Thought of the day

[Mmindy]

[Heather Shay]

[Jani]

@Heather Shay Realize this is a test!  Like the Knights of olde, we are forced to prove our mettle.  It can be tiring at times.  But I know you have the strength and endurance to last.  

 

Jani

[Heather Shay]

@Jani at lowest point ever.

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[Mmindy]

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[Davie]

"There Is Nothing To Do.

Nothing Is Wrong."
— Mathew Hepburn

[Kasumi63]

When I was at Charlotte Pride last month, there was a couple giving out “Mom Hugs” and “Dad Hugs.” Such a beautiful idea!  I had heard about this group / movement before, but this was my first time to experience it. Actually, I was there in NC to visit my mom. My mom has been pretty good, but she is still struggling to fully accept me. Anyway, the “mom hug” and the message that was handed to me brought tears to my eyes. I now have the card on my kitchen table, so I can read it before I start each day. Here is what it says:

 

”Hello dear,

     Celebrate yourself today and every other day after. You are brilliant and so very loved. I am so proud of you for being who you were born to be, and loving whoever fills your heart. Never be ashamed of who you are. You’ve been through so much to get here, and you bring so much light to this world. Even on the worst days, never forget you aren’t alone and you are loved and supported. Keep moving forward, honey.

 Love always,

Mom”

 

[Mmindy]

[Heather Shay]

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[Jani]

So true!

[Heather Shay]

[StephieGurl]

My thoughts for today (this morning)  is crappy. I am currently on day 8 of opiate withdrawal (morphine ER and hydromorphone). Even with a clonidine patch I still feel an overall malaise. It has only been in place for for a day and half, and I have read it can take up 48 hours to fully start working. Still I am holding on with the support of my partner. And a few other meds that help. Gabapentin was increase by my neurosurgeon, and small script of Xanax from my pysch provider (that seemed odd another controlled substance) the xanax seems to be helping, but the crappy feeling remains. The Gabapentin while not a narcotic does seem to ease some of the symptoms and definitely lets me sleep. My pain docs washed their hands of me after several message exchanges. That trash actually blamed me even after I said I take responsibility and did not want anymore dope. The last straw was if you needed anything else go to the emergency room after I explicitly said I could not as I need to be around to exist my partner (female). The blaming and shaming seems unethical at the very least. How is that supposed to help in person's efforts. The refusal to deal with me seems like neglect and/or poor medical practice. I don't remember signing anything about dismissal it i didn't they would than be open to a malpractice suit. Thanks for letting me spout off a bit.

[Colleen Henderson]

17 minutes ago, StephieGurl said:

The Gabapentin while not a narcotic does seem to ease some of the symptoms and definitely lets me sleep. 

 

I keep a supply of it on hand because of a shingles outbreak I had on my face in November. As you may know, shingles causes the nerves to go haywire, sending random bursts of pain in all directions. The effect subsides on its own over time, but it can still disrupt your life as it's winding down. And gabapentin worked like a charm to neutralize that nerve activity. I'm glad it's giving you some relief as well.

[Heather Shay]

[StephieGurl]

My thought for now is yuck I have woken up at 2:30 and can't get back to sleep. I am sorry if these thoughts are supposed to be positive, but it is honest. One silver lining is I can write.

[Heather Shay]

@StephieGurl - I relate - I awoke at 1:30 and no sleep for this weary soul. Hugs.