Hello all!

[RayisaGrl]

Hi all, I'm Rey , 54 years old  and i have had gender dysphoria since around age 5. I was raised in a Catholic household and attended Catholic schools through high school and had constant shame and guilt about myself for a long time. I did the usual activities.Binge and purges of makeup ,clothes and wigs. Deny to everybody my gender issues. Join the military. Still wanting to go the route of transitioning with hormones and FFS but unable to due to resources and military ( under don't ask don't tell and discharge for transgender at the time.Surely would have lost security clearance.) Married, had a chld , divoced and finally took a Paramedic course of study and began HRT (Premarin and Spiro at the time- -what the heck-!!!!!?!?!?) 

Stopped transition after difficulties on job and with extended family and custody. Remarried to the love of my life who knew i was on hormones etc but had an irresponsible psych doctor say i was bipolar and wasn't really transgender. 

So three kids later with constant repressing and denying my true self-three amazing and wonderful kids and a wife iadore I finally disclosed tha i've been feeling all along.

WE ran the gamut of emotions-especially my poor wife. Hurt, angry, feeling lied to etc. It has been a difficult couple months but here we are, still ogether, some fear of the future but we are going to go through the local Genderservices at a nearby hospital and i have a fantastic,understanding, compassionate Primary care providr whoi spoke to about HRT and meds in past and her referred me to gender clinic endocrinologist but when he found out i had to wait until March 2021 for his outstanding , highly regarded endo, he offered to put me on HRT. Having been a paramdic and with my wife an ER Nurse, he was also comfortable to prescribe injections over pills.

I didn' t want to be running around with estradiol in my mouth melting and dealing with 6,13 and 15 year olds.LOL. Anywhere, here i go. Started anti-androgens yesterday and will start injection weekly of estradiol Saturday.

I hope to meet many new friends here!

Edited December 17, 2020 by Carolyn Marie
Deleted dosage reference, per site rules.

[Mmindy]

Welcome to TransPulseForums @ReyArrivesL8

You're among like minded and experienced people here. It's good to hear that you're out to your wife, and she's willing to support you as you transition. Thank you for your service and you'll find there's a bunch of Veterans here as well as a military service VA specific section.

 

Hugs, (masked)

 

Mindy???

[Susan R]

2 hours ago, ReyArrivesL8 said:

I hope to meet many new friends here!

Congratulations Rey on the recent turn of events and starting down the path of transition. We share many similar experiences and had a very similar past. Many of us do. I’m still always surprised when I start reading an intro that sounds so familiar to me. So many of us here have a common theme that brings us here together to share a part of our lives that most don’t even want to know about. You’ll soon see that we’re all here for you, routing for you and would enjoy any opportunity of friendship should you want that. Thank you for reaching out today. Enjoy the upcoming changes and my best to you!

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

[Audrey]

Welcome @ReyArrivesL8! I'm happy you've joined the community and I'm confident you'll find the support you're seeking as you begin your transition. I look forward to getting to know you. I relate to the experience of enying of my true self experience all too well, and I recently began my own transition just this year.

Thank you also for your service to our country.

 

Love,

~Audrey.

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Rey.  Hmmm, I was wondering if you are a Star Wars devotee, given the name.  Anyway, congrats on starting your journey to womanhood!  I hope that your wife does come around to full support, but often it does take some time.  My own wife took about a year before she was really OK with it.  Please let us know how we can help out.  We'll be here to answer all your questions.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[Ivy]

Welcome Rey.

[Vanessa Michelle]

Welcome @ReyArrivesL8! We are so glad to have you here and be a part of your journey!! I hope you feel welcome. Thanks for sharing your story with us as well! ❤️

[RayisaGrl]

On 12/17/2020 at 1:53 PM, Audrey said:

Welcome @ReyArrivesL8! I'm happy you've joined the community and I'm confident you'll find the support you're seeking as you begin your transition. I look forward to getting to know you. I relate to the experience of enying of my true self experience all too well, and I recently began my own transition just this year.

Thank you also for your service to our country.

 

Love,

~Audrey.

Thank YOu!!!

 

[RayisaGrl]

On 12/17/2020 at 2:52 PM, Carolyn Marie said:

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Rey.  Hmmm, I was wondering if you are a Star Wars devotee, given the name.  Anyway, congrats on starting your journey to womanhood!  I hope that your wife does come around to full support, but often it does take some time.  My own wife took about a year before she was really OK with it.  Please let us know how we can help out.  We'll be here to answer all your questions.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

Yes, i'm a total Star Wars nerd LOL

[Vanessa Michelle]

6 hours ago, ReyArrivesL8 said:

Yes, i'm a total Star Wars nerd LOL

Yay!!! Star Wars is the best!