGS❣️

[Jackie C.]

Oh I don't know, what you're describing sounds a lot like the waves of depression I used to deal with. Gender dysphoria comes at you in a lot of different ways.

 

You may always have a hug.

 

Hugs!

[Mx.Drago]

You're not alone in sadness. I listen to some good music and sun bathe for a bit. I can't enjoy nature too much cuz I'll blow up physical into itch agony but for short burst I enjoy the quiet out side and vent. Sometimes hearing the sound of rain helps.

[Guest]

thanx guys, I appreciate it.. ( @Mx.Drago )and as for music, I know he is right, but my dad forbid me to listen to it with headset, for my hearing.. careful I didn't say he forbid music, oh no he couldn't, it's just with a headset, now I know it's bad 4 hearing but what I used to do is listen to music, but ev-ry-instrument, everytime I listen a music I focus on a different instrument, that keeps the brain occupied, but without a  headset it's difficult..

 

( @Jackie C.) sincerely idk, I already experienced depression a long time ago and I do my best to avoid it.. thou my mom says that I'm quite the depressed easily type. For now I guess I'm ok, as long as I'm willing to live I think it's ok. If I want to die again, I know I'll have to talk about it, this was really a good thing to do last time.

( @Tori M) (pretty name, in Japanese tori means bird)

I hope you get better, cause a year and a half is long, my granny, is sick as well, mentally she probably will become a "vegetable" soon. so I understand a bit. Thou no one is dead yet.

I hope we all feel better  cause feeling like sht feels like sht.

lot's of love, I hope I'll have my hug soon ^^...

 

[Tori M]

46 minutes ago, Ethan da potato said:

in Japanese tori means bird

 

I did not know that.  How appropriate for a bird fanatic. ☺️

[Guest]

XD oh well

[Dinaki]

You have a big hug from me as well dear Ethan da potato.

[Guest]

thank you ^^