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Cisco1127

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I just finished the intake forms for an online informed consent clinic through Plume and im both nervous and excited to meet with my provider next week via video chat. I'm worried I will be turned down and cannot get a prescription for a variety of reasons. I was asked so many invasive questions during intake, which I knew would happen. I worried about what I should leave out, how honest I should be, what could be something that would deny me a prescription. I've been fighting with myself for a long time and now that I have opened myself up to hoping for change, I am so scared of having the carrot dangled in my face only to be ripped away. 

 

And a part of me is scared of starting testosterone. I'm even more scared of inaction. Of not at least trying it and seeing how I feel about the changes. If I don't try it, I will never know, and I will be stuck in the loop of questioning whether or not it is right for me until I am filled with regrets for chances not taken rather than opportunities I've pursued.  

 

Has anyone here ever felt fear and apprehension about staring HRT? How did you get over that fear? How do I know in my heart if this is right for me when I am always running through all of the endless possibilities of good and bad results? 

 

 

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This is such an exilerating time for you. All the emotions and a lifetime of wondering. HRT is a big step and you will soon find out its effects for you. I hope all goes well and you love the new you.

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7 hours ago, Cisco1127 said:

And a part of me is scared of starting testosterone. I'm even more scared of inaction. Of not at least trying it and seeing how I feel about the changes. If I don't try it, I will never know, and I will be stuck in the loop of questioning whether or not it is right for me until I am filled with regrets for chances not taken rather than opportunities I've pursued.  

 

Has anyone here ever felt fear and apprehension about staring HRT? How did you get over that fear? How do I know in my heart if this is right for me when I am always running through all of the endless possibilities of good and bad results? 

I am here right this very moment, only in my case with starting E instead of T (maybe we can make some trades, lol)

 

I, too, am scared but also wary of not taking a step to see if this is the path I want to be on... I tend to be a worst-case-scenario person and that hasn't helped. One day at a time...

 

I would say this, my personal advice: don't withhold health information from your docs. Be up front and honest (and confident in who you are). If your doc is a jerk to you, find another doc. I would hate to see you on a worse path because you didn't disclose something important... Best wishes!

 

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2 hours ago, EasyE said:

I am here right this very moment, only in my case with starting E instead of T (maybe we can make some trades, lol)

 

I, too, am scared but also wary of not taking a step to see if this is the path I want to be on... I tend to be a worst-case-scenario person and that hasn't helped. One day at a time...

 

I would say this, my personal advice: don't withhold health information from your docs. Be up front and honest (and confident in who you are). If your doc is a jerk to you, find another doc. I would hate to see you on a worse path because you didn't disclose something important... Best wishes!

 

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I am a "worse-case-scenario" kind of person too. My Brain always goes to the most negative thing that would happen rather than starting with the positives. Good luck on your journey! I'm definitely down with making trades :) lol

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23 minutes ago, Cisco1127 said:

I'm definitely down with making trades :) lol

If only it were that easy... lol ...

 

I lived in AZ awhile back ... beautiful state...

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8 hours ago, EasyE said:

If only it were that easy... lol ...

 

I lived in AZ awhile back ... beautiful state...

It is beautiful but I miss the green life and peace of the Washington wilderness. Everything out here is so brown and tan, and the summers are brutal. When I first arrived I was agoraphobic from how wide open the outdoors were, I'm used to trees and valleys. It was a shock. 

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