Auroras's GCS Surgery

[Aurora]

I am still so much happier and confident.  I do not regret my decision at all.  This is hands down what I have been looking forward to and feeling better

[Heather Shay]

 

I have a confession to make. I  really wish you the best as you successfully complete your surgery but I haven't been adding comments to this thread until last night because I felt jealous and have some inner resentment as I do for Susan R and I confessed there as well. 

 

I have told my therapist as much as I am happy for both of you - I couldn't read the comments in those two threads - it hurt too much. BUT - this time as I told my current therapist who is the best I've ever worked with - I am determined to remove all those things that I've repressed or blocked or AVOIDED. She teaches the Acceptance Commitment Therapy format - in which you don't try to get rid of pain - the more you try to avoid it - the mosre it is enhanced. You need to face your pain, recognize it, and not let it dominate you but rather live with it and give it room to JUST BE THERE and again not dominate you. I decided that I need to stop AVOIDANCE and FACE MY FEAR. 

 

And so I am here - to say - thank you Aurora - you are helping me more than you know and I wish you so much joy in your  completion surgery as I know full well you've worked so hard over the years and been to hell and back. And I hope you will be there for me when I can finally meet my goal. I am 9+ months on HRT, have therapists and medical HRT person ready to write letters and a surgeon I have been working with and hope I can complete before year's end.

 

I will read these comments going forward to defuse my fears. Thank You for hanging in there for me.

 

[Aurora]

1 hour ago, Shay said:

 

I have a confession to make. I  really wish you the best as you successfully complete your surgery but I haven't been adding comments to this thread until last night because I felt jealous and have some inner resentment as I do for Susan R and I confessed there as well. 

 

I have told my therapist as much as I am happy for both of you - I couldn't read the comments in those two threads - it hurt too much. BUT - this time as I told my current therapist who is the best I've ever worked with - I am determined to remove all those things that I've repressed or blocked or AVOIDED. She teaches the Acceptance Commitment Therapy format - in which you don't try to get rid of pain - the more you try to avoid it - the mosre it is enhanced. You need to face your pain, recognize it, and not let it dominate you but rather live with it and give it room to JUST BE THERE and again not dominate you. I decided that I need to stop AVOIDANCE and FACE MY FEAR. 

 

And so I am here - to say - thank you Aurora - you are helping me more than you know and I wish you so much joy in your  completion surgery as I know full well you've worked so hard over the years and been to hell and back. And I hope you will be there for me when I can finally meet my goal. I am 9+ months on HRT, have therapists and medical HRT person ready to write letters and a surgeon I have been working with and hope I can complete before year's end.

 

I will read these comments going forward to defuse my fears. Thank You for hanging in there for me.

 

I was in your shoes and feeling jealous from others getting their surgery and feeling like I will never get mine.  I am 3yr 5mo on hormones and this is the only surgery I have had so far 

 

I know

[Maddee]

Congratulations Aurora!

Thank you for sharing.

Healing hugs girl.

[Heather Shay]

@Aurora I am so happy and proud of you - YOU DID NOT GIVE UP OR GIVE IN. 

[Mmindy]

17 hours ago, Aurora said:

I have NO regrets.  I am so much happier and confident.  I am glad that I went through my surgery and had it.

Good morning  Aurora,

 

Have a great day.

[Aurora]

Today is the day that the nurses will get me up out of bed.  The extra weight on me being 238 has helped recovery with keeping my strength up.  I have very little pain.  My pain scale went up to a max 5.  I am eating normal, not having any nausea or vomiting.  I am doing good and average for after surgery.

[Jackie C.]

23 hours ago, Aurora said:

Another picture of myself.  This time when I am more awake.  I have NO regrets.  I am so much happier and confident.  I am glad that I went through my surgery and had it.

 

You look radiant. Congratulations again!

 

Hugs!

[rainflower]

Congrats on your surgery Aurora, I'm very happy for you. I hope you have a nice restful recovery.

[Kylie]

@AuroraCongrats! I did my actual vaginoplasty out patient so I didn’t stay in the hospital, which was nice! I am a Nurse, I also had my best friends (one is a nurse and an MD) with me at the hotel while I recovered, plus Dr DeLeon and Teresa from Crane Center kept an eye on me. 
 

I am going to be at the Crane Center on April 26th at 12 pm for my pre-op and surgery at Westlake the 27th for my revision. I developed an unfortunate ring scar contracture which has made dilating painful and near impossible for the past few months. So having that dealt with finally so I can get back to normal.  
 

So thankful you’re healing well!

[Heather Shay]

@Kylie  I hope your revision gives you relief and I wonder how is Mattie your cat doing.

 

@Aurora I hope day is getting better and you are doing all you need to do to heal your brand new beautiful body.

[Aurora]

2 hours ago, Kylie said:

@AuroraCongrats! I did my actual vaginoplasty out patient so I didn’t stay in the hospital, which was nice! I am a Nurse, I also had my best friends (one is a nurse and an MD) with me at the hotel while I recovered, plus Dr DeLeon and Teresa from Crane Center kept an eye on me. 
 

