So Uncomfortable With My Body Pls Help.

[Vipp]

Hi everyone, 

 

Ever since I was young, I have had Gender Dysphoria, from putting a towel on my head, painting my nails, wearing makeup, etc. During middle school, I was always called out for acting like a girl, but I wasn't too dysphoric. However, in High School, I began to feel very uncomfortable with expressing myself in my body, I always imagined myself as a girl and I constantly tried to become celibate since masturbation made me really Dysphoric. I'm 18 right now, and the urge to masturbate is persists always, I can't say that I'm not going to do it, when later down the line I'm sure I will. I really tried to get comfortable about it, but I just can't stop doing it. The testosterone in my body just wants to fully express itself when I masturbate, causing my body to feel really masculine, and my mind immediately becomes attracted to it. I'm really skinny, but I still get so uncomfortable to even think of myself that way. For trans-women does estrogen prevent the body from reacting like that, instead do u masturbate simple in a feminine manner instead of a masculine kind?

 

Thank you to any who can help ❤️

[Jackie C.]

Let me share a tip from another trans friend: It's stress relief. You don't have to like it, it just calms you down. 

 

I can't talk about technique here because we're a family friendly site, but do whatever makes you the least dysphoric or just do it and get it out of the way. Once you've taken care of things, it'll leave you alone for a minute and you can get on with your life.

 

Hugs!

[Vipp]

5 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

Let me share a tip from another trans friend: It's stress relief. You don't have to like it, it just calms you down. 

 

I can't talk about technique here because we're a family friendly site, but do whatever makes you the least dysphoric or just do it and get it out of the way. Once you've taken care of things, it'll leave you alone for a minute and you can get on with your life.

 

Hugs!

Thank you for your reply ❤️. I guess I rlly am considering transitioning because I just want to be comfortable in my body so that I can move on and live my life. I don’t have any friends, I’m isolated from the world and I just want to start living. My mind keeps replaying images of dysphoria during masturbation, or when I’m socializing, etc, and it just makes me so anxious and depressed. I’m constantly trying to battle the mind but it feels like I’m losing all the time. Thank you though❤️❤️

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Vipp.  Your urge to pleasure yourself is a symptom as well as a relief, as @Jackie C.said.  If you have the resources and opportunity, I urge you to seek out a gender therapist to talk over these feelings and get some direction.  If it is true that you desire to be a woman, then you should pursue that goal.  But it isn't easy, there are many obstacles and it is life changing.  So go forward with all the information you can get.  We can certainly help with the information part of things.  Ask whatever you like, while keeping within our Community Rules.  I wish you luck.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[Jackie C.]

32 minutes ago, Vipp said:

Thank you for your reply ❤️. I guess I rlly am considering transitioning because I just want to be comfortable in my body so that I can move on and live my life.

 

You're welcome and I get that. The whole point of this exercise is becoming comfortable in your own skin.

 

I will say that there ARE techniques that might make you feel better, but again, I can't talk about them because family friendly. The internet is your friend though, they're out there.

 

Hugs!

[Vipp]

8 hours ago, Carolyn Marie said:

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Vipp.  Your urge to pleasure yourself is a symptom as well as a relief, as @Jackie C.said.  If you have the resources and opportunity, I urge you to seek out a gender therapist to talk over these feelings and get some direction.  If it is true that you desire to be a woman, then you should pursue that goal.  But it isn't easy, there are many obstacles and it is life changing.  So go forward with all the information you can get.  We can certainly help with the information part of things.  Ask whatever you like, while keeping within our Community Rules.  I wish you luck.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

Thank you Carolyn. I really do think I need to see someone about how I have been feeling. I feel depressed at times, powerless, and really anxious. The thought of transitioning also scares me, I don't want to lose my parents, or what I have right now and I don't want to make a mistake I will regret. Do you have any recommendations on people I could talk to? Thank you again ❤️

[Carolyn Marie]

3 hours ago, Vipp said:

TDo you have any recommendations on people I could talk to? Thank you again ❤️

 

We have a state-by-state resource locator Here.  It isn't all-encompassing but its a good place to start.  Local LGBT centers may also have recommendations for you.

 

Carolyn Marie

[Ivy]

19 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

will say that there ARE techniques that might make you feel better, but again, I can't talk about them because family friendly.

Yeah.