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What am I living for?


Penrose-Pauling

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I'm not enjoying life, not really. 

I get up, I live, but I don’t take part in it. 

I try, I truly do. 

But it's for not. 

I work at it like a painting, 

But the work never resembles joy. 

 

They say it can be helped, I'm sure it can. 

But fully? never. 

Each moment of every day it never goes, 

That thing is clinging to me like it may die itself. 

You don’t get it really, do you? 

 

Not everyone does, and when they do, 

It's just a line. 

 that simple phrase that anyone can say to make themselves feel better. 

But it doesn’t work for me, no sir. 

I try, I talk, I want to feel better. 

For-Not.

 

Can you imagine that? 

Trying to solve a problem with no solution? 

A waste of time, a waste of life. 

Close your mouth for a moment and understand. 

Understand what I tell the morning each waking breath. 

Morning, what am I living for? 

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