Discussion with wife.

[Mirrabooka]

I am AMAB, non-dysphoric, innately girly and a lingerie CD, with an accepting if not understanding wife. I have embraced my femininity over the past year or so and have grown my hair and nails to acknowledge my inner woman. I have also moved towards more unisex clothing.

 

I am not looking to transition, but I am doing nothing to stop my natural progression towards further femininity. Long story, but just now my wife and I were discussing a news topic which eventually led to the issue of my recent mannerisms and appearance. She asked, "You're not changing sex, are you?" To which I immediately replied, "No!"

 

The thing is, what I said was superficially true, I'm not looking to wholly or even socially transition, but I felt weak for not immediately admitting that I consider myself nowadays to be a woman in a man's body (and happy to stay that way). I told her for the first time the other night, in an attempt to initiate a discussion about my feelings, that instead of being a guy in touch with his feminine side, I have fallen in love with my inner woman - and I barely got acknowledgement. At least today, she initiated the discussion, but I still failed to drive home the point about who I really am. 

 

 

 

[Dillon]

It sounds like a good start. I think this kind of discussion sometimes takes a few conversations. I hope it goes well for both of you. 

[Mirrabooka]

Thank you Dillon, that was lovely!

 

I know what you say is true. There's been so many false starts to discussions that I've wanted to have, but little by little, I think that I'm slowly gaining traction.

 

I am forever thankful for what I do have - acceptance from my wife on the things that I do now; many people don't. I am also very aware of what isn't acceptable in her eyes. I just wish that I could find a way to fully engage her in a deep discussion without feeling that I'm overdoing my attempts. I feel like I'm pestering her every time I try.