I am going to be at the Crane Center on April 26th at 12 pm for my pre-op and surgery at Westlake the 27th for my revision. I developed an unfortunate ring scar contracture which has made dilating painful and near impossible for the past few months. So having that dealt with finally so I can get back to normal.  
 

So thankful you’re healing well!

Hello

 

April 26th at 12pm noon is my first post-op with Dr. DeLeon to remove my packing and pee bag with everything.  Hope we can run into each other on the 26th.

 

Dr. DeLeon is so wonderful, she has been checking in on me.  Today on Friday when she came to check on me, I was standing up out of bed which is a good sign with how I want to walk

 

Hope I can meet up on Monday 26th

[Kylie]

@Shay he is doing great! He is probably looking forward to his week with my best friend while I’m in Texas again. Lord knows I’m going to miss him like crazy! 
 

@AuroraHow awesome! We will be in office the same day and time! I’m super excited to get this over with. 

[Aurora]

1 hour ago, Kylie said:

@Shay he is doing great! He is probably looking forward to his week with my best friend while I’m in Texas again. Lord knows I’m going to miss him like crazy! 
 

@AuroraHow awesome! We will be in office the same day and time! I’m super excited to get this over with. 

Yeah.  I am so happy to get my bottom area corrected and I am looking forward to getting my 4 new best friends.  I told Dr. DeLeon that they are my best friends and she laughed and is going to start calling them that.  

 

I get sprung out of the hospital today.  I am following Dr. DeLeon recommendation on walking.

[Heather Shay]

@Aurora It sounds like Kylie and Dr. DeLeon have helped so much and that must bring you tears of joy. Congratulations on being released from the hospital today and can't wait to hear about your new body walking and the joy I'm sure it will bring (any pain is secondary).

[Mmindy]

1 hour ago, Aurora said:

get sprung out of the hospital today.  I am following Dr. DeLeon recommendation on walking.

Good morning Aurora,

 

I'm so happy for you.

 

hugs,

[Aurora]

So today Saturday, I had my first BM.  3 days after surgery and I had a sensation that I needed to go.  So I tried sitting on the toilet nice and easy which felt weird with a catheter a bandages.  But sure enough, it just flowed out.  Came out natural and was runny.  Did not hurt.  I just listened to my body and it needed to go so I went.  Looks like I don't need stool softener after all since my body wants to go.

[Heather Shay]

I had an issue like that many moons ago after a surgery (not the surgery I want to have but same area) and that small victory is so important. Congratulations @Aurora you are doing great.

[CD Rachel]

@Aurora Congratulations on the surgery and recovery. Sending my thoughts and prayers for your continued recovery.  May all of your dreams come true.

 

Rachel

[Aurora]

Just have to say that I am doing really good on my recovery.  I just had my first BM after surgery and all I did was just listen to my body when I was having the sensation on wanting to go.  So I just went and sat down and it flowed out of me with no pain.  It came out runny, but I can say that I had a BM with no pain.

 

I had to get more feminine pads  and all I have to say is WTH.  They are so expensive for something that both CIS and Trans women need for feminine hygiene.  I am told that I will experience some bleeding still which I do and the pads are there to help me out.  Why something that our bodies normally go through have to pay expensive prices to keep us clean.

 

Following doctor's orders with my recovery and taking my meds and eating and walking has been helping my recovery.

 

Going nice and slow and easy.  

[Jackie C.]

1 hour ago, Aurora said:

I had to get more feminine pads  and all I have to say is WTH.  They are so expensive for something that both CIS and Trans women need for feminine hygiene.  I am told that I will experience some bleeding still which I do and the pads are there to help me out.  Why something that our bodies normally go through have to pay expensive prices to keep us clean.

 

Behold the girl tax! The patriarchy sucks. If men needed them, there'd be someone who delivered them warm to your door.

 

Hugs!

[Susan R]

7 hours ago, Aurora said:

I am doing really good on my recovery.

Congrats on your surgery, Aurora. It sounds like things are going very well and I hope for your continued recovery to go just as smoothly.

 

Best Wishes,

Susan R?

[Aurora]

So my new hurdle that I am worried about is the ability to go to the bathroom on my own once the catheter comes out.  Also being able to hold it when I need to as well.  For right now I am used to peeing in my bag and just emptying my bag.  After Monday, I am going to have to learn how to hold when I need to hold and when I can go and just pee.  This is what is making me worry right now

[Heather Shay]

You will do just fine. Many of you sisters here know what you are going through and will remember their time going this and they also know it is something they worried about but also came through. Someday when I go through remember to remind me that it really wasn't as bad as you thought it would be.

Hugs

[Jackie C.]

2 hours ago, Aurora said:

So my new hurdle that I am worried about is the ability to go to the bathroom on my own once the catheter comes out.  Also being able to hold it when I need to as well.  For right now I am used to peeing in my bag and just emptying my bag.  After Monday, I am going to have to learn how to hold when I need to hold and when I can go and just pee.  This is what is making me worry right now

 

That part was actually pretty easy. You're going to need to figure out how to not make a mess when you go for a while, but bladder control? Piece of cake. No wait, that would be a urinal cake. None of that. Easy as pie?

 

Hugs!