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Guest Vladmir

I felt like I should share this.

And, wow. Now I know for sure that my brother would never be the one I go to if I REALLY needed to talk to some one.

Excuse me for going off into a story but.. I'm just so bothered by some of the things that happened today.

Today, my Mother, my brother and myself went out to lunch before we were going school shopping (for office supplies and all of that awesome stuff)

And, there was. With out a doubt a transgender (MTF) working there. And my mom knew and had said something after my brother questioned their gender.

No my mom wasn't saying it to be rude, nasty or anything. Just informing.

But my brother went off on how it was wrong and gross.

So I had tried explaining what transgender was. How the body and mind develope differently. He wasn't having it.

I thought this woman was passing wonderfully. I smiled the first time I saw her, she was very confident. Carried herself amazingly.

My brother had to point out what was wrong. Like how you could notice her muscular arms, how she looked like she had surgery on her face and chest -- I attempted to tell him about hormones.. But I couldn't get more then a few words out.

My brother.. Is the most hateful, discriminating person. I...

I don't know what to do half of the time. Because I've changed so much, I can't stand listening to some one crack jokes about asian driving. Or saying something mean about a person they don't know.

because I mean I've literally become incapable of hating something anymore. I've completely changed the way I speak, I'm hardly cursing or putting something down..

I'm starting to really get frustrated with all of the negativity in my house. Because, I'm possibly the only one living here who is utterly open minded and accepting of everyone.

We dropped my brother off at his girlfriends later, and. I started to talk to my mom about what happened. I went off into a big rant, which went from transgenders to homosexuality and gay marriage..

I ended up getting choked up(I was very close to crying). I was so mad, thinking about how unaccepting people are.

How stupid people can be.

How am I supposed to deal with this?

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We are supposed to forgive and love our enemies just as we do for our friends.

We aren't supposed to judge so don't let someone who does drag you into that.

It is very difficult to educate people who don't want to learn.

He is your brother so you are forced to be around him and that iis a test of your open-mindedness.

Good luck.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest ~Brenda~

Dearest Vlad,

Throughout your entire life you will run into bigotry. You will run into people who simply judge a person soley on their appearance, or whatever. Sometimes people react the way they do (like your brother) because they see something in themselves that they don't understand and lash out at those that remind them of what they don't want to feel. Your attitude is wonderful!! Just continue to be who you are and live your life by your principles. You cannot be responsible for anyone else's behaviors or attitudes. Life is a very long road. Your travels have just begun.

Love

Brenda

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Guest rachael1

Hi Vlad,

Great name by the way; you sound completey opposite to your illustrious namesake - Vlad the impaler.

I'm sorry to hear about your brother's intolerances, a lot of people discriminate against things they don't understand or fear.

I assume he doesn't know you're transgender?

You sound like a nice person who has a lot of empathy for others which is a great trait, however for your own sanity I would try not to let other peoples comments and attitudes affect you too deeply. Some people make comments they don't really mean just to rile somebody, maybe your brother sensed this would upset you, afterall that's the sort of things brothers do.

Rachael

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Guest darlene lynn

Hi Vlad

Many people dont understand that WE transgender and many other groups dont choose to be the way we are, but that we have been this way from birth. So ignorance happens to follow us around. Ive talk to many straight persons that cant seem to comprehend any thing different from themselves. sadly this is the world we live in. So dont let the ignorance of others get you down,keep your focus on who you are and dance into tomorrow. God bless

LOL

Darlene

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Guest NicolaiAE

Hey Vladmir,

Sorry about your brother's comments, it happens when we least want them too. Definitely, if he's understanding to you, tell him that you don't like it when he talks about people that are different to him. You could say that he embarrassed himself, your mother, and you when he struck out like that. I don't have any siblings so I don't really have a good response to one expressing something less than open mindedness towards another group of people.

I hope everything sorts out. Maybe you can get him to understand one day. :)

-Nicolai

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Guest Jean Davis

Hey Vlad

First of all let me applaud you for changing the way you think and treat people,Bravo !!! It takes a very strong individual to change their veiws, But that is only half the battle. Next you have to learn to coexist with those who don't share your views and support those who do. I truely hope your brother comes around in a while and learns that not many people respect people who don't respect others.

Hope this helps ;)

Jean Davis

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Guest Vladmir

First, thank you ever one.

It really doen't help that my brother and I have never gotten along well.

SkeleTonya - I know exactly what you mean. I've always kept quiet about these things. I'm afraid of getting the "why do you care so much? Do you think you're transgendered" or "What? Are you gay?"

Because I'd have to lie. I tried coming out to my mom about being bi-sexual (about a year ago) and I was given this "Either you're gay or you're not. Pick one. Are you gay?" Lovely thing to hear from your mother really.

Rachael - I actually adore reading things about Vlad, which is the irony in this situation isn't it?

And, no they don't know anything about me. As far as my family knows.

I'm Destiney, I'm female. I'm straight as a pinstripe. I'm dating a homophobe for christ sake! (which is about as painful as it sounds)

And, he wasn't doing it to upset me. He shut up after my mom said something (I was at a cross between lookinh upset because he was being mean and jabbing his eye out with my chopsticks..)

Everyone else- I've told my brother, as well as my mother (My dad is never around; Lest. He never uses the term "sweetheart" and only uses "gay" when hernestly talking about a homosexual) that I don't like hearing it. My mom; she tries, kind of - it's a hard habit to break I suppose.

My brother doesn't care. He will never change his ways - perhaps even disown me as family if I ever came out?

But alas. I'm going to have to try and learn to ignore people... Seeing as. I'm once again going to be surrounded by thick-headed high schoolers in 22 days.

[God save me ;~;]

xVlad

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