Up To The Largest Diameter Dilator Today

[VickySGV]

Today, I began using my largest diameter dilator, the one I get to use from here on out, unless I goof off and lose some size. I traded a dot of depth for the diameter, and while it is tight, I have learned to rotate it past the ouchy spots. I have a few nerves that are hinting at pleasure in the months to come, but the bad ouches are over. I may get over my intention to remain celibate at this point, but even the possibility is a far cry from what my thoughts were two weeks ago.

I was really supposed to be here last week, but I developed a yeast infection, and had to wait for it to clear up to increase my size up to the middle sized "boy friend". He is history now, and only about a day overdue per the instruction sheet. I remember yeast infections in my ex-spouse and my two daughters, and now I really know what they went through there. They did not laugh at me too hard when I told them about it!!!

I am still happy with my decision to have SRS, and I know it was right for me. The pain though has been real, and is part of the price I am paying, but worth it in my mind. I am starting to put the pain behind me, and the sharpness of it has dulled in what I really feel, also time is starting to collapse in on itself, and I cannot put time to things like I did on my first three days.

Its a bigger decision than we can grasp at the time we make it.

[Guest]

Hi Vicky,

Lead the way, dearest!

I don't know what I'll be saying postop, but have really thought about that last line: "It's a bigger decision than we can grasp at the time we make it." I made the decision 40 years ago. Made it again with more conviction last summer as the letters were completed. And now, standing on the doorstep, wavering with nervous second thoughts... I'll stick to my decisions because I know they were valid, will live life forward without regret. But, (I seem to find that word too often) what costs? What else will I know that I don't know now? Oh what the heck? Full speed ahead, and damn the torpedoes!

So, making the full circle on the thought. Largest size dilator / torpedo? Those things scare the dickens out of me!

Love, Megan

[Guest]

Yes damn the torpedos!!! Don't worry Kiddo. I'm the little PT boat at your side, I will protect your cruiser. If anything tries to submarine you, *way giggle* I have the depth charges ready. Stay on board and don't jump ship!

Like I said gray is my to die for color! LOL! Keep your colors flying, you will have a victory! Hug. JodyAnn

PS---Vicky did! She is relaxing on her desert island with hunky men to give her dates. That and she doesn't even need to put up with frivelous small talk too. Giggle. JA

[Cyndee]

Its a bigger decision than we can grasp at the time we make it.

Wise words indeed.

C Rae -

[Charlize]

Thank you again for your wise words. I hope Jody doesn't sink anyone's submarine if the torpedoes are needed. I am on the fence but seem quite content there for the time being. I spent so long just finding the courage to do what i've done. There is also the fact that i am one of a couple. I am grateful for the posts as they help me better understand myself and others.

I may someday damn the torpedoes, especially the ones that hurt.

Hugs,

Charlie

[Drea]

Sounds like it won’t be long before we all will be hearing about orgasms and how much fun dilating has become. That’s always a popular topic.

I don’t remember loss of depth with wider diameter, but I guess it varies.

Perhaps, since you been so recently thru it, you might share how you dealt with the yeast infection since treatment of such is fraught with many potholes in both the detection and especially treatment in post-operative MTF. Others could benefit.

Its a bigger decision than we can grasp at the time we make it.

Sounds like a good topic to elaborate on if you will. Perhaps a different topic altogether.