Kathy intro

[Kathy_Rose]

Hi folks!  I’m a 48yo trans-girl.  I went full time femme about 2 years ago.

I’ve been on HRT for about a year and a half.  It has been the greatest thing that ever happened to me.   I’m a new person.

 

Thanks for letting me join!

[tracy_j]

Hi Kathy_Rose,

 

Welcome to the forum

 

Please don't hesitate to read, ask questions and join in as you feel. We have a very friendly crowd.

 

Tracy

[Jackie C.]

Salutations @Kathy_Rose! Welcome!

 

When you feel ready (no pressure) tell us a little something about yourself. We're all friends here. Just don't make us an accessory to anything. ?

 

We're glad you're here!

 

Hugs!

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Kathy_Rose,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

[Ivy]

Welcome Kathy_Rose

[Susan R]

13 hours ago, Kathy_Rose said:

It has been the greatest thing that ever happened to me.   I’m a new person.

Hi @Kathy_Rose, It’s nice to have you here with us. I have to agree with you on your quote. I feel the same thing about my decision to transition too. I’m hoping the others in your life are accepting of this new you. You can be sure that we are a very accepting group and you’ll likely find many here who share a similar yet unique story to yours. Being into your medical transition 18 months, you’re probably enjoying many of the wonderful changes you’ve hoped for from the beginning.  I and others here would really enjoy reading more about you, your changes and maybe how you got to this point in your transition but if you feel comfortable sharing it with us. Thank you for your introduction and telling us a bit about yourself today.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

[Kathy_Rose]

Thanks everyone for the warm welcome!

 

Gosh, there’s so much, but so little of it different from most people.   I started experimenting with women’s clothing before I started school.  I was always very effeminate, the only trans-girl with 5 older sisters.  Dad kept trying for that boy.  I hate being petty, but it thrills me to death that he never got one.

 

I’ve gone through 2 purges, both total and complete.  Obviously I had no idea what I really was, but at 19, I told my mother the truth about me and she accepted me completely.   We lost our house to a fire shortly after and when we went to rebuild our wardrobes, she let me pick out girl clothes too.

 

I was married for 14 years to an amazing woman.  Our split had nothing to do with me being trans and 6 years later she is still my best friend.

 

I spent a lot of my 20s and 30s trying to be more masculine.  I managed to get my voice a little deeper and my mannerisms more like a man.  Now I really regret that.   It’s been hard getting back to what I used to be.  Learning to relax and be natural.

 

i had a major break down in 2014.  Partly due to the divorce.  Mostly because, not only had I been pretending to be a man, I had been pretending to be outgoing and to have normal social skills.

 

In 2016 I started dressing femme off and on again.  The woman I was with was “kind of” supportive.   When her son announced that he was trans ftm, it’s like a switch was flipped.  I realized the truth.  I didn’t do much transitioning then.  She eventually broke up with me due to the severity of my depression.  

 

I soon met my roommate Andover of my best friends.  She really pushed me.  Made it feel ok to transition at full speed.  She’s taught me so much.

 

Since going on HRT I’ve experienced a significant reduction in body hair, breast growth (a B and a C).  Softer, smoother skin, complete elimination of acne, and total mastery of my sex drive!  That’s the best part.  Not feeling like there’s an animal inside you, constantly clawing to get out, but still feeling the passion when I want to.  I’m also so much more patient, understanding, and compassionate.

 

I’ve become terrified of the thought of one day not having access to Spiro. Having that T flood back into my system and losing who I am now.  I want the old me to stay dead forever.

[Jackie C.]

1 hour ago, Kathy_Rose said:

ve become terrified of the thought of one day not having access to Spiro. Having that T flood back into my system and losing who I am now.  I want the old me to stay dead forever.

 

OMG right? When I went off my meds for surgery my biggest fear was that I'd start to "go back" to the person I used to be. Fortunately it didn't happen but it made me crazy for about four weeks.

 

Not to mention the physical reaction, I would have been mortified if "the Loch Ness Monster came up for air" during one of my gym sessions. Thank the Goddess for good gaff panties.

 

Hugs!

[KathyLauren]

Hi, @Kathy_Rose.   Welcome from another Kathy.

 

I am 66, still married, living full-time for four years, and one year post-op.  My mother always wanted a daughter.  I never got the chance to tell her that she had one.  How lucky for you that your mother was supportive!

 

Regards,

Kathy

[Susan R]

4 hours ago, Kathy_Rose said:

but at 19, I told my mother the truth about me and she accepted me completely.   We lost our house to a fire shortly after and when we went to rebuild our wardrobes, she let me pick out girl clothes too.

I have to say...your mom was way ahead of her time on the acceptance and affirmation front. What a wonderful experience! I’m curious if your mom ever helped you with becoming more yourself maybe like she did with your sisters or was it perhaps your other sisters who helped you in that area? The possibilities in family dynamics seems endless but I was wondering how that worked out for you growing up. I do realize your sisters were all older may have moved out soon after this—starting families of their own. What a resource of information, ideas, and advice they could have or may have provided you. 

Again, please only share what you feel comfortable sharing. Just know, what you do share is all very much appreciated.?

 

Susan R?

[Kathy_Rose]

The fact that mom knew and supported me means the world to me now.  I’m so glad I told her.  At the time, I was still very embarrassed about it and private.  As far as I know, my sisters never knew.  The only advice I had the courage to ask from mom was how to pick out a bra.

 

i rarely see my sisters now, so I didn’t come out to them, just my friends.  I think my sisters would be ok with it, but I’d always have this anxiety about what they or their families were thinking about me.  Plus they are all Republican ?

 

Friends were easier.  You know that if they accept you, it’s because they want to, not just because you’re family.  Everyone accepted me, some with surprisingly little effort.  It hit my ex wife a little harder, but she’s adapting.

 

i recently met an amazing woman with brains that make me weak in the knees.  She asked how my family couldn’t just see that I’m a woman.  My only answer was that maybe they just didn’t want to see it.

[KayC]

Hi @Kathy_Rose!  nice to meet you, and Welcome!

Thank you for sharing your story! specially your experience on HRT.  I have not reached that point yet, but I want to, and if I can experience what you have it makes me even more determined (specially the part about taming the "T" monster).

Looking forward to hearing more from you❣️

[Anna A]

Hello Kathy!

Im Anna from just next door in North Carolina! Much the same story as you! I’m new here so I hope to get to know you soon!
-Anna

[Vanessa Michelle]

@Kathy_RoseWelcome to the group!! So glad to have you here! ❤️