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[okubosakura]

I am from Chicago,IL and I saw transgender pulse website by watching Jackie Rabbit you tube site. I am 51 yr old, male, single and I live with my mom but my dad passed away in 2019 from ammonia. I cross dress as a girl sometimes when I get a chance but my folks disapprove. I found a gender therapist that accept Meridian medicaid insurance and gone 3 sessions so far via telehealth from Elgin, IL. I tried lavender baby shampoo and grew a bit girl's breast but my mom threw the shampoo away. I tried girl's black tights and girl's white slip and my mom threw them away. I bought with my own credit card 2 white size 22.5 princess dress, they look like wedding dresses and I put them upstairs 2nd fl closet and my mom did not threw them out. the zipper in back are hard to reach but I am worried getting stuck. I gone out once to Howard brown health center in Chicago and used the bathroom to put away by boy clothes in my bag and put on a adult underwear pull up for women and a girl dress and waited in the waiting room and no one commented me and went to see a doctor and when finished I went back to the washroom to change back. I felt comfortable wearing girl clothes.

[Jackie C.]

Salutations @okubosakura and welcome to TransGenderPulse! We're glad you're here!

 

One of my best friends from middle school cross-dressed all the time I've known them. Of course they plundered their sister and mother's closets. They had a stay-at-home mom so I'm kind of in awe of how fast they can change.

 

A word of warning though: Do not mess with herbals. Best case is that they don't work. Worst case is that they destroy your health. They are not to be trifled with.

 

I don't actually own anything with a zipper in the back though, I'm unfortunately tall and have yet to find a dress that's flattering on me so no help there.

 

So yeah, if you're finding cross-dressing a release, by all means pursue it. Perhaps talk the matter over with your therapist. If a part of you needs expressing, it's generally healthier to express it. As they say, suppressing leads to stunting. Stunting leads to twisting. Twisting leads to the Dark Side!

 

Hugs!

[Timber Wolf]

Hi okubosakura,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

[Vanessa Michelle]

@okubosakurawelcome to the group!!! It's always nice to see another from IL as well! I am west of you by an hour and a half and in my upper 40's. I too am here thanks to @jae bearJackie and her YT channel. So thankful for her. Thanks for sharing your story with us and I hope you feel at home here! ❤️

[okubosakura]

Hi again. I also forgot to mention that I have schizophrenia and currently taking medication and currently seeing a therapist plus seeing a gender therapist. Is there a connection for people who have schizophrenia / bipolar disorder and cross dressing / gender dysphoria?

[Jackie C.]

We frequently develop other issues while we're repressing our true selves. Though it's often depression (that was mine) or anxiety, it can manifest as a wide array of mental disorders. Repression leads to stunting. Stunting leads to twisting. Twisting leads to the Dark Side.

 

Hugs!

[VickySGV]

1 hour ago, okubosakura said:

Is there a connection for people who have schizophrenia / bipolar disorder and cross dressing / gender dysphoria?

 

I have not heard of one causing the other if that is what you are asking.  I have several Trans friends who were fully diagnosed with Gender Identity issues, who were Bipolar before GD and who are still having to work on the BP which is still present, but gender is one less weight in the depressive cycle now.