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Guest Emily Ray

I have my Intake Evaluation tomorrow at The Emily Program

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Tomorrow morning I am meeting with a counsler at an Eating Disorders treatment program. I will have a 1 hour session followed by an 1½ hours of testing. What all is involved I don't really know. I do know that since Feb 2nd I have lost 12-15lbs. I rarely consume more than 700 calories a day. It has gotten so bad that my dog Chestnut is loosing weight also.

I have always been proud of my ability to figure out how to slove my problems on my own, but this is one that I am completely powerless over. In this case I need to find the experts and let them help me or I will starve myself to death. In the beginning there was a fair amount of body image issues, but now even I can see that I am loosing my curvy butt. This ED has taken over my life and besides asking for help I can do little and that is a scary place to be!!!

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Emily

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JJ

That can be a bear to fight from what I have heard but it can be overcome and you are wisely getting the help you need.

My thoughts and good wishes are with you for tomorrow

Johnny

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Guest ~Brenda~

Ummm please explain why an innocent animal is suffering. Your problems are not your dogs's problems. Your dog deserves the best of care and so do you. Perhaps if you cannot take care of your dog properly then you must place your dog with someone who can.

Eating disorders are very dangerous. People die from eating disorders... OK? I am glad to see that you are getting help. How about your dog?

Brenda

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Guest Emily Ray

Brenda,

Chestnut is not eating because she sees that I am in pain emotionally! She always has food in her dish and always has fresh water. If she is doing this with me what do you think would happen to her if I just handed her off to a shelter or some other stranger? She would die of a broken heart!!! What do you think would happpen to me if I gave up Chestnut to a shelter? I would die of a broken heart!!! We are happy together, we are sad together and now we suffer together and neither one of us would have it any other way!!!

Emily

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VickySGV

The old Romans had a way with words I think some times, in their words "Mens sana, corporae sana" meant that you need a sound mind to have a sound body and the other way around too. I am hoping so much that both parts of you can be brought to soundness and health. Your bcf (best canine friend) really needs you to do that for her as you know. Looking for help is wonderful, but do reach and hold tightly to the help you get. That can be the hardest part, but it needs to be done.

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Carolyn Marie

I'm glad you're seeking professional help, Emily. I wish you the best.

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Carolyn Marie

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Guest Emily Ray

I met with the Psychologist today at The Emily Program. I don't think I could have found a better person to do my evaluation. She was younger than me and her did her Doctoral Thesis on disparities of care in the transgender community. She knows personally both my Psychiatrist and Gender Therapist. She understood how eating disorders can be complicated by being trans and how it can lead to contradictory feelings. Anyways, part 1 is completed.

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Guest Jenny C

Congratulation my dear !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;-)

You're on the road !!!

Love,

Jenny

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VickySGV

ON THE WAY!!! :thumbsup: :thumbsup:

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Guest Emily Ray

Tomorrow I am meeting with a nurse specialist at the VA for an evaluation. They usually fe base out treatment of ED to community providers and I hope they will do that for me.

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Emily

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