Emotions sure are funny.

[Red_Lauren.]

In the last week I expericed crying from joy. Then for the the first time. I cried because of my mom. Two things that never made me cry. 

 

As I was getting my nails done today. My nail lady was asking about family, and she asked about my parents. Usually talking about my dad would trigger me. Even as a male. As he died when I was 18, and never was able to grive, bit it was my dead beat mom this time. 

 

I told her she's some where in Chicago, and I have only seen her like 3 times in 25 years. Because she ran out on me, and my brothers. When I was 10. For some reason that really upset me. I will say this. I'm civil with her to a degree, but she means nothing to me. She has had 25 years to repair our relationship, and she's still at 60. Screwing it up, and that's all I'll say about her. 

[Susan R]

@Red_Lauren.

Crying can be so therapeutic and healing. I’m sorry to hear about your struggles with your relationship with your Mom. I hope you can find comfort elsewhere.?

 

*HUGS*

Susan R?

[Red_Lauren.]

I have had closer on what she did for a long time now, but it had to be the hormones causing me the issue today. Either way, I'm glad she's not part of my life, and I know the day is coming. When she will come a knocking looking for a place to stay, and my brothers, and I get to turn our backs on her then.