Hi all!

[Justine76]

I'm AMAB been experimenting with a more feminine presentation for some time as an adult. At first, I'm not sure I was really conscious of it being a desire to look more feminine. I'd buy male skinny jeans and fitted tees, but that didn't feel quite right so I'd cuff the jeans into capris. Then I added an ankle bracelet, which I liked, but it kind of felt like the limit for an ostensibly cis-male in public and even drew surprise from my wife. So, I moved on to trying more things in private and, somewhat to my own surprise, feel really comfortable and sexy adding some platform heels to my capris and donning a more feminine top and wig; I'm older and don't have much hair of my own anymore ;) Make-up is still difficult but I'm practicing when I can. On the first attempt I just looked like some dude from Motley Crue, which could be fine but not what I'm going for day to day :P

 

Not sure exactly how I got here or where it's going. I've had to search my past a bit to speculate why this would be emerging now, in my 40s. I've always been a more effeminate individual; it just bleeds through somehow. I grew up being called '-awesome person-' or 'fairy' constantly, although there was never any question in my mind that I liked girls. In junior high I briefly experimented with applying make-up until a friend convinced me I'd get my butt kicked if anyone from school discovered it (mid 80s). Remembering these things lead me to think I perhaps just buried this aspect of myself for ages in fear. I learned to be masculine and the teasing eventually stopped.

 

I'm still relatively new on my journey, so I'm here to learn and figure myself out more. After lots of reading I suppose I currently identify as transfemme. Haven't come out to anyone yet. I feel like I need more experience and searching to be sure. But I'm definitely having fun along the way! Cheers everyone! 

           

[KathyLauren]

Hi, Justine.  Welcome to Trans Pulse.

 

Many of us can relate to your story.  Please feel free to check out the various forums and to join in on any discussions or start your own.

[April Marie]

Welcome to the forums, Justine! We’re glad you found us. You’ll find many of us here who embraced our true selves late in life for many reasons. Each of us is unique, yet we often share much in common. Read, ask questions and jump in where you feel comfortable.

[Mmindy]

Good afternoon, and welcome to Transgender Pulse Forums.

 

As I'm sure you noticed while looking through the forums. You're not alone in your feelings.

 

Best wishes, stay positive, and motivated.

 

Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

[Cynthia Slowan]

Hi Justine! That was a very nice intro, this is a great place to learn about ourselves and to enjoy being who we are!

                               💗 Cynthia 

[Ivy]

Welcome Justine