Just got done with my first therapist meeting

[Maisy]

At first I wasn’t right planning on opening up about my Gender dysphoria on my first talk with them, it was the only way I can get myself to go do it, without freaking out. So I plan on discussed my history with social issues and my autism. 

 

I did that plan, But at some point, I feel like I needed talk about my GD. I knew it wasn’t gonna go away, by not talking about it and would just have to wait another week. I didn’t want that, so I tried to talk about it, I was so scared and embarrassed to open up, it must have took me at least 8 try’s to say “I wanted to be a girl when I was a child” 

 

That was the first time in my life, I ever told anyone that in the real world with my face. Strangely enough, I calm down and was able to open up more after that. Explaining my feelings throughout the years and how I related to my history, I spoke about earlier. The therapist Handled the situation quite well, thankfully, they had said they work with other transgender people. I glad I found them, I was very worried about finding a good therapist on this subject.

 

After we talk about it for a while, they asked if I want to seek transitioning care. Of course I said yes, and told me I could contact a clinic that handle theses kind of things. I looked them up on the Internet, and apparently they help with lots of thing, like referrals, HRT, and about finding trusted primary care. Never knew such a place exist. But the Crazy thing is, I’m moving in a few months and it’s literally only a couple blocks away from where am going to live soon. 

 

While I wanted to contact right away and see about It, but I decided to wait off until I move out my parents. I was sad about it, but my currently mailing address right now, is at my parents house and if they get any medical mail they WILL open it! That could be bad for me. I prefer to keep this under wraps until I decide to reveal anything to them, Just in case if I change my mind later And get off HRT if it doesn’t work out for me. No need to burn bridges if I don’t need to. Besides, I’m not taking any risks too, I’m sure my family won’t do anything drastic or terrible to me, but better safe than sorry. For now, this is just between me and my therapist.

 

I’m both scared and excited , my mind been flip-flopping over the place, what exactly what to do. I have another meeting Coming up next week, so I guess I can discuss to them about that my feelings so far. And besides I still have a few months before I move. I waited 30 years to do something, a few more months ain’t going to hurt. I did have some jitters after the meeting, but I was feeling pretty good afterwards  and its finally nice to have someone to talk to about it. 

[Charlize]

I am so glad you found the strength to open up and that the therapist is so helpful and understanding.  I remember my own first meeting and the excitement and joy i felt as i considered the journey opening up before me. 

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[MaeBe]

Speaking through our challenges, be they anxiety/depression/gender issues, in a judgement-less space is so very cathartic. I started my therapy journey because of these gender questions, but it hasn't been all about that (just mostly 🤭), but just having the space to talk without it being a burden on loved ones with someone who can ask probing questions without venom is so helpful. Congratulations on beginning therapy and for the courage it took to open up about yourself!

 

💜Mae

[Davie]

2 hours ago, Maisy said:

I did have some jitters after the meeting, but I was feeling pretty good afterwards  and its finally nice to have someone to talk to about it. 

Congrats, @Maisy. Sounds like you've found the right path. Gender Therapy has helped me immensely. Welcome to the "club!"

[Ashley0616]

That was a very big first step and it's wonderful to have someone to talk to and the forums I'm sure help too. You are definitely doing it correctly. No need to rush. Take things slow because once your on hormones for 6 months it's difficult to have any children. That is going to one of the biggest steps in your life if you do decide to go down that road. It only took a month when I finally came out to when I got hormones and I don't regret it at all. I knew exactly what I wanted even if I was doing it all by myself. None of my family members ever call me daughter or sister unfortunately. It's a hard pill to swallow. Maybe you will have better luck than me. I wish you good luck on all your future decisions. I'm neither trying to convince you one way or another. Take care and hope to see more posts from you in the future.  

[KayC]

That's great news, @Maisy!

15 hours ago, Maisy said:

That was the first time in my life, I ever told anyone that in the real world

That was the same for me, and then everything just came pouring out (my poor therapist was scribbling her notes trying to keep up😄)

It sounds you are going to receive great care.  Go at your own pace and as you feel comfortable. 

[Susan R]

16 hours ago, Maisy said:

I’m both scared and excited , my mind been flip-flopping over the place, what exactly what to do. I have another meeting Coming up next week

This was how my first meeting went for me too. It feels good to have someone in your corner who has discussed this and helped others (hopefully). Therapy can be a very powerful tool. My perspectives and goals in life today are very different now with the help of my therapist. I hope they will help you in very similar ways. It does take time and effort but the it’s so worth it if they are good at what they do.

 

My Best,

Susan R🌷

[April Marie]

Good for you, Maisy!!! Breaking through that fear of opening up is such a huge step. I'm so glad you found a therapist who understands you and is helping you move forward. Most of us have had the same fears and concerns as we began the process of understanding our identities. For me, once I opened the door a crack, it all came gushing out...and I felt so relieved just to get all those things I've been carrying for years out into the open.

 

Taking your time and waiting until you're out on your own sounds wise. And, many of us have chosen to take a slow and steady approach to our transition. In the end, you have to determine what is best for you in order to be happy.

 

Congrats, girl!!! You're awesome!!