Who I Am

[Guest SamIThinkIAm]

Hidden in the mirror there is: me. Sam.

The mirror hides:

There is the boy who loves to dance and dream.

The boy whose heart dances hopelessly to the beat one of very different drum.

The boy who crumples if you look at him the wrong way.

The poet who is too insecure and sensitive for his own good.

The romantic who wishes and hopes and prays that someday he will be the moon, sun and stars in somebody's world and have someone to be the centre of his world and the object of his devotion in turn.

The bleeding heart so to speak who sees so much pain, hatred and suffering in the world and it shakes him and hurts to his very core---but he feels so helpless.

The animal lover who is ashamedly one of those people who baby babbles at their pets and treats them like his kids.

The timid pacifist who--admittedly--is sometimes even scared of his own shadow so to speak and just timid and gentle--really by nature I'm no fighter.

The protector and caretaker who would do anything for the people he loves--even if it means violence.

The foodie who's, like so many other men, heart is best captured through his stomach

The boy who is deeply sensual and who lives through his senses

The goofy oddball who likes to laugh and entertain even though I'm terrified I'll make a fool of myself

The passionate guy who is too stubborn sometimes

The rocker with the messy dark hair and devilish grin

The boy with the muscles who likes to shake his hips to the beat---even if I 'look like a girl'

The boy for who the music speaks, resounds down to the deepest core of my soul and bones---who can be driven to the deepest darkest depths or to the holiest highs just by a melody.

The one full of contradictions sometimes

It hides so many other things too...but at least they're all still there. They'll be reflected back at me someday.

Who/what does the mirror hide for you?

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Sam,

That was just beautiful... sniff...

Many times, I just don't look in the mirror, because so many times it scolds me for trying to be who I am

Love

Brenda

[Guest Kara PK]

Sam, I really liked your post, it made me think a lot about who I really am.

In my mirror, there is:

A girl who gets so attached to people, and tells them nothing.

A girl who loves being unique, and hates it at the same time.

A girl that wants to be around the people she loves, and is lonely whenever nobody is around.

A girl that wants so desperately to be accepted.

Too bad everyone sees a boy who is introverted, annoying at times, and weird.

But it's cool, whatev. Thanks for making me think. :]

[Guest viv]

Thank you Sam, luv,viv

[Guest sarah f]

Love the post Sam. You are opening up to us. I like it.

What do I see.

I see a girl in a mans body.

I see a worried father that could lose his family by transitioning.

I see myself changing into the woman I will become.

I see my beard dissapearing each time I have a laser session and that makes me very happy.

I see an insecure little girl trapped and waiting to come out.

That is just a few.

Love,

Sarah F

[Guest Donna Jean]

Sam......

That was truly inspiring....

My mirror has been broken for years and years....

This last year the picture is becoming more clear ...

It's really starting to show the real me....

Now I like that mirror...I think that I'll keep it!

LOVE

Donna Jean

[Guest Joanna Phipps]

Ah that mirror

the best of friends

the worst of enemies

where did it find

that image it showed

the one of the man

bearded and sad

slowly thats changed

now it does show

the woman I am

with a happy glow

once in a while

there's a fleeting glimps

of what once was

but now it dont last

as I do my hair

or my face I apply

for what was once there

ne'er do I cry

[Guest SamIThinkIAm]

Glad I could be of some inspiration

I guess--well I just like sharing---I've no one to open up to who understands---I'm the only trans person in a sea of cisgender and sometimes close-minded people...so the playground is my haven.

You all respect and acknowledge for the truth the mirror will not show---you speak to Sam as who he is truly--not this body he's wrapped in.

I'm beyond grateful for that.

[Guest Joanna Phipps]

Glad I could be of some inspiration

I guess--well I just like sharing---I've no one to open up to who understands---I'm the only trans person in a sea of cisgender and sometimes close-minded people...so the playground is my haven.

You all respect and acknowledge for the truth the mirror will not show---you speak to Sam as who he is truly--not this body he's wrapped in.

I'm beyond grateful for that.

Sam, in many ways you are like many of us here. Nobody understands a transperson like another transperson for many of us this place has been a lifeline, a source of solace, comfort and a place where we can go when the majority of society doesnt give a rat's butt about us.